Translator: Salsabel Salah Auditor: Riyad Almubarak
So we are on the fifteenth day of June 2016 on a summer warm
Just graduated from high school and I am filled with ecstasy towards
All the things that happen along with going to the University
Most stories begin with: “It was not a daily normal”
But my story does not begin to do so
Today was anything but natural from the beginning of the sun to the west.
Plans with my friends canceled
I decided not to go to the museum with my family favorite
And I washed my car in my hand
All of these acts is unusual for me
With no apparent reason, I was at home all day
After drying my car directly
I was in my room I do not do almost anything
Allison entered the small sister
She said: “Can we take the material from Jason’s house?”
I said yes without thinking
Within minutes we were the car money
A small glimpse of material and Jason
Jason called recent secondary school enrolled in my school
And Aed material
New student befriends my sister
My sister and she loves to go to concerts as do any teenager
So I had to know Jason.
And what I knew from monitoring
It is that the social circle center.
Is the person who looks for everyone to see what they have to do
If you do not or doubles
I noticed now
It was sometimes angry, and a sharp temperament.
When my sister asked for the first time going to take a material
Approved quickly
For several reasons
First, it is strange for me
To take a girlfriend home from her boyfriend
Usually, only convey my sister’s house to another.
The second reason was that I heard the school
The material and Jason have some problems in their relationship
This was the alarm somehow.
The third is that my sister involved her feelings openly
So easy to guess
It was also concerned about the situation.
Jason got home
Black sedan parked my car on the right side of the street
In return home from the other side
I opened the car door
And I went out to Joe Virginia filled with clouds warm afternoon
It noted that material sitting in the hallway
Outside the house.
In the natural, waiting for my sister friends inside the house until our arrival Nkhbrha text or sound on the door
But the material crossed the yard
And I opened the rear door of my car sat in the car and closed the door
Now, at this moment, I have to admit
I was really comfortable with Connie I do not see Jason Balorjae
There was no accident nor an argument
Then I went back to my car, and put the seat belt and closed the door
And it began to turn to take the opposite direction and come back home
The first turn on the left of the road in front of Jason’s house
It changed the direction of the car opposite direction
Considered home
It noted a person at the entrance did not exist before
I knew immediately
Of the American flag shirt component of red, white, blue
It’s Jason
He holds a broom in his hand, or so it seemed
But when I looked closely
My heart began to swing inside my chest
As the body wooden and metal in his hand was a hunting rifle
I began to think about what will happen
The first idea was that he was trying to show
It is more manly to me
I can not harm him
And the second, which was more terrifying
He will come out and show his anger by firearm
This is what Tsrvath on the basis of
It changed the direction of the car and returned back
I then stopped now on the verge of driving home
Put the handle on the status of the vehicle’s control movement
Then stopped the car.
(Voice)
I lead him to move away safely
And stopped the car out of the way and help Jason to think mind.
I decided to leadership
My feet slowly lifted from above the brake pedal
And I felt that the car dating back
I looked for the last time at home to make sure that everything is still okay
I no longer see Jason
But I see the color red, white, blue
She noted that Jason had bowed
During my down
I watched the chaos of pink
Cover the door that was standing behind him Jason
I try to absorb what just happened
And I forced myself to reach the result
That what you see is the bowels of the head of Jason
Scattered on the door and window of the ceiling
And I heard a voice from the back says faint seat
“Joey, something happened”
I realized that I know something you do not know the two girls
It is just that Jason killed himself
The first idea that came to me is to keep girls
I drove the car and hurried to move away
It exceeded the first and possibly the second intersection
I heard hum in the back seat beside me
Girls began to panic
There are screaming in the seats and knock on windows
So I tightened the closure of the car Obakihn inside.
I pulled out my phone, and asked for help.
Lift the handset and the employee had to pronunciation:
“Witness suicides off”
The chaos inside the car brand sedan.
While he told the employee with the required information
Such as: the title, my name, and for some reason the date of AD
I heard a voice from my sister and faint tears filled her eyes
I asked if Jason would be okay.
