and we will try and perform small part
part of potato for you here these are
not judge me i was 12 i am with the
I’ve been you a long time now from in 68
I wanted to fix a date to tell you this
but I was so afraid I’d run out of
things to say so I’ll say now I think
you live and I thought in you but every
time I try to talk to you I felt like I
had evaporated and it’s unfair not even
tense through your emotions will be just
a bit like this emotion with bursts of
being this words and pains but after
intense I’m not going to pretend today
that I am forgiving being a mess so I
will find the strength to say that I
that I really actually really really
like it is that bit of a small part of
memory first not let up obviously I
really do just remember sitting in a
classroom bench – that means – paper –
attention to my fist moving a lot and
drop down toe then I change my mind but
I was deranged applying whatever water
we’re too old for coffee I mean I use
the words evaporates condenses vapor
– chomping – half the garage hood
because the effort to be overly poetic I
describe my crush like the waterside for
my separation make things burn slower
than the only stuff I couldn’t get by
never cannot beat me and out of twice
instance I noticed of every sentence
began with an i use letter with always
being offered but more everything I just
described her as a negative instead that
what I done what that by witch’s power
faced countless use this man force so to
speak I decide I’m kidding you reading
what entra21 happy a little voice in my
head said mediate just fall back for the
rest of the day I had continuous
watering and I got passing the letter go
many motion as that misty I feel like my
heart attack like my mind winner is now
first girl I ever loved probably every
which is however less that was loaded
every kept far away nurse is stupid my
first
but it is special to me because it
introduced me to this incredible world
of writing networks and amis I was in
love for the first time and I didn’t
look back and I remember the first time
I tried writing a piece of my heart for
my credit rush the first emotion I felt
was fear and I think that heart is that
you’re always trying to write something
general fear is dangerous because it was
working to douse it in addition limited
you don’t enter
what happens is your mind has this self
defense mechanism it sort of shuts down
when you think it’s giving too much away
so that makes your writing a to do so to
talk to that I hope with this trick
called a letter from now on all you have
to do is just convince yourself that
you’re a ghost writer they let your body
into genuine you don’t have to sign out
any we’re going to do that to get this
veil of anonymity that’s very strange if
you believe it helps you move on even
filters who otherwise would put in you
right the next time you feel a little
nervous just right the second thing I
went through was this beautiful bird
called a Amidala which most of you
probably would have heard of but it’s
best Strider example imagine that you
take a look beautiful
immediately after that I’ve got this
little voice in your head says there
have been thousands of pictures of
sunsets right more beautiful beaches
what makes your picture so special what
makes it British and if that feeling
which makes toward all the same users
verse basically purposes and as a
creative writer or an artist that became
extremely dangerous busy when you find
yourself in that context I think it’s
very important to remind yourself I
think the grand scheme of things
everything you want to write on has been
written on before another artist at the
creator anything you bring is
perspective your experiences are unique
you know what to tell your story better
than you wire which says who kindly
English just write the best version of
the story the third takeaway relative
from another was that if all of this
natural impulse of being heroes in our
solution it is understandable but the
moment is stop poison from the eyes and
you start getting leverage we use that’s
when a more
start point just rusting and I see this
leather cover name never have a face
always makes more of an impact than one
that has individual interests or agenda
estimates of a letter always needs to be
more profound in second so I am honest
and acutely unpack later remember that
you have to give em you have to be that
August so how do these new observations
of thoughts either upset
well I better forget the first because I
try to write a second one this happened
when I was teaching music okay so I said
why not
so the middle of the night is a paper
and a pen I don’t know how much I love
her and how much she will – spent and
every night before I slept the only
three had came for was her to live alone
that just a few months a hurt in the
spawn room inside my house I’ve been
diagnosed with breast cancer and it was
there that we entire just relaxed then
something has trusting as this happens
in your life you entire world give your
entire perspective tends to shift maybe
that happens because you start observing
things change
let me give you an example because I
have spent so much time in hospitals in
my mother I would spend most of it in
waiting rooms where there will be
hundreds of people will be trying be
screaming will be shouting the top
enough and what I want it at that point
in time was just conventional calm some
some please make me think on other days
I would be outside the ICU in a deserted
corridor where everything gone for hours
and all I want you to hear then it was
just the sound of the door opening or
