ok so
[Music]
television is and always has been the my
economically wonderful of my wife for as
many wonderful relationships that I have
with people in my own real world I have
just that about in the deep
relationships that I have with
characters that have graced my screen
over the past however many years of my
living so now i think it’s only natural
that i think of my character as a
pollination of all the other characters
I’ve ever watched when I first saw lazy
weird on Freaks and Geeks in your dad’s
army jacket I agree that my dad’s closet
Leslie knope’s passion for government on
parks and recreation is about half the
reason I applied to colleges as a
political science major sorry mom Jon
Stewart’s candor on the daily show is
about half the reason that that major
recently switched to journalism sorry
mom book like x 10 more you know since I
get lost I’m sorry and it might say kind
of pathetic but TV has always driven
need the love and comfort that sometimes
reality just can the thing about many
episodes you open up TV is that there’s
always going to be a plot in the
structure no matter how groups are
poorly done and i’m going to type of
person that needs the structure and
direction in your life whether she
experienced event herself or watching it
happen for someone else and if you know
me and you know that i think that
life is a practical stink ninety-nine
percent of the time you know that this
is usually me watching things happen to
someone else and you know TV was
especially the safety net for me in my
first semester over this year my senior
year when I felt kind of a burden for
silly reasons you know I didn’t know
where I good college my friends have
already left for school and I got like I
cried after taking the first the second
calc test of first quarter which mrs.
Patel it can attest to because then
she’d be on my mom and then I card more
because somebody finally cared about me
and it felt really good you know on
these parties I knew that I could go
home and open an episode of the office
and Michael Scott would inevitably make
someone including me uncomfortable or I
could watch an episode of nurse jackie
and if Jackie ever kissed someone she
looked like she loved them this
technically this kept me sane but it
also created a new worry that I unlike
my favorite characters was not living
the interesting plots and narratives
that I really wanted to so I started
experiment and again it was based on
television my uncle in 2008 produced a
comedy first guess called the X list
starting Elizabeth Reaser in which
reserved visits a fortune teller that
says that she’s already met I’ve been
with
her life and if she doesn’t rekindle
that flame within the year she’ll be
alone forever so to avoid eterna
loneliness razor needs a list of all
your exes and essentially dates them
again I thought that my life would be
really funny if I made a list of all the
crushes I’ve had grades K through 12 and
just confessed to them that at some
point I loved them number one I told my
friend Aidan back third graders he was
really flattered like he said that she
looked kind of like queen lucy from
pokemon had like no relevance whatsoever
that button Dayton looked kind of
uncomfortable and that’s my fault
because we were at lunch with current
date Aidan’s girlfriend after two I told
my friend LOL very possibly at an AP
euro study review session that the
creatures he liked him and he just did
this which I was thankful for it does
have been less talking for me we all
know how could I end up at
finally I told my friend Matt was
actually here tonight the six period
Lucy was desperately in love with her
and sincere i’m just going to speak to
max I have never loved someone as how
everybody your mattress gave me oh honey
so back to television in the single
perfect season of freaks and geeks in
the series finale lazy we’re who I
showed earlier runs off to tour with the
dead heads instead of going to the
academic side and in the final season of
parks and recreation spoiler alert
Leslie Knope has triplets and I saw the
position as a congresswoman in India and
I wasn’t looking for results from this
experiment like triplets for a master
chef as a congresswoman in Indiana do
don’t really like Indiana that much I
think I really want trickles right now
I’m not economically ready for that
report out but I wanted this to be
something that led me somewhere and
unless you count here which maybe you do
it really hasn’t yes this is a blank
slide on purpose oh you know as a kid I
was told that to have my own plots and
meritage I had to take part in writing
than myself and I wondered and I still
do wondered why the one time I actually
did the one term i created a narrative
for myself nothing really happened but
yeah this has been a pretty big year for
me I don’t want to get too cheesy but
this is the first time that I think I’ve
ever really felt myself grow and develop
on my own independently and it’s the
first year of ever felt as comfortable
as I do in writing skin and yes maybe
this wrong column that I tried to create
for myself to work out but Ryan Murphy
managed to do that for six seasons of
glee at it
successful shows that Fox has ever had
so maybe you just don’t want to take my
advice and ignore the whole thing that
I’ve been saying for the past or maybe
minutes because I’m 17 and at the end of
the day I can’t tell you how to run your
Wi-Fi maybe to be making like a long
money right now it’s fine besides that I
have been living this unrelenting
narrative and character development
through my 17 years of being alive and
now a significant chapter of it is
coming to a close high school ends
repeat-x friday and i like how its
finishing up the excellent was cancelled
after three episodes but i’m still here
and I’m well and I have a much better
understanding that sometimes the
greatest pots and narratives interest
things that we have it like are the ones
that just kind of unfold and haven’t for
us rather than the ones we forced to
happen whether it’s becoming best
friends with a kid you never thought you
talked to in sick sorry that’s the
Brooklyn Bridge and it’s not a green
screen or you know like oh so that’s my
favorite picture that’s because he
actually doesn’t look like he wants to
murder me it’s adorable we’re just
finally being able to smile to yourself
for no reason other than being extremely
happy with where you are and who you are
and what you’re doing with your life for
the first time in two years these things
are ones that you can calculate and
watch but they happen
they’re beautiful and what we do catch
them we need to cherish them as much as
we can so I hope that if you take
anything from hearing me today it’s to
treasure your own arms I don’t know
where near a finished person I don’t
think that anyone ever is no matter how
old or how wise or whatever we’re all
constantly developing characters but
some pictures by living we get from that
these amazing stories and moments and
intense feelings at in these stories and
moments and feelings whether you’re
watching or not I believe you are the
stars of something much more real and
much more beautiful than any writer for
the small screen can ever give you so I
encourage you to forget all your lines
and just enjoy your time on air because
it is short but it is wonderful thank you