I looked away so I can refrain from getting myself
I stopped the car aside and exited
Because I can not refrain from getting myself inside the existence of the two girls
I know I had to be at least to stay calm and coherent
For Obakehma there Obadahma for this section
I finished giving information to the employee and said:
“Resist, the police will come soon.”
And then pressing the button.
Phone voice disappeared and the employee ended the call.
He became completely alone.
He stood out in the neighborhoods of Vista Woods familiar to me
I know I am the only person who knows what just happened.
Oblivious to the whole world what happened.
Driven car rear
Fleeces weeds someone on my right hand
I hear young children playing on the left
everything is normal
But I stuck in the rest of the world is a different world.
When something similar happens in the movie
Grievance screen and above the sound of dramatic music
But it was not the case
I was scared
And it failed to do anything about my fear
Now, tell that story
Because I wanted today to tell you what it means to get shocked.
Sorry.
There is no book in parenting as all parents know
There is no book pages flips to know what you have to do later
Even if there was a book about parenting
I doubt that any of its chapters holds the title
“What do you do when your son is witnessing a fiery suicide incident having contractions?”
So his parents as best as they can do
And my sister and I Okhmana to meet the psychological treatment in the city
The next day.
And we have identified a number of interviews with them during the summer
Throughout this summer
Okhbernaha what happened, and our feelings and similar matters
This helped, of course, but it did not help me at the point of my need
In my spirit if this means anything
I know, of course,
Where do humans come with their ideas and actions, and their words
And subjected to self-analysis of the same.
Throughout the summer I analyze these exotic ideas
What came out is that I invent fatigue.
I was fine, I do not need any extra attention
I suspect that many people have gone through this
I said to myself:
“This happened in the past Oh Joey, go ahead and overcome.”
So the study began here, in this fall Berend
On the surface, everything seems to be fine
But there were some small things that happen
Which showed me that everything was not so good
For example, when I am in my room in the accommodation or in class
I hear children laugh at the end of the floor
Then I think immediately they were crying
It’s amazingly
How is similar to the sound of laughter and crying Alheistre Alheiestiri
It dims all, staring Sharda
And what happened was all in my head
I should be afraid if something moves or touching someone’s shoulders
In the end
Cry even take me to sleep crying not because of anger or sadness
Just stare at the wall, and flowing tears on my face
I am a student hardworking little
So I started to search for what happens to me
I learned to speak our mind
Through the exchange of charged particles
In neural pathways.
When using these more lanes
It makes it easier for the mind followed.
Now, a lot of people hear about the “hit and run”, what is it?
A response instinctive reaction happens when your body feels threatened.
Controlled the Ozatk brain, which is the oldest part in your mind
And tell the rest of the parts in your mind what needs to be done and your body as well.
Now, if there is a tiger in front of you
You will not benefit greatly from thinking about such things as:
“What will I do next?”
“What will Tiger later”?
It is better for your life to think about
If you fight the tiger or will take place at full speed
These are the catalysts amygdala.
Now thought my mind that
The best way to deal with the sad or frightening situations
Is to do what she said amygdala on June 15
It is logical
My mind was trying to protect me.
But what resulted from this is
A torrent of emotions that I had never felt before
Despite all this, I say to myself:
“Joey, you’re just a young man.
You are only concerned that this semester began to become serious
As you feel homesick. “
Do you know the part where all things go wrong in the film?
This is
This is the part where things started not going well
Even in my dreams.
I am struggling to get sleep without nightmares
In the end, I began to walk during my sleep.
One night, I walked during my sleep
I left room housing, and building.
And I ended up beyond eight miles from the campus
I wear Nala on the shape of the rainbow
(Laughter)
In the end I found myself disoriented police, and confused.
The first thing thought it was:
“Heck, this university boy carousing drinking.”
So they took me to the hospital and addressed the parents
In the end, everyone realized that I was not drunk, or Mtaattiya drug
But I was suffering from the collapse of the post-traumatic stress.
The traffic accident during sleep as a warning
Me, my parents and I need help
And I’m not fine.
Since my father was a retired naval
We are a good link to the military community
It was pointed out to us that we walk in the direction of “AMD R.”
Which refers to the removal of eye movement sensitivity and re-treatment.
