Translator: Leonardo Silva Reviewer: Custodio Marcelino
I am advertising and I spend a good part of my career creating stories,
stories usually trying to sell something
that you probably do not have to buy to survive.
I’m not going to talk about it here today,
but I wanted to start by telling a story.
Other than these stories I create in my profession,
It’s a story you need to buy for me to survive.
And no, it’s not a fiction.
I was born gay.
Again: I was born gay.
I did not spend a single year of my life without having to listen to an aggression,
since I understand myself by people,
“bichinha”, “boiolinha”, “Bambi”,
to the point where it became natural to me.
I picked up at 8, I picked up at 9, I picked up at 10, I picked up at 12,
for the simple fact of existing.
I hoped so much for puberty to arrive.
because I imagined that that thick voice that appeared,
this beard, this way a little man – only that is not true –
(Laughs)
They were going to change things a little.
At 18 [years], I picked it up again, and it was the worst of them all.
And I still managed to escape a rape attempt
that happened inside a mall like that.
“Is not that what you like, you fagot?”
To this day, I do not know how I managed to get away from that killer.
That killer, on the other hand, never left me again.
I prayed every day for God to make me “normal”.
Of course, that did not happen.
So I tried to “fix it” by the way.
I dated a lot of women.
I really hurt myself because of this.
and consequently, I ended up hurting people who are very dear.
Years later, I finally felt safe
to follow my truth and my sexuality,
and I went on, never being able to look from the side as a precaution.
This story may seem distant from your reality,
but it happened right here, in our country, in Brazil,
which, not by accident, is the country that kills LGBTs the world over,
In all world;
not far from you too, in this city, in São Paulo,
which, it is no accident, is the city that leads this national ranking
and which was the scene of one of the most symbolic homophobic attacks
that you have news, that you have memory in the country,
which is the attack of the lamp in Av. Paulista.
I think everyone remembers this with regret.
And then, I ask you:
you ever imagined spending a lifetime pretending to be who you are not,
a lifetime can not express their feelings in public,
afraid to catch up, or even die?
And, mainly, you already stopped to think where you are going
all this silence that you feel inside you
when you can not say what you actually think,
or what do you feel?
Where does this silence go?
This is a question that came up in my head all the time:
“Where am I taking this silence that is here in this story?”
Until one day … one morning, not one day …
January of this year, I was sleeping and I woke up thinking about it
because it is something that draws heavily on my mind,
and I said, “Okay, how can I turn all this silence
loud enough for anyone to hear me? “
I got out of bed, picked up a paper and a pen
and I began to write the lyrics of a song.
I had never written a lyrics before, in life,
but it just happened right there in front of me.
These are things that happen and that we can not explain.
I was very anxious about that. I’m married, I waited for my husband to wake up.
He woke up and I said, “Dude, please read it here.”
Then he read, looked and said, “Yeah, but is this a funk?”
(Laughs)
I said, “Yeah, that’s a funk.
And I’ll tell you more: I’m going to record this funk. “
(Laughs)
I do not even need to say how frightening it was in this story,
but everything went well and we are there.
Three months later,
that silence turned into a lyrics had become what …
I apologize for the children in the room,
but I’m going to present you a clip.
(Video)
♪ The boiling is also a struggle …
The boil is also fighting …
Pass on the sidewalk spreading terror
Drop your hand, hold tight, the prosecutor of love has arrived
Everyone is connected; wants to give back, goes on Monday
Break lamp in the face not to stick in the ass
Call me a fagot, inverted and baitola
Bichinha, boiolinha, bambi, chupa-rola
I want a lot of attention because I’m going to tell you
You gotta be a fucking macho so you can fuck your ass.
If I pick up in Paulista, imagine in the alley
Do not fall for the real, but you’re standing on her side
Call Grindr in the church, he will not have it for you.
If you play on the dance floor and pray to dance with Mc Queer
See if you love me or see if you miss me.
Speak to your mine that you like ground wire
I’m really sick of it, so you respect me
Or shut your mouth or fill it up with milk
The boil is also fighting …
The boil is also fighting …
And then, steadfastness? (I.e.
(Video ends)
(Applause) (Live)
Thank you.
Incredibly, it’s the same person.
(Laughs)
It’s still strange to me even today.
I look and say like this: “Man, but how did I do this, man?
How did I dare? “
But yes…
“Queer” is a term that accompanies the sexual identity
and gender identity for a long time.
It was once considered a wholly pejorative word.
It means “strange,” “weird,” in English.
Over time, it has been adopted by the LGBT community
and today she is an umbrella.
Anyone who does not identify as heterosexual can be a queer.
That’s why I chose that name,
to represent as many identities as possible
and not just me.
