as I said I’m Holly ahmed from st.
Mary’s Catholic High School sixteen
years of age – may i
so I mean all of your attention focus
people at the back so let me give you a
backstory about my life like before the
night right now I’m in 11th grade two
years back when I was in ninth grade and
my life before that so I just like to be
practical and honest I used to be this
guy used to get like 90 plus percentage
I used to respect everyone all my
headless teachers when they split up a
good reputation about me like that I’m a
respectable person I respect everyone
but no one knew what was deep down in my
heart deep down I was scared I was
insecure
I was unconfident for the fact that what
if what I do I’ll be judged for it
someone who will come someone will hit
on me someone will say that what I was
doing it was wrong and one of the main
factor that made me like this was my dad
yes he was he was strict he used to he
was strict
that strictness built up of fear in my
heart that whatever I will do I will do
it wrong well this was one reason and
then after that moreover I had fake
friends like friends that would always
friends that would never have my back
friends that would leave me friends that
would if I share my traumatic
experiences I have been through like
real symmetric experiences that like not
even talked about right now even if I
shared with them they would come up to
me they would laugh at me they would
take it as a joke even though it nest
like like the sorry for laughing or like
no offense or like such places still
like I would over then I would tell them
that it’s fine but when I go home I
would be crying in my bed all day like
why did this inner so this is one way of
looking at it the way I looked at it
back then the other way is yes my
neighbor strict yes my dad used to shout
at me yes my dad used to beat me
sometimes but like he used to love me as
well he used to do that because he
wanted me to be perfect
he wanted me to be the best of who I am
he wanted me he wanted me to be a better
me but if I would have realized this
back then Koreans are going before that
God knows where I would be right now
because as time passed by I realized
that how my dad had left all of his
friends he had cancer his social life
just for the sake of me just so that he
can pay attention to me what I do and
make me a better person
the fake so what I want to learn and
what I want you to learn from this is
don’t make things about yourself don’t
be selfish about everything try to look
at the same thing from the same scenario
but from the other person’s perspective
about why you did it
what was his it was his or her
intentions for doing it don’t just think
that you are the best one over here
everyone’s the best and one sequel in
the patrons yes they left me yes they
never had my back but that made me
stronger that made me realize that I can
fight my battles myself I don’t need to
be dependent on someone to come and
fight for me because I have myself to
fight for to fight all these battles
I’ve been through so but in all of these
two souls together I would like to say
that the SUV plants
but making french your life is not
everything some friends are not family
family this has to be number one
priority in your life no one has ever
reached the end of his life and
regretted not taking his family over
friends yes your friends can be ready
assessments will be heavy no he men will
give you a hundred percent assurance of
helping you when you are in the worst
but you handed so moving on yes this my
life before ninth grade so like it’s a
short story before tenth grade started I
had this friend his name no my father he
forced me to go with my mother to a
party who was going in I didn’t wanted
to go but I was forced to go because we
know how Asian parents are so so over
there there was this guy named Hassan
yeah I hope some of you know so Hassan
he was like a little girl he was hyped
up he was like a famous guy so over
there I was just sitting in the corner I
was watching everyone since I was forced
to go there I like from my heart I
didn’t wanted to be there so hasn’t
started to interact with me and we
became friends I showed him some means
already in my phone he laughed at them
we and at that night I had one of the
best conversations with him I ever had
in before that time but in my mother had
felt I always felt that I can never be
friends with her son because he is the
famous by antisera
no one knows me he is hyped up I am a
nerd no one knows me so don’t limit
yourself to people try to try to be so I
shall try to go try to know people try
to be a better fit try to be a better
self
so as time passed by I came to know more
and more about hasn’t he made me meet
his friends with your Hassan Salameh
Prime and uh-huh
we all used to hang up your used to roam
around we were really good friends but
as time passed by I realized that has
son Solomon Ibraheem they are not good
guys I like what they do what the type
of people their own way but still I used
to roam with them because they were the
only real friends are headed my 15 years
of life I didn’t care about the fact
that they were worst but I can’t that
guess they had been prayin for me and
they had my back when I needed their the
most and so I started to become like one
of them I had I gained confidence I get
it boosted my self esteem I tried it
boosted my self esteem like I I started
talking to so many people and had so
many friends but I was doing everything
oh I was following all the treads but I
was doing
onward by my own way I mean how my mom
brought me up to respect words oh like
me I have gotten mostly my mom’s genes
so I’m emotionally supportive likely
emotionally supported for everyone even
if they’re fake to me so I used to help
depressed people a lot anywhere on
Instagram I see someone post a picture
of their arms slit or someone like that
I would just go straight up I would
start helping them
so there are talking about mental health
I would like to say if anyone of you
over here are suffering with anxiety
depression or something that affects you
mentally in a bad way don’t suppress it
don’t keep it within you go you consult
someone ask someone ask for help because
you suppressing your own mental health
will eat when you’re on visiting so
depressed because there were two stories