It is a way to help our minds to deal with the trauma
I took permission three weeks of absence from the university and I got back home in Virginia
And began treatment.
The first session was one hour and a half
And re-treated explain everything in a scientific way.
Which is what you already know.
She told me that the removal of the sensitivity of the eye movement and re-treatment based on research in the “RIM”
It is the rapid eye movement sleep.
What happens during REM sleep or what is supposed to happen at least,
Is that your eyes move back and forth quickly, randomly
And Tarishv all the information of the day.
So if your day hard at work
It may be the relationship of your dreams do.
REM sleep is similar to almost all imagine what happened
These fantasies come out in the form of dreams
And what was happening when the dream is
I see on June 15 in a different way.
During REM sleep
Convey your mind everything from short memory to the long memory.
He reads everything somehow, and they mean and then sends it to the archive.
Completely in the memories of your dreams do not come
What was happening in my dreams is
I was re-event again and again
Because my mind was not Aorishvha.
It has been trying to restore archived
But he just was not able to do so.
The way you are going to remove the sensitivity of the eye movement session
Is that the treatment put her fingers away from my face with 12-inch
And move from the left to the right back and forth
This is called bilateral stimulations
Because it stimulates both lobes in your mind.
Treatment and tell me to go back myself to June 15
And to the car brand sedan
Tell her what you feel and what was happening
When comes the part that I was upset about it
Or I did not understand what is happening or where I was angry
We contribute to a sentence or two and then begin to pass the fingers right and left
And now I’m doing a bit to build this thinking inside my head.
There were really two big problems I have with the incident June 15
The first is that I felt responsibility towards what she saw the two girls
If you recall, I said that I went to the left
But there was a way for the home straight
And I thought as I headed to the left
This is the reason to see what happened to the two girls
For this reason I am seeing him
If I took the straight way they will be fine.
The second is that I felt that I could help Jason.
I do not know what I can do
But I just wished I’d done something better for him.
Treatment helped me to realize that I was not the best thing I could do
And that the situation over the way that it should happen by
Regular treatment through dialogue
You can say: “I’m fine, were not my fault, I’m fine”
But you can lie
You can lie on the psychological therapist and yourself
What does the “AMD R.”
It is that it is actually forcing you to believe what you say, and thinking about it.
The only way to show this is that I while I was looking for a method of treatment
I found that people begin to cry for no reason while passing the process fingers left and right
I said to myself: “No this does not happen with me.”
It turned out that it happens
(Laughter)
He was sit there and move the fingers back and forth
I was just crying without control
It was as if one of them seems to take a bottle of champagne
And uncork
All came out time
It is all Okhvath on June 15
Now he finally comes out of me.
Fortunately, you need only two sessions of treatment
Part of the reason for this is the occurrence of neural pathways
I mentioned earlier
And how to use one frequently easily traced.
Now, in my mind
Was the shock time only to create a path for walking in the woods
It can be followed by my mind.
But other trauma victims
As the person who went to war
Or it was the abusive relationship
It may be to have a highway.
For me, all we had to do is to take a shovel and remove fallen leaves
My mind and forget that it was here.
But for others
You may need to hammer, planting new trees and waiting to grow.
This will take time.
Let’s look for statistical treatment by removing the sensitivity of the eye movement to know that I am not an exceptional case
After six sessions lasting one of them almost 50 minutes
100% of the victims of one shock
And 70% of the victims of successive shocks
Do not they have any signs of post-traumatic stress disorder.
AMD for any R is just one of the ways in which we recognize the shock
And the way it deals with the mind
Who knows what science can bring us
Within five or ten or 20 years.
What I know is
But before this happens to me
I thought that the shock is just something you need to overtake
To accept only move forward.
But what catches up now
We are that we must help ourselves if we really wanted to go beyond something.
For months I wanted to know why this happened
Why Jason gave up his life?
Why girls?
What I have learned is that some of the events in our lives
Film-like open-ended
As the last scene ends with more questions than answers.
Do you want to know these answers?
But we can find peace
So we know we will never get these answers
I hope you now think of shocks differently from the previous
And possess a better understanding of
How to deal with your minds the world around you.