The mask of MC Queer
was what I had to create to be able to do this,
honestly.
At the same time it represents …
I can not put it because of the microphone …
but at the same time that it represents the mask
which we all LGBTs use every day to survive,
she also protected that a bit and gave more room for it.
I wanted my voice and message to be heard,
more than this face was in front, like a singer.
That was my goal.
I had never sung in my life, ever.
The next day, after writing the song,
I called a friend of my DJ, Master Billy …
“Sound in the box of the Cauldron” …
(Laughs)
and I said, “Man, there’s a project there,”
and he thought I was completely crazy at first,
but when he understood what lay behind it,
he immediately offered to help me.
It was the first yes I received, of many sins that would come forth,
including some people who thrill me a lot
because they are in this audience.
These sins were fundamental for this project to happen.
My friends, my co-workers, my former co-workers,
my ex-bosses, my love,
everyone came together to make this project happen
because they understood how important this was to me
and how much he spoke to my soul.
I had to bring MC Queer to life.
to take away the silence that existed in here and that bothered me so much,
and I chose funk as a vehicle
because it is already a style that has a history of empowering minorities.
Think of the peripheral, think of women,
in the Anittas, in the Valescas, in the Mc Caroles, marvelous,
who were empowered by the rhythm,
and also because it has a giant capillarity in Brazil.
He speaks with different social classes, he speaks with different ages.
So I thought it was the ideal vehicle to do this project.
And then, we released it in May, the song was released on May 15th.
Exactly two days later, I woke up with this news:
“Fiscal” first in the 50 songs of Brazil in Spotify.
(Applause) (Live)
It was a shock!
At the same time, I was very happy because I said:
“Man, the message is being spread!”
On the other hand, I said, “What do I do now?”
(Laughs)
Because it happened in a way that I did not expect either.
And then, suddenly, a song became a song and the clip you saw.
The music and the clip, all of a sudden, were on MTV’s Top Hits.
There, MTV’s music, music video and Top Hits became an album of seven songs,
and the album of seven songs became a version of this song of the clip in English,
which was released in the US and Europe to get the message there as well.
And then I lost control
because the moment I realized it, I had a double life.
(Laughs)
If Monday through Friday I was in the office,
trying to make you buy something that you do not need,
On weekends, I was on stage.
On stage, I was helping people in need
help to survive.
Because all this project is a charitable project, 100% of it.
The income of music, music, the sale of music, any show,
benefits projects and NGOs
who take care of some rights or deal with some LGBT theme,
that I choose the region where I’m doing show, mainly.
(Applause)
Thank you.
(Applause)
The project was amazing, it came out very smoothly,
it seemed like it had to happen, because everything went well,
but it was not so easy, as it seems to me.
It was difficult to deal with.
I picked up again, because of this project,
from within and outside the LGBT community.
From within because we are living a moment of deconstruction of truths
very important and for which I had not yet passed.
My reality is that of a man of gray, white, gay,
and the truths are manifold,
and that is why this stage is so important here today.
I learned many other truths with this project
because of the criticism I received about him,
because people thought I was too simplistic
in the way of passing on this message, but that was a choice.
I thought it had to be simple to reach more people,
especially who I really wanted to reach.
I did not do this project to be gay hero.
I made this project to be a homophobic villain.
It is for them that this letter is written,
and this worked out because if I caught up with the LGBT community,
I caught infinitely more out of it.
On the one hand, because one of the main problems in the world is the lack of empathy.
That is clear: if you do not live my pain,
It’s very difficult for you to understand this pain.
And many people thought that I was doing this project “passing shame”:
“You’re embarrassed by this project.”
It made me think of something that completely changed my life:
I was embarrassed.
And I ask you something that really changed the way I think
about my attitude towards the world
and the importance I give to the world.
Think about this phrase a little:
“What are you willing to be embarrassed about?”
To think about it,
because the answer to that question is exactly
the cause that you should be fighting in your life,
and I’m willing to pass shame
so that no other LGBT has to hide, catch and die.
I’m going to keep embarrassing.
(Applause) (Live)
Thank you.
(Applause)
And of course I also caught up with the Conservatives,
of the “guardians of morals, of good customs, of the family”.
We are living a conservative wave in the very harmful world,
around the world, and this wave brought Mc
from verbal assaults to very serious threats of death,
with name and address, for me.
And then, I wanted to take up the story I told you back in the beginning,
for you to understand a paradox that is inherent in being who we are:
if I do nothing about it, I’ll take it because I exist;
if I try to do something about it, I’ll take it because I fight.
Difficult, right?
But I made my choice:
I’d rather live a fighting life.
than to run the risk of living this life of mourning.
Thank you.
(Applause) (Live)
Thank you for real.
(Applause) (Live)
Thank you for real.
