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– no puede comprar el viento – no puede
comprar a soul
do not wait a comprar Juvia – no puede
comprar el color do not wake up wake up
Rallo color
– na puede comprar me Alegria do not
wanna compare me to Lourdes I stand here
so you can hear my cry um John Tom greet
ok telling a llamas profundo de tu
corazon in fist and a gardener algo como
si fuera de sibling I’m not invisible
and I know you can hear me and these
words of about to spit are going to
speak in languages you never even knew
existed but no language has a limit on
emotion so sit back and listen to my
heartbeat because in my veins
I feel a rush and it’s not just the
circulation of my blood but open sound
all of en it is my blood because in the
past my blood has felt this rush the
verse to scream and yell out there with
two white humans with the voice that
just like you made of flesh and bones
and yes I have to scream it now because
I’m Dominican stereotype
I’m Salvadoran su and yes I have to
shout it not be cursed oh oh oh in Latin
America Ana
but because I’m proud LOD go sonido que
no es coach el mundo entero just a
Latina she sang you’re just so latina
eleven WaterSeal can ask Elena ask
lavish a lot of famous then we may speak
another language but I never stopped
anyone from believing cuz Jesus was a
Jew and I believe in him too that we
Latinos hold our heads up high no matter
how hard you try to put us down and if
we manage to reach this man is because
we belong Heilig Ramos cigar es porque
Mira semo’s Rhaegar
abre los ojos no venca de aquino my boy
middle TV Coco Lucas toilet in Americana
and I said I won’t go
my parents came here to give me a better
life and you think I know
[Music]
[Applause]
in some ways scott banks was like all
the other boys i meet at bars you know
he had five roommates
he drank craft beer and jameson he had a
crush on Emma Watson but he was
different enough you know he was
employed
he wasn’t vegan and quite refreshing Lee
he never asked the question you know
where are you from no where are you
really from it’s not the asking I mind
it’s the responses that I get like Oh
Chinese you know my last girlfriend was
Asian and what does that have to do with
me is she here does she want to buy me a
drink – oh cool do you watch anime yes
and I also make sushi and sumo wrestle
and train Pokemon also Japan is a
different country I knew you
were Filipino you know I love those
little love those egg roll things lumpia
they are called loom B yeah you know
maybe if you just stop thinking about me
with bound feet serving rice and naked
in tentacles long enough you could rub
your two brain cells together I’m sorry
I don’t know where that came from
I’m gonna go worship my ancestors
as you can imagine dating can be kind of
tough when half the people physically
attracted to you are also racist as
but but there are always exceptions to
the rule
I was drunk off my ass at Lucky seven
Saturn everyone’s favorite show
when I met Scott earlier that evening I
also ran into my ex boyfriend Derek with
his latest oriental rub he didn’t have a
thing for Asians by the way he just
quote white girls who don’t look like
they’re gonna age like anyway Derek
was there with a few friends like Amara
this local poet with no feelings Joe
this local artist with no feelings
apathy was really hot and Scott thanks
holy
Scott thanks six feet tall blond hair
blue eyes though want that white on rice
Scott thanks oh he’s he’s looking at me
oh he’s walking over
this movie I loved he said
the TV was playing land before time for
journey through the mists uh yeah it’s
super cool I said really smoothly
somehow he continues talking to me we
chat about our 90s childhoods rewinding
VHS tapes before returning them to the
library you make lots of clever jokes
that I don’t remember but that I’m sure
we’re probably really funny because
really handsome perfect guys
are usually super funny next thing you
know we’re sucking face in a corner by
the dartboard
and I have to say this has to be the
hottest the most passionate the most
mind-blowing conversation I’ve ever had
about a kid’s movie he tips me down
kisses me hard and he says Oh summer you
are the first woman of Asian descent
I’ve ever made out wait what no way I
feel his forehead with the back of my
hand to check for yellow fever
negative um Scott do you not like Asian
women it is not a journey I’ve yet long
to take okay so why are you kissing me
you’ve enchanted me you are attractive
and the things you say I like them oh my
god this is what it feels like someone
is talking to me for me someone likes me
for me
finally I’m not just the next number in
a pattern not just another yellow face
in the crowd it’s like I’m my own person
or something it’s nice I go back and I
kiss Scott thanks again well do you want
to go back to my pad and watch the rest
of this cinematic masterpiece of me I
promise I won’t try to have sex with you
well okay I know he’s dreamy
though who the would believe that
I’m sorry Scott I don’t go home with
anyone until the third date
no one believes that the pearly whites
flash and he says well there is always
an exception to the rule
[Applause]
our gunman walks into a church during
Bible study and kills nine people let me
say that again
a white gunman walks into a black church
in Charleston South Carolina during
Bible study and kills nine people he
walks in sets his hindmost parts in a
sacred chair absorbs biblical principles
steeps in the love and care of his
fellow men and women all the while
contemplating this evil doing gentle
hearts ambush predator gun goes off
something spoken something something
just wrong is spoken gun goes off black
bodies are down well head up blood is
filling the floor the horror got walled
in and the floorboards cried out as each
body dropped down a mother shields her
child right there on the floor some
protective instincts they wired into her
brain like the trim on a wedding veil
she presses a child to her and whispers
critically play dead the gunmen near she
whispers again
play dead the lioness survives so does
the cub I have a granddaughter she’s
five years old she doesn’t understand
death she doesn’t know how people get
there or how it happens all she knows
about death is if she sees the roach
turned up on the ground
she doesn’t have to fear because it’s
dead what would she do if I asked her to
play dead she has no concept or
comprehension of death could she do it
would she do it I remember playing dead
I was among intellectuals I was among
white intellectuals and I refused to
give my opinion because I didn’t think
they’d get me my existence was opinion
enough I didn’t want to waste energy I
didn’t want to waste time so I played
dead I played dead in my memory when
asked about growing up in a small
Mississippi town a few resources and
even fewer opportunities I played dead
in my memory when I didn’t pray before
my meal in public when I didn’t pray at
all when when our blood is flowing and
how body circuitry is surging with power
I am literally an overflowing river I am
a stream and a fountain full and wet
with young wisdom yet I play dead
repressing everything that makes me feel
too small or too insignificant therefore
I never become a giant I played in
passing on endearment and settling for
exhaustion we play dead and I love
making when we’re tired of renewing
ourselves and seeking newness and
repeated gestures we resent loves echoes
so we play dead were afraid of starting
over we stay dormant and yet a gunman
walks into a church and kills nine
people during Bible study in order to
survive
a mother and child play dead and they
live to tell the tale we live and with
mouths full of perspective and point of
view we say nothing we do nothing we
become machines with silent settings
I urge you gentle hearts do not play
dead unless you know you are going to
die
do not play dead when life is stretched
out in front of you like so much empty
space for empty space has more energy
than everything in the universe no more
playing dead for me from now on I live
you live we live
[Applause]
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