connected to this one story ruined my
life in a long-term and one in the
short-term
so the story that my life in the
mountain they used to be this girl she
used to post pictures of her on seeit
and all of this I started helping her
everyone used to say that she’s doing it
for attention she she that’s not really
a depression but I he still used to hurt
her I as helped her for four straight
months and as soon as she got better she
went out she started she spread rumors
about me that I used to abuse her
verbally like I wasn’t going to
I used to hurt her feelings so that led
to a chain reaction of all the rumors
about me right now
the other story the short composed as I
was helping depressed people I used to
help so much that like
messages used to be filled with people
people are using me I like if I don’t
have one and I won’t help the other one
they’ll be like only you’re ignoring me
now you don’t want to be my friend like
that and as people would get better they
would leave me but I didn’t really care
because like helping people was my hobby
I used to making people happy made me
happy and so as time passed by it became
such a burden that I myself got
depression it was for like two three
like two three weeks but it was a real
bad time and that was the time I
realized who are my real friends who are
the people that are using me for their
help and what the people that they
appreciate me are and are going to be
there for me so this led to me removing
so many people from my life and I left
like only six seven people that were
real to me from the picnic so I would
like to tell you that don’t be a
positive person don’t spread rumors
don’t spread rumors around not knowing
the deeper and deeper meaning don’t like
people will misunderstand misunderstand
your thoughts your positive intentions
change it into negative spread around as
if you are the worst guy even when you
want it to be the best that’s that’s
going to hurt you but you need to ignore
it you need to you need
you need to do what your mind tells you
to do not what other people want you to
do you have to do what your heart says
what your heart can see to do so let’s
let’s move on to the topic of love well
for me I believe there is no such thing
as love in this in this land at my age
or younger than me because it’s just
teenagers following trends being just
it’s like a competition of who as the
contest was a friend who has the hottest
boyfriend who’s who has the most
partners in though in one time this
generation has made it seem like a man
or a woman
being loyal to this partner is being is
a luxury instead it should be a standard
you do conclude my speech I would say
yes I’m not the same yes I’m not the
best person to talk about all this
yes I have made mistakes in my past that
led to my misery yes yes but like I am
I’m trying my best to change now I have
realized that I like even if I would
others best I myself also need to be the
best and so this I am right now me it’s
me try to make myself a better person
and rather than going out and helping
people yes I do that but I try my best
to make myself a better person thank you
Mary’s Catholic High School sixteen
years of age – may i
so I mean all of your attention focus
people at the back so let me give you a
backstory about my life like before the
night right now I’m in 11th grade two
years back when I was in ninth grade and
my life before that so I just like to be
practical and honest I used to be this
guy used to get like 90 plus percentage
I used to respect everyone all my
headless teachers when they split up a
good reputation about me like that I’m a
respectable person I respect everyone
but no one knew what was deep down in my
heart deep down I was scared I was
insecure
I was unconfident for the fact that what
if what I do I’ll be judged for it
someone who will come someone will hit
on me someone will say that what I was
doing it was wrong and one of the main
factor that made me like this was my dad
yes he was he was strict he used to he
was strict
that strictness built up of fear in my
heart that whatever I will do I will do
it wrong well this was one reason and
then after that moreover I had fake
friends like friends that would always
friends that would never have my back
friends that would leave me friends that
would if I share my traumatic
experiences I have been through like
real symmetric experiences that like not
even talked about right now even if I
shared with them they would come up to
me they would laugh at me they would
take it as a joke even though it nest
like like the sorry for laughing or like
no offense or like such places still
like I would over then I would tell them
that it’s fine but when I go home I
would be crying in my bed all day like
why did this inner so this is one way of
looking at it the way I looked at it
back then the other way is yes my
neighbor strict yes my dad used to shout
at me yes my dad used to beat me
sometimes but like he used to love me as
well he used to do that because he
wanted me to be perfect
he wanted me to be the best of who I am
he wanted me he wanted me to be a better
me but if I would have realized this
back then Koreans are going before that
God knows where I would be right now
because as time passed by I realized
that how my dad had left all of his
friends he had cancer his social life
just for the sake of me just so that he
can pay attention to me what I do and
make me a better person
the fake so what I want to learn and
what I want you to learn from this is
don’t make things about yourself don’t
be selfish about everything try to look
at the same thing from the same scenario
but from the other person’s perspective
about why you did it
what was his it was his or her
intentions for doing it don’t just think
that you are the best one over here
everyone’s the best and one sequel in
the patrons yes they left me yes they
never had my back but that made me
stronger that made me realize that I can
fight my battles myself I don’t need to
be dependent on someone to come and
fight for me because I have myself to
fight for to fight all these battles
I’ve been through so but in all of these
two souls together I would like to say
that the SUV plants
but making french your life is not
everything some friends are not family
