[music]
from the moment of our birth the doctors supposedly
determine our future destiny, they
looking at the child’s genitals smiling
then give it to his parents say you
boy or girl and then baby
Is it wrapped in pink or blue diaper
and most likely
the child will be brought up with that
sex forgetting under sometimes not even knowing about
that the floor is very hard
layered structure which is not
ends on our details
something like this happened to me
when I was born my testimony of
I was credited with giving birth to a male
only on the basis of the slave my genitals
cried bitterly because she was waiting for her granddaughter
imagine what her surprise will be
after a couple of decades when she will understand
that I was the very granddaughter that she
waited so much but i didn’t care i was
happy child in the garden happy
children where are the boundaries between boys and
the girls were blurred
either they just didn’t have but once
everything stopped i went to the first class
where are the boundaries of disease boys in suits
girls in sundresses and no exceptions
and everything is much deeper and more complicated than it can
seem at first glance these battered
installations that are broadcast from everywhere
constantly something like don’t you dare cry
boy and should not cry or lead
quieter
girls must be quiet familiar not
so I am convinced that every case
I always knew my individual
who am I this knowledge as if an axiom
it was inside of me but unfortunately people
those around us ca n’t read minds and don’t
I feel what we feel and
so the school years were some of
the worst of my life besides
neglect of spoiling my
insults things
I very often faced with physical
Violence could wait for me after
school throwing stones spitting
kick me everyone considered it their own
by duty
they also tried to beat me very often
by the crowd
just imagine one small
child against a mob of angry children
fearfully
unimaginably my family could not accept
I thought that what was happening with
make me a son at school
whom they wanted to see for me
for some part of my family I
died for another I became a stigma
for me it was not accepted to talk
family activities I became person
non grata
teachers see my bloodied
face said something like so she go
beyond the school grounds
and then at least kill each other
was so kind from the side
my own elder brother with his
friends like that tried to shave me
they kept me called
and he was savoring his hair cut strand by strand
knowing perfectly well what is depriving me of hair
equated with deprivation of honor and once
it seemed to me that the nightmare was over I
enrolled in art college where well
you know this stereotype that all
creative people are a little strange and
so they can I thought that I can
but not here, too, my dreams were
destined to conflict with the outside world
represented by the college administration which
entered into incredible rabies from
inconsistencies
my papers and how I look
my work on viewing could just
bypass
I was threatened with physical violence
an adult woman if I did not stop
and yourself according to your
inner feelings and finally may
the pronoun she intentionally ignored
and even mocked call me she
it was a three year fight which i am not
endured you grieving from daily attacks
and threats I made the decision to leave for this
all necessary conditions were created
I was eighteen years old I didn’t know what
do i was lost
I was scared the view was documents
my identity
I had a completed education and
feeling like you’re alone in this world
it is unfair
when your rights are violated and everyone around
anyway my case may seem
one in a million but I assure you I am far away
not alone I found people who are not all
equally
people who can not pass by a stranger
pain i was inspired by the name they showed me
what
transgender experience and experience
transgender people he is not necessarily
only about suffering
he is also a force and a
perseverance so I became a trans activist
for the most part my activism
he is about visibility visibility of one or another
social group means approval
the existence of this social group and
understanding of the problems with which this group
faces visibility helps people
like me being myself and taking pictures
stigmatization of transgender people
transgender is an umbrella term
uniting a diverse group of people a
gender is a deep inner awareness
myself
little by little we began to interact
with my parents and with my family as a whole
we learned to talk again we
learned to use uncomfortable and
unusual for them pronouns and
finally my real name was
long and hard painstaking work
which will probably continue all
my life but you imagine not
you can
what is happiness when your mother
pleads his daughter, my activism
the path is not over I still haven’t
there were documents certifying mine
personality and I still didn’t have
completed education enlisting
With the support of my family, I tried
contact lyse my high schools of ours
countries to discuss my
performance
everything was perfect exactly until that moment
until i showed my documents and
started explaining the situation my opponents
changed dramatically in the face
but noted that they all understand but not
can guarantee that I understand others and
that i will be safe therefore given
advice you can try chatting for
abroad when such one says
best universities of the country is encouraging but
we listened to the advice and set about
work a whole year went on the search
a suitable university heap
with and exams in general stress tears
experiences and all for good reason we found
university who didn’t care but
my Documents
he was important to my personality and then what
i am capable
they were glad to accept me
and on the basis of my s and i even got
Scholarship case remained for small to me
just needed to get
student visa and here it is the moment of truth
I’m standing in front of the consular window and cute
chatting with the lady opposite
she is reviewing a package of documents
I notice or perceptible
but painfully familiar facial expression through
a couple of minutes this nice woman will say that
I am denied a student
visas
we assumed a similar option
