[Music]
and I was a little child that I was
introduced to the world of classical
dance courtesy my parents who
incidentally never came from an artistic
background but a very different
background steeped in civil service
Zamindari and social service and
politics and but it was them who
introduced me to dance and I took to
dance like a fish to water and their or
their on I knew that I wanted to be a
dancer of course that was not the dumb
thing people kept on telling me dance
hey hey hey hey hey hey
and yeah but my desire was there the
passion was there and yet I and I went
ahead with it at the same time I loved
studies so the question was if you’re a
dancer can you be good at academics if
you’re good at academics can you be a
good dancer and so on but what was clear
in my mind even as a child was that I
was making my own path I did not want
role models I was making charting my own
path and my and traveling my own journey
and in that journey of course a lot of
comments came our ways and that is to be
expected
when you take something unusual when you
want to do our leader dual parallel
career I think it’s not very easy there
for people with different mindset who
only to accept it but I was always had
that passion and belief that I wanted to
do it and therefore I did it my parents
only thing was whatever you do do it
with depth do it with gravity do it with
ethics and morality do it the right way
do it
honestly learn your own understand your
own shortcomings understand your own
strengths and again work on your honing
your strengths but work on your
shortcomings so that you at least are
addressing those issues but at the same
time have a realistic view of what you
want to achieve very realistic in life
so those
the grounding that I got at home and of
course the kind of surrounding that I
received at home I think in a way
influenced me in what I became and
enriched was also reflected in the words
at a time when nobody talked of
environment I’m talking about 1980s
nobody talked of environment the
question was there was the Sudan famine
etc going on IVs and then in our own
country we had the whole issue of bonded
labor etc were under discussion I will
address that issue of environment and I
threw my dance which again was something
which people did not have not heard of
it before
similarly when there was this there were
many social issues but again it I would
say the credit comes because of the
family background I came from where
again I was steeped into it and
therefore it had become part of me now
coming to that of course there are
obstacles there are fears I remember
there are voice not beset with fear who
is not beset which your journeys not
beset with challenges and obstacles
there was a time when I was barely 18 or
19 that was a time when I was coming out
as a soloist getting to be recognized as
a professional soloist and it was my
first solo performance without my guru
helping me in the wings and conducting
the program and it was in Bombay and in
the great Jean McConnell Hall I almost
had a stage fright because there that
was a big lesson that I learned in life
also is that what you learn in schools
and classes etc and when you’re facing
life how to adapt to these realities
around are two different things without
compromising on what you have in your
artistry and your art form and it was at
that time when I almost got hooted off
the stage and it was a question of that
I will be hooted off or I
have to do something to redeem my
inbreeding of myself within my in my own
eyes I had almost taken dove a parrot
going in back into the wings when I
something snapped in me and I started
parroting I came back and then I started
dancing and I had the audience in my
hands because it was that spirit that I
cannot let it go why I might you know
sort of allowing myself to be become a
failure within myself and and that was a
great learning experience of without
compromising on your art and artistry
and art form how you can adapt it and
you know change it and mold people to
words your way of looking at it and
rethinking talking of another obstacles
and our fears I said that was the
greatest fear of work at that time we
all have beset with fears but it’s the
passion it is the honesty and the
courage within you which keeps going in
the self-confidence not over
self-confidence but fair amount and I
coming to our challenges I think life
has is always testing there is and life
keeps testing you in more ways than one
and our time came when suddenly I lost
my vision because I had a brain stroke a
time km which I still don’t have I do
I’m only with 50% peripheral vision a
time came when my knees just cracked up
even today I have crack knees iter bits
according to the doctors I should be a
bedridden person time came when my
shoulders just gave way again according
to doctors I should be having all this
kind of replacements and I’ve said no
replacements I’ll only replace myself
when I die and go to the other world not
but those young I’m living with pain and
that is it but you are you pain has
become part of my it’s another companion
of mine physical pain but what was also
a time came when my complexion
I started got an autoimmune disease
called lichen planus pigment tortoise
pigmentosa which changed my entire curve
missing and it became my face started
blackening bleeding and peeling and it
was the worst thing that could happen to
a dancer whose visual persona is there
they would and of course and along with
it we talked about we had this beautiful
talk about with of tamanna about you
know of special needs and special their
house especially Abel yeah I’m talking
about that that when it happens to you
then you suddenly realize that you
everybody we all have our senses we all
see but actually do we really see we all
hear but do we really hear we all have
the feeling of touch but are we
sensitive to other people we all I mean
we I are we able to you know sort of
even address the fragrance around us
and therefore you know so those were the
time when I heard catty remarks all over
oh god she goes with a powdered face oh
look at her so those are but at the same
time you come to know that there’s so
many people ready to help you and whose
concern is genuine you come to
differentiate who is genuine and who’s
not and that kind of a you know so those
are obstacles that are there in life
challenges these are to life’s
challenges which are thrown before you
every now and then and it really keeps
you grounded it also at the same time
when talking of there are humorous
moments also with um I would like and