And just remember that it may sometimes need to help small
thank you.
So we are on the fifteenth day of June 2016 on a summer warm
Just graduated from high school and I am filled with ecstasy towards
All the things that happen along with going to the University
Most stories begin with: “It was not a daily normal”
But my story does not begin to do so
Today was anything but natural from the beginning of the sun to the west.
Plans with my friends canceled
I decided not to go to the museum with my family favorite
And I washed my car in my hand
All of these acts is unusual for me
With no apparent reason, I was at home all day
After drying my car directly
I was in my room I do not do almost anything
Allison entered the small sister
She said: “Can we take the material from Jason’s house?”
I said yes without thinking
Within minutes we were the car money
A small glimpse of material and Jason
Jason called recent secondary school enrolled in my school
And Aed material
New student befriends my sister
My sister and she loves to go to concerts as do any teenager
So I had to know Jason.
And what I knew from monitoring
It is that the social circle center.
Is the person who looks for everyone to see what they have to do
If you do not or doubles
I noticed now
It was sometimes angry, and a sharp temperament.
When my sister asked for the first time going to take a material
Approved quickly
For several reasons
First, it is strange for me
To take a girlfriend home from her boyfriend
Usually, only convey my sister’s house to another.
The second reason was that I heard the school
The material and Jason have some problems in their relationship
This was the alarm somehow.
The third is that my sister involved her feelings openly
So easy to guess
It was also concerned about the situation.
Jason got home
Black sedan parked my car on the right side of the street
In return home from the other side
I opened the car door
And I went out to Joe Virginia filled with clouds warm afternoon
It noted that material sitting in the hallway
Outside the house.
In the natural, waiting for my sister friends inside the house until our arrival Nkhbrha text or sound on the door
But the material crossed the yard
And I opened the rear door of my car sat in the car and closed the door
Now, at this moment, I have to admit
I was really comfortable with Connie I do not see Jason Balorjae
There was no accident nor an argument
Then I went back to my car, and put the seat belt and closed the door
And it began to turn to take the opposite direction and come back home
The first turn on the left of the road in front of Jason’s house
It changed the direction of the car opposite direction
Considered home
It noted a person at the entrance did not exist before
I knew immediately
Of the American flag shirt component of red, white, blue
It’s Jason
He holds a broom in his hand, or so it seemed
But when I looked closely
My heart began to swing inside my chest
As the body wooden and metal in his hand was a hunting rifle
I began to think about what will happen
The first idea was that he was trying to show
It is more manly to me
I can not harm him
And the second, which was more terrifying
He will come out and show his anger by firearm
This is what Tsrvath on the basis of
It changed the direction of the car and returned back
I then stopped now on the verge of driving home
Put the handle on the status of the vehicle’s control movement
Then stopped the car.
(Voice)
I lead him to move away safely
And stopped the car out of the way and help Jason to think mind.
I decided to leadership
My feet slowly lifted from above the brake pedal
And I felt that the car dating back
I looked for the last time at home to make sure that everything is still okay
I no longer see Jason
But I see the color red, white, blue
She noted that Jason had bowed
During my down
I watched the chaos of pink
Cover the door that was standing behind him Jason
I try to absorb what just happened
And I forced myself to reach the result
That what you see is the bowels of the head of Jason
Scattered on the door and window of the ceiling
And I heard a voice from the back says faint seat
“Joey, something happened”
I realized that I know something you do not know the two girls
It is just that Jason killed himself
The first idea that came to me is to keep girls
I drove the car and hurried to move away
It exceeded the first and possibly the second intersection
I heard hum in the back seat beside me
Girls began to panic
There are screaming in the seats and knock on windows
So I tightened the closure of the car Obakihn inside.
I pulled out my phone, and asked for help.
Lift the handset and the employee had to pronunciation:
“Witness suicides off”
The chaos inside the car brand sedan.
While he told the employee with the required information
Such as: the title, my name, and for some reason the date of AD
I heard a voice from my sister and faint tears filled her eyes
I asked if Jason would be okay.