(Applause)
I am advertising and I spend a good part of my career creating stories,
stories usually trying to sell something
that you probably do not have to buy to survive.
I’m not going to talk about it here today,
but I wanted to start by telling a story.
Other than these stories I create in my profession,
It’s a story you need to buy for me to survive.
And no, it’s not a fiction.
I was born gay.
Again: I was born gay.
I did not spend a single year of my life without having to listen to an aggression,
since I understand myself by people,
“bichinha”, “boiolinha”, “Bambi”,
to the point where it became natural to me.
I picked up at 8, I picked up at 9, I picked up at 10, I picked up at 12,
for the simple fact of existing.
I hoped so much for puberty to arrive.
because I imagined that that thick voice that appeared,
this beard, this way a little man – only that is not true –
(Laughs)
They were going to change things a little.
At 18 [years], I picked it up again, and it was the worst of them all.
And I still managed to escape a rape attempt
that happened inside a mall like that.
“Is not that what you like, you fagot?”
To this day, I do not know how I managed to get away from that killer.
That killer, on the other hand, never left me again.
I prayed every day for God to make me “normal”.
Of course, that did not happen.
So I tried to “fix it” by the way.
I dated a lot of women.
I really hurt myself because of this.
and consequently, I ended up hurting people who are very dear.
Years later, I finally felt safe
to follow my truth and my sexuality,
and I went on, never being able to look from the side as a precaution.
This story may seem distant from your reality,
but it happened right here, in our country, in Brazil,
which, not by accident, is the country that kills LGBTs the world over,
In all world;
not far from you too, in this city, in São Paulo,
which, it is no accident, is the city that leads this national ranking
and which was the scene of one of the most symbolic homophobic attacks
that you have news, that you have memory in the country,
which is the attack of the lamp in Av. Paulista.
I think everyone remembers this with regret.
And then, I ask you:
you ever imagined spending a lifetime pretending to be who you are not,
a lifetime can not express their feelings in public,
afraid to catch up, or even die?
And, mainly, you already stopped to think where you are going
all this silence that you feel inside you
when you can not say what you actually think,
or what do you feel?
Where does this silence go?
This is a question that came up in my head all the time:
“Where am I taking this silence that is here in this story?”
Until one day … one morning, not one day …
January of this year, I was sleeping and I woke up thinking about it
because it is something that draws heavily on my mind,
and I said, “Okay, how can I turn all this silence
loud enough for anyone to hear me? “
I got out of bed, picked up a paper and a pen
and I began to write the lyrics of a song.
I had never written a lyrics before, in life,
but it just happened right there in front of me.
These are things that happen and that we can not explain.
I was very anxious about that. I’m married, I waited for my husband to wake up.
He woke up and I said, “Dude, please read it here.”
Then he read, looked and said, “Yeah, but is this a funk?”
(Laughs)
I said, “Yeah, that’s a funk.
And I’ll tell you more: I’m going to record this funk. “
(Laughs)
I do not even need to say how frightening it was in this story,
but everything went well and we are there.
Three months later,
that silence turned into a lyrics had become what …
I apologize for the children in the room,
but I’m going to present you a clip.
(Video)
♪ The boiling is also a struggle …
The boil is also fighting …
Pass on the sidewalk spreading terror
Drop your hand, hold tight, the prosecutor of love has arrived
Everyone is connected; wants to give back, goes on Monday
Break lamp in the face not to stick in the ass
Call me a fagot, inverted and baitola
Bichinha, boiolinha, bambi, chupa-rola
I want a lot of attention because I’m going to tell you
You gotta be a fucking macho so you can fuck your ass.
If I pick up in Paulista, imagine in the alley
Do not fall for the real, but you’re standing on her side
Call Grindr in the church, he will not have it for you.
If you play on the dance floor and pray to dance with Mc Queer
See if you love me or see if you miss me.
Speak to your mine that you like ground wire
I’m really sick of it, so you respect me
Or shut your mouth or fill it up with milk
The boil is also fighting …
The boil is also fighting …
And then, steadfastness? (I.e.
(Video ends)
(Applause) (Live)
Thank you.
Incredibly, it’s the same person.
(Laughs)
It’s still strange to me even today.
I look and say like this: “Man, but how did I do this, man?
How did I dare? “
But yes…
“Queer” is a term that accompanies the sexual identity
and gender identity for a long time.
It was once considered a wholly pejorative word.
It means “strange,” “weird,” in English.
Over time, it has been adopted by the LGBT community
and today she is an umbrella.
Anyone who does not identify as heterosexual can be a queer.
That’s why I chose that name,
to represent as many identities as possible
and not just me.
The mask of MC Queer
was what I had to create to be able to do this,
honestly.
