do you have the gut to practice
forgiveness yes I had to 2008 were ones
of my very important years my mum’s save
up enough money to send me study abroad
in the Western as the student in the
Netherlands I learn a totally new life I
even forgot that I come here for my
education I just go to work and enjoy my
young life it’s 2010 I come back to
Vietnam
I’m very happy I hook and kissed my mom
but I stay unhappy I feel bad because I
skip school and throw away my money and
we say goodbye at the airport
I see tear drop for my mom at that
moment I decide to change back to the
Netherlands I move my education to
suction university I take my studies
seriously after 6 months I lost 10 kilo
body fat and against 7 kilo of muscle I
I feel extremely happy and my my is very
sharp i doing very our school and
everything seemed to turn in a very
positive way did you ever have a time in
your life that life seemed to smite you
two years after I hear bamm-bamm
I look at my alarm clock and it’s 7:00
is the FBI with a short warrants I feel
like I’m in the wrong movie they
separate me and my housemate and they
ask questions do we have weapons do you
have drugs do you have big enough money
in your house after two weeks exactly on
the day that I have to move to answer
down for my education for my internship
at 5:00 a.m. I hear game bam bam in the
front door flashlight through the window
I opened the door and there’s three
police men ask me if I’m leave oh
because they have an arrest warrant on
my name arrived at the police stations
and very shocked they explained for me
about the arrest for an extra distance
after our traveling place-to-place
seeing someone with a handcuffed and
very confused and finally I can ask sir
excuse me can you tell me why am i odd I
got the stockings answer Angele sir
I swear to God
at that time I don’t even know the word
gel they asked me if I have a lawyer and
I don’t so they arranged me a lawyer
from the government thing getting worse
and worse they decide to extend my stay
in jail for another 60 days for further
investigations even the weather turned
bad start raining just like in a movie
everything looked so sad is the first
never imagined in my life that I will be
in jail for such a long time after three
weeks I get out of jail with a very
strict house arrest conditions I have a
big brain list on my left ankle and
restrict to stay in the house I have to
show up in the police station twice a
week and only can get out of the house
two hour per days it’s a very bad but
I’m feeling very grateful because at
least I don’t lost my freedom completely
for two years I fired
extraditions in the Netherlands I’ve
been in and out of prison for three
times my lawyer but stupid is my hero he
get me out the prison all the time
so have the chance to come back and do
my eight occasions as my internship 2014
came with a very bad news the US
government decides to appeal the
decisions of the court in then hoc and
this time I had to fight but I lost so
they shipped me to the US March 2014 I
come back to prison
a news journalist
give me the book named the secret of
life after our last interview and I
think that I learned the secret of life
inside the self before they shipped me
to the US after three days I see the
u.s. muscle for the first time and for
the first time in my life I get
handcuffed I do understand that’s the
landing in the US I immediately feel the
polos in air is the thick air and it’s
totally different with the first and
nice air we have here in the Netherlands
I arrived robot I Dayton’s it turns in
food in the US prison is very bad on
proceed food but I’m grateful for that
by practicing the book the secret of
life because I still have food to it
what are the Rings at breathe and the
afterward they send me to the general
populations right there I meet my first
live teacher Mita Eugene Chang
the only Koreans in the whole prisons
with his 40 years of wisdoms I talk and
learn from him every night I learn about
life I learn about prison rules and I
learn about so many things that helped
sometimes I feel that I’m lucky that I
lock up because when I’m inside I have
so much time to study things in life one
day after the basketball match
I sit now and talk with a Porto Rican
kid is this weird when you sit down
other race and have a long conversations
because it’s one of the most unwanted
things to see in prisons he opened
himself to me and he tell me why he get
lockup which is I’m robbery yes a young
kid armed robbery
he about 16 years old and he tell me
that his parents is a crackhead couple
they used to smoke crack in front of him
and his younger brother
Cindy was very young right there I
understand the meaning of put yourself
in other people’s hooves I slowed down a
lot I talk and learn about people
background imagines it was if we was
born and grow up in that environment
we’ll be better than him can we not do
I spent 18 months atop prisons and then
they shipped me to another prisons the
new prisons is pretty nice and lovely
yes because I received better foot and a
better facility I spent three month
there to finish my sentence
now they ship me through the
immigrations it Tenzin’s the new prison
is very bad compared to the last one but
it’s still better than the first one
and I’m so happy
accounting everyday because the data I’m
seeing my family is coming but you know
what in the say at the same time I’m so
confused because it’s look like the
immigrations officer is playing with
eysan people own as a race they come
back after the maximum of two months and
I’m waiting here for five months now so
I decided to go for a hunger strike the
don’t need for almost a week and I lost
finally I go back to Vietnam on the data
I stepped my foot on the airplane I feel
very very happy and there’s no what in
the war can describe how happy I am at
that moment I thought we just have to
follow our plant but I saw that in life
we cannot really plan everything ahead
and expect everything will happen in our
favor to stay mentally healthy I managed
to read books keeping my diet and walk
our lot during those two and half years
behind bar
I adjust my mental not to thinking about
my plan that I have before
instead I adapt myself to the new
environment
I believe in planning’s and adjust your
current situation to get the most out of
it
a possible people plan things but when
things not happen in the way you love
don’t be confused just add a bit and you
will figure out how much more amazing
you are with a new plan every day I lock
myself in the seven prisons for at least
half hour for meditations I love it
does half hour of sessions help me to go
through a lot of stress and go through
all the best things behind a bar in
meditations is teach you to forgive you
may have to forgive your enemy you will
have to forgive the people who hurt you
and even you have to love them people do
we practiced forgiveness to developed
our Compassion’s and become more of a
humans those people who did bad thing to
you just because they don’t understand
the beauty of compassion and the beauty
of a peaceful my forgive people love
them and even educate them about
forgiveness that’s why everyone we can live in a love at war right