teaching moments also wend up with my
dual career you come to know how
people’s mind
sit and they says this is a lesson that
we all have to learn how people’s
mindset give more importance to the
official chair rather than to the human
being and to the art and that way I was
facing all my life because the official
chairs position is much that and the
artists life the two day are different
and then you see that how people are
reacting to those two different
situations so that’s it also makes you
introspect how what kind of person are
we it shows us in which manner are we
developing as human beings and I’m
talking about the humorous part of it
that again I’ve I was having a I’ve
always had a long-distance marriage in
her long distance of motherhood and but
on one occasion when I was I’m I’m very
proud to be an Indian I always dress up
like this they so even when my husband
who was the Austrian ambassador we went
toward one particular country got off
the tarmac and the plane load had to go
this way and the Austrian ambassador and
the spouse had to go this way I was
trotting behind him so the protocol said
this way so my husband and my wife he
looks at me looks at my husband says are
you sure so those you come across
humorous moments you come across people
who are so helpful so kind but let me
ask you a question first of all how
relevant do you think are my college
Easter day yes not anata DTG I’m talking
about the students students how relevant
do you think hunt is really I mean the
Mahabharata ram-leela Hare Krishna yeah
how relevant is it today
hey gimme hockey nah okay again if I say
that when I look at table drop Adichie’s
Hara is it happening too
even today and don’t we call ourselves
we are children of the toy we are 21st
century technologically advanced
industrially advanced very very
civilized and yet it’s happening today
are we yeah I’ll see you that question
are we some way we need to introspect
what has gone wrong even in spite of the
fact we are 21st century technologically
advanced very very civilized yet scratch
the surface and we are where we were
thousands and thousands and thousands of
years ago so there it is now if I’d look
at it you’re like young many of the
young students 21st century children can
I see that in nom-nom environmental
terms that draupadi children you and I
are the modern-day Doge awesome and the
Draupadi is today’s dirty mother earth
and we are removing her environmental
cover day-in day-out and therefore that
makes us the modern day – Asin and
there’s a beautiful form the shah’s and
buskerud 30 Kachina heron Mad Carew
paint whopper code or hanukkah dosa
hazmat guru – Asin busker busker Busker
oh I ended up with a small rendition of
drop Beach inherent in dance and before
that I would like to say how thankful I
am to TEDx team over here – Aditi ji and
to all of you for giving me this
opportunity of being here sharing my
thoughts my and a few moments of my life
with y’all and where I’ve always held
that UN has to be honest with oneself
one has to be absolutely you know we
should have our dreams but we have to be
very sincere hard-working depth going to
the depth of thing but with morality and
ethics thank you very much indeed and
I’ll
[Laughter]
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[Laughter] [Music]
and I was a little child that I was
introduced to the world of classical
dance courtesy my parents who
incidentally never came from an artistic
background but a very different
background steeped in civil service
Zamindari and social service and
politics and but it was them who
introduced me to dance and I took to
dance like a fish to water and their or
their on I knew that I wanted to be a
dancer of course that was not the dumb
thing people kept on telling me dance
hey hey hey hey hey hey
and yeah but my desire was there the
passion was there and yet I and I went
ahead with it at the same time I loved
studies so the question was if you’re a
dancer can you be good at academics if
you’re good at academics can you be a
good dancer and so on but what was clear
in my mind even as a child was that I
was making my own path I did not want
role models I was making charting my own
path and my and traveling my own journey
and in that journey of course a lot of
comments came our ways and that is to be
expected
when you take something unusual when you
want to do our leader dual parallel
career I think it’s not very easy there
for people with different mindset who
only to accept it but I was always had
that passion and belief that I wanted to
do it and therefore I did it my parents
only thing was whatever you do do it
with depth do it with gravity do it with
ethics and morality do it the right way
do it
honestly learn your own understand your
own shortcomings understand your own
strengths and again work on your honing
your strengths but work on your
shortcomings so that you at least are
addressing those issues but at the same
time have a realistic view of what you
want to achieve very realistic in life
so those
the grounding that I got at home and of
course the kind of surrounding that I
received at home I think in a way
influenced me in what I became and
enriched was also reflected in the words
at a time when nobody talked of
environment I’m talking about 1980s
nobody talked of environment the
question was there was the Sudan famine
etc going on IVs and then in our own
country we had the whole issue of bonded
labor etc were under discussion I will
address that issue of environment and I
threw my dance which again was something
which people did not have not heard of
it before
similarly when there was this there were
many social issues but again it I would
say the credit comes because of the
family background I came from where
again I was steeped into it and
therefore it had become part of me now
coming to that of course there are
obstacles there are fears I remember
there are voice not beset with fear who
is not beset which your journeys not
beset with challenges and obstacles
there was a time when I was barely 18 or
19 that was a time when I was coming out
as a soloist getting to be recognized as
a professional soloist and it was my
first solo performance without my guru
helping me in the wings and conducting
the program and it was in Bombay and in
the great Jean McConnell Hall I almost
had a stage fright because there that
was a big lesson that I learned in life
also is that what you learn in schools
and classes etc and when you’re facing
life how to adapt to these realities
around are two different things without