so we had the opportunity to file
application again this time
besides my scholarships and letters from my
college we also attached a few
letters from professors with recommendations and
also some letters from my future
employers who were willing
take me to work after i
back unfortunately in the second
and then the third time I was denied
consulate has the right not to explain to you
the reason for their refusal, they give out
standard paper in which it is written
something like a potential illegal
an immigrant as my later told me
university since 2010 they received
about 16 students I was the only one
who was denied a student visa
guess what set me apart
other 16 students
we are back to this point again I was
devastated but could not give up as
spoke my boxing coach is very hard
and
Abai even harder, I realized that since I do not
I can get an education on this
The moment I need to get my documents
we very often think about which
influence our ID or passport
have our life for any
social services in one way or another
social area you need to present
your ID
for transgender people it is very common
traumatic experience and sometimes unsafe
gender recognition procedure
occur
similarly kazakhstan has one
the main and important condition you need
surgically changing their genitals that
makes this procedure forced you
think
Does anyone have the right to force you to
change your body
let’s say you come receive your
identity tell you about a second
you must cut off your hand first
adjust it to a certain standard and
only then can we give you
certificates otherwise sorry we are nothing
can help you figure it out where you are
will cut off the hand and how because of what
money and where to look for this money too
you need to understand having passed all
necessary procedures
with trembling hands I held my
certificate
no personality it was an incredible power
the moment after which I no longer
need to be afraid
but I also know those who are much lucky
less according to a study estimate
transgender needs in central
Asia in Kazakhstan more than half
transgender people claims that
don’t feel safe 98
percent of respondents notes that
daily confronted with emotional
verbal psychological abuse and
also more than half point out that
ever encountered any
physically abused
Now November means that in just
four days will be World Memorial Day
killed by transphobia
people who may have been killed
committed suicide because they were not
took
I am convinced that he himself was covered with ice
if I knew what was going on
go through transgender people in order
to live my life without fear i
I hope that as many people as possible will
become our allies and
someday we will not have to
mourn the dead listening to my story
it becomes clear that we are much
more face than just a box with
the letter m and the box with the letter we have
much more colors than blue pink
and
it also becomes clear that institutions
school friends family
evidence of births and even genitals
don’t define
then who you really are in such
case
who determines thank you
[applause]
[music]
from the moment of our birth the doctors supposedly
determine our future destiny, they
looking at the child’s genitals smiling
then give it to his parents say you
boy or girl and then baby
Is it wrapped in pink or blue diaper
and most likely
the child will be brought up with that
sex forgetting under sometimes not even knowing about
that the floor is very hard
layered structure which is not
ends on our details
something like this happened to me
when I was born my testimony of
I was credited with giving birth to a male
only on the basis of the slave my genitals
cried bitterly because she was waiting for her granddaughter
imagine what her surprise will be
after a couple of decades when she will understand
that I was the very granddaughter that she
waited so much but i didn’t care i was
happy child in the garden happy
children where are the boundaries between boys and
the girls were blurred
either they just didn’t have but once
everything stopped i went to the first class
where are the boundaries of disease boys in suits
girls in sundresses and no exceptions
and everything is much deeper and more complicated than it can
seem at first glance these battered
installations that are broadcast from everywhere
constantly something like don’t you dare cry
boy and should not cry or lead
quieter
girls must be quiet familiar not
so I am convinced that every case
I always knew my individual
who am I this knowledge as if an axiom
it was inside of me but unfortunately people
those around us ca n’t read minds and don’t
I feel what we feel and
so the school years were some of
the worst of my life besides
neglect of spoiling my
insults things
I very often faced with physical
Violence could wait for me after
school throwing stones spitting
kick me everyone considered it their own
by duty
they also tried to beat me very often
by the crowd
just imagine one small
child against a mob of angry children
fearfully
unimaginably my family could not accept
I thought that what was happening with
make me a son at school
whom they wanted to see for me
for some part of my family I
died for another I became a stigma
for me it was not accepted to talk
family activities I became person
non grata
teachers see my bloodied
face said something like so she go
beyond the school grounds
and then at least kill each other
was so kind from the side
my own elder brother with his
friends like that tried to shave me
they kept me called
and he was savoring his hair cut strand by strand
knowing perfectly well what is depriving me of hair
equated with deprivation of honor and once
it seemed to me that the nightmare was over I
enrolled in art college where well
you know this stereotype that all
creative people are a little strange and
so they can I thought that I can
but not here, too, my dreams were
destined to conflict with the outside world
represented by the college administration which
entered into incredible rabies from
inconsistencies
my papers and how I look
my work on viewing could just
bypass
I was threatened with physical violence
an adult woman if I did not stop
and yourself according to your
inner feelings and finally may