family this has to be number one
priority in your life no one has ever
reached the end of his life and
regretted not taking his family over
friends yes your friends can be ready
assessments will be heavy no he men will
give you a hundred percent assurance of
helping you when you are in the worst
but you handed so moving on yes this my
life before ninth grade so like it’s a
short story before tenth grade started I
had this friend his name no my father he
forced me to go with my mother to a
party who was going in I didn’t wanted
to go but I was forced to go because we
know how Asian parents are so so over
there there was this guy named Hassan
yeah I hope some of you know so Hassan
he was like a little girl he was hyped
up he was like a famous guy so over
there I was just sitting in the corner I
was watching everyone since I was forced
to go there I like from my heart I
didn’t wanted to be there so hasn’t
started to interact with me and we
became friends I showed him some means
already in my phone he laughed at them
we and at that night I had one of the
best conversations with him I ever had
in before that time but in my mother had
felt I always felt that I can never be
friends with her son because he is the
famous by antisera
no one knows me he is hyped up I am a
nerd no one knows me so don’t limit
yourself to people try to try to be so I
shall try to go try to know people try
to be a better fit try to be a better
self
so as time passed by I came to know more
and more about hasn’t he made me meet
his friends with your Hassan Salameh
Prime and uh-huh
we all used to hang up your used to roam
around we were really good friends but
as time passed by I realized that has
son Solomon Ibraheem they are not good
guys I like what they do what the type
of people their own way but still I used
to roam with them because they were the
only real friends are headed my 15 years
of life I didn’t care about the fact
that they were worst but I can’t that
guess they had been prayin for me and
they had my back when I needed their the
most and so I started to become like one
of them I had I gained confidence I get
it boosted my self esteem I tried it
boosted my self esteem like I I started
talking to so many people and had so
many friends but I was doing everything
oh I was following all the treads but I
was doing
onward by my own way I mean how my mom
brought me up to respect words oh like
me I have gotten mostly my mom’s genes
so I’m emotionally supportive likely
emotionally supported for everyone even
if they’re fake to me so I used to help
depressed people a lot anywhere on
Instagram I see someone post a picture
of their arms slit or someone like that
I would just go straight up I would
start helping them
so there are talking about mental health
I would like to say if anyone of you
over here are suffering with anxiety
depression or something that affects you
mentally in a bad way don’t suppress it
don’t keep it within you go you consult
someone ask someone ask for help because
you suppressing your own mental health
will eat when you’re on visiting so
depressed because there were two stories
connected to this one story ruined my
life in a long-term and one in the
short-term
so the story that my life in the
mountain they used to be this girl she
used to post pictures of her on seeit
and all of this I started helping her
everyone used to say that she’s doing it
for attention she she that’s not really
a depression but I he still used to hurt
her I as helped her for four straight
months and as soon as she got better she
went out she started she spread rumors
about me that I used to abuse her
verbally like I wasn’t going to
I used to hurt her feelings so that led
to a chain reaction of all the rumors
about me right now
the other story the short composed as I
was helping depressed people I used to
help so much that like
messages used to be filled with people
people are using me I like if I don’t
have one and I won’t help the other one
they’ll be like only you’re ignoring me
now you don’t want to be my friend like
that and as people would get better they
would leave me but I didn’t really care
because like helping people was my hobby
I used to making people happy made me
happy and so as time passed by it became
such a burden that I myself got
depression it was for like two three
like two three weeks but it was a real
bad time and that was the time I
realized who are my real friends who are
the people that are using me for their
help and what the people that they
appreciate me are and are going to be
there for me so this led to me removing
so many people from my life and I left
like only six seven people that were
real to me from the picnic so I would
like to tell you that don’t be a
positive person don’t spread rumors
don’t spread rumors around not knowing
the deeper and deeper meaning don’t like
people will misunderstand misunderstand
your thoughts your positive intentions
change it into negative spread around as
if you are the worst guy even when you
want it to be the best that’s that’s
going to hurt you but you need to ignore
it you need to you need
you need to do what your mind tells you
to do not what other people want you to
do you have to do what your heart says
what your heart can see to do so let’s
let’s move on to the topic of love well
for me I believe there is no such thing
as love in this in this land at my age
or younger than me because it’s just
teenagers following trends being just
it’s like a competition of who as the
contest was a friend who has the hottest
boyfriend who’s who has the most
partners in though in one time this
generation has made it seem like a man
or a woman
being loyal to this partner is being is
a luxury instead it should be a standard
you do conclude my speech I would say
yes I’m not the same yes I’m not the
best person to talk about all this
yes I have made mistakes in my past that
led to my misery yes yes but like I am
I’m trying my best to change now I have
realized that I like even if I would
others best I myself also need to be the
best and so this I am right now me it’s
me try to make myself a better person
and rather than going out and helping
people yes I do that but I try my best
to make myself a better person thank you
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