I looked away so I can refrain from getting myself
I stopped the car aside and exited
Because I can not refrain from getting myself inside the existence of the two girls
I know I had to be at least to stay calm and coherent
For Obakehma there Obadahma for this section
I finished giving information to the employee and said:
“Resist, the police will come soon.”
And then pressing the button.
Phone voice disappeared and the employee ended the call.
He became completely alone.
He stood out in the neighborhoods of Vista Woods familiar to me
I know I am the only person who knows what just happened.
Oblivious to the whole world what happened.
Driven car rear
Fleeces weeds someone on my right hand
I hear young children playing on the left
everything is normal
But I stuck in the rest of the world is a different world.
When something similar happens in the movie
Grievance screen and above the sound of dramatic music
But it was not the case
I was scared
And it failed to do anything about my fear
Now, tell that story
Because I wanted today to tell you what it means to get shocked.
Sorry.
There is no book in parenting as all parents know
There is no book pages flips to know what you have to do later
Even if there was a book about parenting
I doubt that any of its chapters holds the title
“What do you do when your son is witnessing a fiery suicide incident having contractions?”
So his parents as best as they can do
And my sister and I Okhmana to meet the psychological treatment in the city
The next day.
And we have identified a number of interviews with them during the summer
Throughout this summer
Okhbernaha what happened, and our feelings and similar matters
This helped, of course, but it did not help me at the point of my need
In my spirit if this means anything
I know, of course,
Where do humans come with their ideas and actions, and their words
And subjected to self-analysis of the same.
Throughout the summer I analyze these exotic ideas
What came out is that I invent fatigue.
I was fine, I do not need any extra attention
I suspect that many people have gone through this
I said to myself:
“This happened in the past Oh Joey, go ahead and overcome.”
So the study began here, in this fall Berend
On the surface, everything seems to be fine
But there were some small things that happen
Which showed me that everything was not so good
For example, when I am in my room in the accommodation or in class
I hear children laugh at the end of the floor
Then I think immediately they were crying
It’s amazingly
How is similar to the sound of laughter and crying Alheistre Alheiestiri
It dims all, staring Sharda
And what happened was all in my head
I should be afraid if something moves or touching someone’s shoulders
In the end
Cry even take me to sleep crying not because of anger or sadness
Just stare at the wall, and flowing tears on my face
I am a student hardworking little
So I started to search for what happens to me
I learned to speak our mind
Through the exchange of charged particles
In neural pathways.
When using these more lanes
It makes it easier for the mind followed.
Now, a lot of people hear about the “hit and run”, what is it?
A response instinctive reaction happens when your body feels threatened.
Controlled the Ozatk brain, which is the oldest part in your mind
And tell the rest of the parts in your mind what needs to be done and your body as well.
Now, if there is a tiger in front of you
You will not benefit greatly from thinking about such things as:
“What will I do next?”
“What will Tiger later”?
It is better for your life to think about
If you fight the tiger or will take place at full speed
These are the catalysts amygdala.
Now thought my mind that
The best way to deal with the sad or frightening situations
Is to do what she said amygdala on June 15
It is logical
My mind was trying to protect me.
But what resulted from this is
A torrent of emotions that I had never felt before
Despite all this, I say to myself:
“Joey, you’re just a young man.
You are only concerned that this semester began to become serious
As you feel homesick. “
Do you know the part where all things go wrong in the film?
This is
This is the part where things started not going well
Even in my dreams.
I am struggling to get sleep without nightmares
In the end, I began to walk during my sleep.
One night, I walked during my sleep
I left room housing, and building.
And I ended up beyond eight miles from the campus
I wear Nala on the shape of the rainbow
(Laughter)
In the end I found myself disoriented police, and confused.
The first thing thought it was:
“Heck, this university boy carousing drinking.”
So they took me to the hospital and addressed the parents
In the end, everyone realized that I was not drunk, or Mtaattiya drug
But I was suffering from the collapse of the post-traumatic stress.
The traffic accident during sleep as a warning
Me, my parents and I need help
And I’m not fine.
Since my father was a retired naval
We are a good link to the military community
It was pointed out to us that we walk in the direction of “AMD R.”
Which refers to the removal of eye movement sensitivity and re-treatment.