the pronoun she intentionally ignored
and even mocked call me she
it was a three year fight which i am not
endured you grieving from daily attacks
and threats I made the decision to leave for this
all necessary conditions were created
I was eighteen years old I didn’t know what
do i was lost
I was scared the view was documents
my identity
I had a completed education and
feeling like you’re alone in this world
it is unfair
when your rights are violated and everyone around
anyway my case may seem
one in a million but I assure you I am far away
not alone I found people who are not all
equally
people who can not pass by a stranger
pain i was inspired by the name they showed me
what
transgender experience and experience
transgender people he is not necessarily
only about suffering
he is also a force and a
perseverance so I became a trans activist
for the most part my activism
he is about visibility visibility of one or another
social group means approval
the existence of this social group and
understanding of the problems with which this group
faces visibility helps people
like me being myself and taking pictures
stigmatization of transgender people
transgender is an umbrella term
uniting a diverse group of people a
gender is a deep inner awareness
myself
little by little we began to interact
with my parents and with my family as a whole
we learned to talk again we
learned to use uncomfortable and
unusual for them pronouns and
finally my real name was
long and hard painstaking work
which will probably continue all
my life but you imagine not
you can
what is happiness when your mother
pleads his daughter, my activism
the path is not over I still haven’t
there were documents certifying mine
personality and I still didn’t have
completed education enlisting
With the support of my family, I tried
contact lyse my high schools of ours
countries to discuss my
performance
everything was perfect exactly until that moment
until i showed my documents and
started explaining the situation my opponents
changed dramatically in the face
but noted that they all understand but not
can guarantee that I understand others and
that i will be safe therefore given
advice you can try chatting for
abroad when such one says
best universities of the country is encouraging but
we listened to the advice and set about
work a whole year went on the search
a suitable university heap
with and exams in general stress tears
experiences and all for good reason we found
university who didn’t care but
my Documents
he was important to my personality and then what
i am capable
they were glad to accept me
and on the basis of my s and i even got
Scholarship case remained for small to me
just needed to get
student visa and here it is the moment of truth
I’m standing in front of the consular window and cute
chatting with the lady opposite
she is reviewing a package of documents
I notice or perceptible
but painfully familiar facial expression through
a couple of minutes this nice woman will say that
I am denied a student
visas
we assumed a similar option
so we had the opportunity to file
application again this time
besides my scholarships and letters from my
college we also attached a few
letters from professors with recommendations and
also some letters from my future
employers who were willing
take me to work after i
back unfortunately in the second
and then the third time I was denied
consulate has the right not to explain to you
the reason for their refusal, they give out
standard paper in which it is written
something like a potential illegal
an immigrant as my later told me
university since 2010 they received
about 16 students I was the only one
who was denied a student visa
guess what set me apart
other 16 students
we are back to this point again I was
devastated but could not give up as
spoke my boxing coach is very hard
and
Abai even harder, I realized that since I do not
I can get an education on this
The moment I need to get my documents
we very often think about which
influence our ID or passport
have our life for any
social services in one way or another
social area you need to present
your ID
for transgender people it is very common
traumatic experience and sometimes unsafe
gender recognition procedure
occur
similarly kazakhstan has one
the main and important condition you need
surgically changing their genitals that
makes this procedure forced you
think
Does anyone have the right to force you to
change your body
let’s say you come receive your
identity tell you about a second
you must cut off your hand first
adjust it to a certain standard and
only then can we give you
certificates otherwise sorry we are nothing
can help you figure it out where you are
will cut off the hand and how because of what
money and where to look for this money too
you need to understand having passed all
necessary procedures
with trembling hands I held my
certificate
no personality it was an incredible power
the moment after which I no longer
need to be afraid
but I also know those who are much lucky
less according to a study estimate
transgender needs in central
Asia in Kazakhstan more than half
transgender people claims that
don’t feel safe 98
percent of respondents notes that
daily confronted with emotional
verbal psychological abuse and
also more than half point out that
ever encountered any
physically abused
Now November means that in just
four days will be World Memorial Day
killed by transphobia
people who may have been killed
committed suicide because they were not
took
I am convinced that he himself was covered with ice
if I knew what was going on
go through transgender people in order
to live my life without fear i
I hope that as many people as possible will
become our allies and
someday we will not have to
mourn the dead listening to my story
it becomes clear that we are much
more face than just a box with
the letter m and the box with the letter we have
much more colors than blue pink
and
it also becomes clear that institutions
school friends family
evidence of births and even genitals
don’t define
then who you really are in such
case
who determines thank you
[applause]
[music]
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