[Music]
[Applause]
[Music]
everybody go back in time to go back in
time with me when you were a teenager
it’s New Years Eve it’s almost midnight
everybody’s getting excited because it’s
getting closer to that time the DJ’s
pumping you’re in a gown
everybody had a formal dinner you can’t
imagine wearing that same dress again so
you tell your friends I’m gonna go I’m
gonna go change I’ll be right back
there’s nothing to this right you’ve
been up and down that hotel room back
and forth for the past few days the same
way pulled out that keycard you
approached that room thinking you’re
gonna change you stick that key card in
same slot see the green light you press
the door handle down you don’t even
realize that this running person behind
you and it’s not really a run it seems
but a long stride a power walk and it
doesn’t go past you it stops before you
know it as you’re holding that door
about to get into that dark room you
feel a loud pressure and it’s a punch
right on the back and you’re thrown on
the ground legs kicked in door closes
behind you and all you see is darkness
and you’re on your stomach
what happens in that darkness marks you
for life and labels you a victim forever
brands you New Year’s Eve will never be
the same you’ll never wear that dress
again you’ll never see your body in the
same way again and you will never trust
anybody again
fast forward a fast word sixteen years
you’re an adult maybe you have kids
maybe even a daughter
you’ve done your best to get past this
traumatic thing in your life you’ve
buried it in there you’ve never had real
relationships never really did trust
anybody divorce separation and all that
stuff you you’ve convinced yourself
you’ve gone through it and you really
have it all that forgetting all that
therapy everything you’ve been through
is gone everything comes back to the
surface and you’re forced to deal with
that forests and forest and again and
again and again what you do with a life
like that you’re forced to face it what
do you do you do you just lose
everything it’s not just you anymore
you’ve got kids right you got a daughter
and she’s got a look at you and she’s
gonna say you know how did my mom deal
with that one day she’s gonna see this
exact thing she’s just saying how did my
mom deal with that that was three years
ago a week and a half ago what did I do
I got up I didn’t have a choice I got up
and I said I will not let these two
things affect me do you just fall apart
everybody’s expectation and that
trajectory right you’re supposed to fall
apart
and everybody looks at you and they feel
sorry for you and they say oh I can’t
believe she went through that but really
is that all there is for the rest of my
life no no wait hell no you you changed
that trajectory you change your path
change that path that rhythm that
everybody expected me to be I’m gonna be
something else cuz I’m still here same
way no matter what happened the night
before no matter what happened in your
past when you were a little child in the
dark on your stomach’s close your eyes
everybody just join me for a minute just
indulge me and just close your eyes
think of yourself as a child in the dark
now think about all the things have you
been through trauma things that have
hurt you affected you told you I can’t
get up today I can’t I can’t face people
today we’ve gone through our own range
of traumas not like this some to even
more worse than this more exaggerated
things like this more more drastic
things than this and we are still here
we’re still here I’m still here we don’t
have to fall apart we are lucky enough
to have the choices every day to make it
to be what we want to be to rebrand
ourselves to be the best parents we can
be to be the best examples in life we
can be so we’re still here guys
you close your eyes and wake up in the
morning say it you know to yourselves
we’re still here it’s not that as bad as
we want that he could have been over
we’re still here thank you guys thank
you
[Applause]
[Music]
you
[Applause]
[Music]
everybody go back in time to go back in
time with me when you were a teenager
it’s New Years Eve it’s almost midnight
everybody’s getting excited because it’s
getting closer to that time the DJ’s
pumping you’re in a gown
everybody had a formal dinner you can’t
imagine wearing that same dress again so
you tell your friends I’m gonna go I’m
gonna go change I’ll be right back
there’s nothing to this right you’ve
been up and down that hotel room back
and forth for the past few days the same
way pulled out that keycard you
approached that room thinking you’re
gonna change you stick that key card in
same slot see the green light you press
the door handle down you don’t even
realize that this running person behind
you and it’s not really a run it seems
but a long stride a power walk and it
doesn’t go past you it stops before you
know it as you’re holding that door
about to get into that dark room you
feel a loud pressure and it’s a punch
right on the back and you’re thrown on
the ground legs kicked in door closes
behind you and all you see is darkness
and you’re on your stomach
what happens in that darkness marks you
for life and labels you a victim forever
brands you New Year’s Eve will never be
the same you’ll never wear that dress
again you’ll never see your body in the
same way again and you will never trust
anybody again
fast forward a fast word sixteen years
you’re an adult maybe you have kids
maybe even a daughter
you’ve done your best to get past this
traumatic thing in your life you’ve
buried it in there you’ve never had real
relationships never really did trust
anybody divorce separation and all that
stuff you you’ve convinced yourself
you’ve gone through it and you really
have it all that forgetting all that
therapy everything you’ve been through
is gone everything comes back to the
surface and you’re forced to deal with
that forests and forest and again and
again and again what you do with a life
like that you’re forced to face it what
do you do you do you just lose
everything it’s not just you anymore
you’ve got kids right you got a daughter
and she’s got a look at you and she’s
gonna say you know how did my mom deal
with that one day she’s gonna see this
exact thing she’s just saying how did my
mom deal with that that was three years
ago a week and a half ago what did I do
I got up I didn’t have a choice I got up
and I said I will not let these two
things affect me do you just fall apart
everybody’s expectation and that
trajectory right you’re supposed to fall
apart
and everybody looks at you and they feel
sorry for you and they say oh I can’t
believe she went through that but really
is that all there is for the rest of my
life no no wait hell no you you changed
that trajectory you change your path
change that path that rhythm that
everybody expected me to be I’m gonna be
something else cuz I’m still here same
way no matter what happened the night
before no matter what happened in your
past when you were a little child in the
dark on your stomach’s close your eyes
everybody just join me for a minute just
indulge me and just close your eyes
think of yourself as a child in the dark
now think about all the things have you
been through trauma things that have
hurt you affected you told you I can’t
get up today I can’t I can’t face people
today we’ve gone through our own range
of traumas not like this some to even
more worse than this more exaggerated
things like this more more drastic
things than this and we are still here
we’re still here I’m still here we don’t
have to fall apart we are lucky enough
to have the choices every day to make it
to be what we want to be to rebrand
ourselves to be the best parents we can
be to be the best examples in life we
can be so we’re still here guys
you close your eyes and wake up in the
morning say it you know to yourselves
we’re still here it’s not that as bad as
we want that he could have been over
we’re still here thank you guys thank
you
[Applause]
[Music]
you
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