At the same time it represents …
I can not put it because of the microphone …
but at the same time that it represents the mask
which we all LGBTs use every day to survive,
she also protected that a bit and gave more room for it.
I wanted my voice and message to be heard,
more than this face was in front, like a singer.
That was my goal.
I had never sung in my life, ever.
The next day, after writing the song,
I called a friend of my DJ, Master Billy …
“Sound in the box of the Cauldron” …
(Laughs)
and I said, “Man, there’s a project there,”
and he thought I was completely crazy at first,
but when he understood what lay behind it,
he immediately offered to help me.
It was the first yes I received, of many sins that would come forth,
including some people who thrill me a lot
because they are in this audience.
These sins were fundamental for this project to happen.
My friends, my co-workers, my former co-workers,
my ex-bosses, my love,
everyone came together to make this project happen
because they understood how important this was to me
and how much he spoke to my soul.
I had to bring MC Queer to life.
to take away the silence that existed in here and that bothered me so much,
and I chose funk as a vehicle
because it is already a style that has a history of empowering minorities.
Think of the peripheral, think of women,
in the Anittas, in the Valescas, in the Mc Caroles, marvelous,
who were empowered by the rhythm,
and also because it has a giant capillarity in Brazil.
He speaks with different social classes, he speaks with different ages.
So I thought it was the ideal vehicle to do this project.
And then, we released it in May, the song was released on May 15th.
Exactly two days later, I woke up with this news:
“Fiscal” first in the 50 songs of Brazil in Spotify.
(Applause) (Live)
It was a shock!
At the same time, I was very happy because I said:
“Man, the message is being spread!”
On the other hand, I said, “What do I do now?”
(Laughs)
Because it happened in a way that I did not expect either.
And then, suddenly, a song became a song and the clip you saw.
The music and the clip, all of a sudden, were on MTV’s Top Hits.
There, MTV’s music, music video and Top Hits became an album of seven songs,
and the album of seven songs became a version of this song of the clip in English,
which was released in the US and Europe to get the message there as well.
And then I lost control
because the moment I realized it, I had a double life.
(Laughs)
If Monday through Friday I was in the office,
trying to make you buy something that you do not need,
On weekends, I was on stage.
On stage, I was helping people in need
help to survive.
Because all this project is a charitable project, 100% of it.
The income of music, music, the sale of music, any show,
benefits projects and NGOs
who take care of some rights or deal with some LGBT theme,
that I choose the region where I’m doing show, mainly.
(Applause)
Thank you.
(Applause)
The project was amazing, it came out very smoothly,
it seemed like it had to happen, because everything went well,
but it was not so easy, as it seems to me.
It was difficult to deal with.
I picked up again, because of this project,
from within and outside the LGBT community.
From within because we are living a moment of deconstruction of truths
very important and for which I had not yet passed.
My reality is that of a man of gray, white, gay,
and the truths are manifold,
and that is why this stage is so important here today.
I learned many other truths with this project
because of the criticism I received about him,
because people thought I was too simplistic
in the way of passing on this message, but that was a choice.
I thought it had to be simple to reach more people,
especially who I really wanted to reach.
I did not do this project to be gay hero.
I made this project to be a homophobic villain.
It is for them that this letter is written,
and this worked out because if I caught up with the LGBT community,
I caught infinitely more out of it.
On the one hand, because one of the main problems in the world is the lack of empathy.
That is clear: if you do not live my pain,
It’s very difficult for you to understand this pain.
And many people thought that I was doing this project “passing shame”:
“You’re embarrassed by this project.”
It made me think of something that completely changed my life:
I was embarrassed.
And I ask you something that really changed the way I think
about my attitude towards the world
and the importance I give to the world.
Think about this phrase a little:
“What are you willing to be embarrassed about?”
To think about it,
because the answer to that question is exactly
the cause that you should be fighting in your life,
and I’m willing to pass shame
so that no other LGBT has to hide, catch and die.
I’m going to keep embarrassing.
(Applause) (Live)
Thank you.
(Applause)
And of course I also caught up with the Conservatives,
of the “guardians of morals, of good customs, of the family”.
We are living a conservative wave in the very harmful world,
around the world, and this wave brought Mc
from verbal assaults to very serious threats of death,
with name and address, for me.
And then, I wanted to take up the story I told you back in the beginning,
for you to understand a paradox that is inherent in being who we are:
if I do nothing about it, I’ll take it because I exist;
if I try to do something about it, I’ll take it because I fight.
Difficult, right?
But I made my choice:
I’d rather live a fighting life.
than to run the risk of living this life of mourning.
Thank you.
(Applause) (Live)
Thank you for real.
(Applause) (Live)
Thank you for real.
(Applause)
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