It is a way to help our minds to deal with the trauma
I took permission three weeks of absence from the university and I got back home in Virginia
And began treatment.
The first session was one hour and a half
And re-treated explain everything in a scientific way.
Which is what you already know.
She told me that the removal of the sensitivity of the eye movement and re-treatment based on research in the “RIM”
It is the rapid eye movement sleep.
What happens during REM sleep or what is supposed to happen at least,
Is that your eyes move back and forth quickly, randomly
And Tarishv all the information of the day.
So if your day hard at work
It may be the relationship of your dreams do.
REM sleep is similar to almost all imagine what happened
These fantasies come out in the form of dreams
And what was happening when the dream is
I see on June 15 in a different way.
During REM sleep
Convey your mind everything from short memory to the long memory.
He reads everything somehow, and they mean and then sends it to the archive.
Completely in the memories of your dreams do not come
What was happening in my dreams is
I was re-event again and again
Because my mind was not Aorishvha.
It has been trying to restore archived
But he just was not able to do so.
The way you are going to remove the sensitivity of the eye movement session
Is that the treatment put her fingers away from my face with 12-inch
And move from the left to the right back and forth
This is called bilateral stimulations
Because it stimulates both lobes in your mind.
Treatment and tell me to go back myself to June 15
And to the car brand sedan
Tell her what you feel and what was happening
When comes the part that I was upset about it
Or I did not understand what is happening or where I was angry
We contribute to a sentence or two and then begin to pass the fingers right and left
And now I’m doing a bit to build this thinking inside my head.
There were really two big problems I have with the incident June 15
The first is that I felt responsibility towards what she saw the two girls
If you recall, I said that I went to the left
But there was a way for the home straight
And I thought as I headed to the left
This is the reason to see what happened to the two girls
For this reason I am seeing him
If I took the straight way they will be fine.
The second is that I felt that I could help Jason.
I do not know what I can do
But I just wished I’d done something better for him.
Treatment helped me to realize that I was not the best thing I could do
And that the situation over the way that it should happen by
Regular treatment through dialogue
You can say: “I’m fine, were not my fault, I’m fine”
But you can lie
You can lie on the psychological therapist and yourself
What does the “AMD R.”
It is that it is actually forcing you to believe what you say, and thinking about it.
The only way to show this is that I while I was looking for a method of treatment
I found that people begin to cry for no reason while passing the process fingers left and right
I said to myself: “No this does not happen with me.”
It turned out that it happens
(Laughter)
He was sit there and move the fingers back and forth
I was just crying without control
It was as if one of them seems to take a bottle of champagne
And uncork
All came out time
It is all Okhvath on June 15
Now he finally comes out of me.
Fortunately, you need only two sessions of treatment
Part of the reason for this is the occurrence of neural pathways
I mentioned earlier
And how to use one frequently easily traced.
Now, in my mind
Was the shock time only to create a path for walking in the woods
It can be followed by my mind.
But other trauma victims
As the person who went to war
Or it was the abusive relationship
It may be to have a highway.
For me, all we had to do is to take a shovel and remove fallen leaves
My mind and forget that it was here.
But for others
You may need to hammer, planting new trees and waiting to grow.
This will take time.
Let’s look for statistical treatment by removing the sensitivity of the eye movement to know that I am not an exceptional case
After six sessions lasting one of them almost 50 minutes
100% of the victims of one shock
And 70% of the victims of successive shocks
Do not they have any signs of post-traumatic stress disorder.
AMD for any R is just one of the ways in which we recognize the shock
And the way it deals with the mind
Who knows what science can bring us
Within five or ten or 20 years.
What I know is
But before this happens to me
I thought that the shock is just something you need to overtake
To accept only move forward.
But what catches up now
We are that we must help ourselves if we really wanted to go beyond something.
For months I wanted to know why this happened
Why Jason gave up his life?
Why girls?
What I have learned is that some of the events in our lives
Film-like open-ended
As the last scene ends with more questions than answers.
Do you want to know these answers?
But we can find peace
So we know we will never get these answers
I hope you now think of shocks differently from the previous
And possess a better understanding of
How to deal with your minds the world around you.
And just remember that it may sometimes need to help small
thank you.
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