compromising on what you have in your
artistry and your art form and it was at
that time when I almost got hooted off
the stage and it was a question of that
I will be hooted off or I
have to do something to redeem my
inbreeding of myself within my in my own
eyes I had almost taken dove a parrot
going in back into the wings when I
something snapped in me and I started
parroting I came back and then I started
dancing and I had the audience in my
hands because it was that spirit that I
cannot let it go why I might you know
sort of allowing myself to be become a
failure within myself and and that was a
great learning experience of without
compromising on your art and artistry
and art form how you can adapt it and
you know change it and mold people to
words your way of looking at it and
rethinking talking of another obstacles
and our fears I said that was the
greatest fear of work at that time we
all have beset with fears but it’s the
passion it is the honesty and the
courage within you which keeps going in
the self-confidence not over
self-confidence but fair amount and I
coming to our challenges I think life
has is always testing there is and life
keeps testing you in more ways than one
and our time came when suddenly I lost
my vision because I had a brain stroke a
time km which I still don’t have I do
I’m only with 50% peripheral vision a
time came when my knees just cracked up
even today I have crack knees iter bits
according to the doctors I should be a
bedridden person time came when my
shoulders just gave way again according
to doctors I should be having all this
kind of replacements and I’ve said no
replacements I’ll only replace myself
when I die and go to the other world not
but those young I’m living with pain and
that is it but you are you pain has
become part of my it’s another companion
of mine physical pain but what was also
a time came when my complexion
I started got an autoimmune disease
called lichen planus pigment tortoise
pigmentosa which changed my entire curve
missing and it became my face started
blackening bleeding and peeling and it
was the worst thing that could happen to
a dancer whose visual persona is there
they would and of course and along with
it we talked about we had this beautiful
talk about with of tamanna about you
know of special needs and special their
house especially Abel yeah I’m talking
about that that when it happens to you
then you suddenly realize that you
everybody we all have our senses we all
see but actually do we really see we all
hear but do we really hear we all have
the feeling of touch but are we
sensitive to other people we all I mean
we I are we able to you know sort of
even address the fragrance around us
and therefore you know so those were the
time when I heard catty remarks all over
oh god she goes with a powdered face oh
look at her so those are but at the same
time you come to know that there’s so
many people ready to help you and whose
concern is genuine you come to
differentiate who is genuine and who’s
not and that kind of a you know so those
are obstacles that are there in life
challenges these are to life’s
challenges which are thrown before you
every now and then and it really keeps
you grounded it also at the same time
when talking of there are humorous
moments also with um I would like and
teaching moments also wend up with my
dual career you come to know how
people’s mind
sit and they says this is a lesson that
we all have to learn how people’s
mindset give more importance to the
official chair rather than to the human
being and to the art and that way I was
facing all my life because the official
chairs position is much that and the
artists life the two day are different
and then you see that how people are
reacting to those two different
situations so that’s it also makes you
introspect how what kind of person are
we it shows us in which manner are we
developing as human beings and I’m
talking about the humorous part of it
that again I’ve I was having a I’ve
always had a long-distance marriage in
her long distance of motherhood and but
on one occasion when I was I’m I’m very
proud to be an Indian I always dress up
like this they so even when my husband
who was the Austrian ambassador we went
toward one particular country got off
the tarmac and the plane load had to go
this way and the Austrian ambassador and
the spouse had to go this way I was
trotting behind him so the protocol said
this way so my husband and my wife he
looks at me looks at my husband says are
you sure so those you come across
humorous moments you come across people
who are so helpful so kind but let me
ask you a question first of all how
relevant do you think are my college
Easter day yes not anata DTG I’m talking
about the students students how relevant
do you think hunt is really I mean the
Mahabharata ram-leela Hare Krishna yeah
how relevant is it today
hey gimme hockey nah okay again if I say
that when I look at table drop Adichie’s
Hara is it happening too
even today and don’t we call ourselves
we are children of the toy we are 21st
century technologically advanced
industrially advanced very very
civilized and yet it’s happening today
are we yeah I’ll see you that question
are we some way we need to introspect
what has gone wrong even in spite of the
fact we are 21st century technologically
advanced very very civilized yet scratch
the surface and we are where we were
thousands and thousands and thousands of
years ago so there it is now if I’d look
at it you’re like young many of the
young students 21st century children can
I see that in nom-nom environmental
terms that draupadi children you and I
are the modern-day Doge awesome and the
Draupadi is today’s dirty mother earth
and we are removing her environmental
cover day-in day-out and therefore that
makes us the modern day – Asin and
there’s a beautiful form the shah’s and
buskerud 30 Kachina heron Mad Carew
paint whopper code or hanukkah dosa
hazmat guru – Asin busker busker Busker
oh I ended up with a small rendition of
drop Beach inherent in dance and before
that I would like to say how thankful I
am to TEDx team over here – Aditi ji and
to all of you for giving me this
opportunity of being here sharing my
thoughts my and a few moments of my life
with y’all and where I’ve always held
that UN has to be honest with oneself
one has to be absolutely you know we
should have our dreams but we have to be
very sincere hard-working depth going to
the depth of thing but with morality and
ethics thank you very much indeed and
I’ll
[Laughter]
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