just surgeons talking to each other or
footsteps anything we convinced me that
things are alive now when you have such
situations you can find words in
situation we understand that any word
have a different interpretation and
meaning based on how much I think that’s
very important in terms of observation
right now we can observe and make it any
higher experience for responders more
important in these amitabh servation
one that sets us apart art achievement
connections are you here example I went
on to my mom’s room after chemotherapy
to spend some time with her and she was
trying to dream and our hands would
shake violently and our eyes would go in
and out
which is friend battle control teacher
this one time I went up to the ICU to
put my mom there for the night and I saw
the six-year-old boy screaming after he
saw the needle in the search his hands
and he was charging for his mother and
his mother was upset guys knew what he
was first met one time I will not get
them all done my mom’s treatment and the
pure cosmic prototype do something that
had been taken while my mom was in the
icing so all of the human connections
that leave you with the most everlasting
is incompatible because we are social
animals
you don’t you in the fight you see it on
emotional physical or spiritual level
tougher activities and in the human
dimension of human context be important
when you’re writing something as
personal as well so when I was shopping
between these two school of observations
I stopped it upon this I
thought myself this is 40 of the best I
can be and there is no worse feeling and
fighting a half-written
but a half-hearted life so at all I said
that I want to cry this time I was
determined to get it done
even before I could start my third head
of life we don’t
certainly the one person I love most in
the world was getting worse by the day
being away from me and I could I could
do nothing about I just watch them
then the inevitable happened and she
passed away I completely stopped it took
me months of soul-searching of trying to
answer questions that I had about myself
before I could figure out what went now
when I was back again I think I stopped
writing because I was so attached to the
entire idea of a perfect letter that it
did not happen I just I just lost myself
and that’s the risk carrying with you
every time you invest yourself
ferny you one aspect of many you will
never understand to expand to potential
what you can do if you’re narrow-minded
or country nothing will ever change we
write with this there are other
different how will you fix flow we write
because the reveal in different ways to
side of it you will never know which
information works the best
unless you believe the last less energy
Kuwait
my journey of writing letters that you
have to ask yourself very tough
questions having to leave in one unit we
don’t just listen to music this is the
best version of the story that you
wanted to introspect and reflect because
once you send that letter nothing to say
what will be trust me when I say this it
is no worse being narrating a half the
age of 19 three years after I started
writing my first edit my mother finally
finished we’re starting with just one
takeaway that I keep with me throughout
this point in melancholic hard Jovita
romantic it’s that put together
beautiful letter you have to take
yourself cautious and right now
important day I format the language I
have performed address for a living and
I can tell you that his North Philly
guys know beautifully when you go on
stage someone comes up to after show
and say that if I can get would you just
go against the most rewarding feeling
that you can have any mantra sort of
here
I believe that’s why I need to write for
clear I would like to leave you with the
fourth item one and actually rush to
finish this one’s for my mother and it
used to make in just in time I hope you
go back home when you listen to this you
put your mother before which is far away
although because of how much tougher so
looking all the strength in the world
lacking responsible game on and so I
would be like thank you so much
you know I remember the birthday
dispense years ago must have been a few
days in cioppino the starter struggle
not starting sir first time in so many
years you and I didn’t scale the first
time in so many as there was no childish
excited wait for the first time in so
many events there was nobody does no
matter what you get at that point in
time you’re heavy skinny emotional fell
sad undecided they go like this so
quietly next morning I was left so the
first thing I did when I walked office
filled up the steps – you better go I
imagine you so I quietly which will be
moving that I will be first faces all
work of international that I took a room
one experience with countless hospitals
the mission when I to be a nothing
silently dead rush of the Optima head
said something’s wrong I knew you
couldn’t even walk straight without me
by excite to take away that appeal hand
should be inside my head before getting
off the high quality weekend again and
laughing go so you start tracking eating
typical agreement
every time community and she leave a
value you just flash the science about
folding out
I almost
if I was a nice book
remember that you can import into the
entire world is what is so much Tony
Hart felt like be a burden
there are days that forward between
value versus collective absolute
perspective refused to do it
you told me how it felt when you needed
me to walk 2 meters Vanessa Moya you
feel absolutely heavens
isolate
I try to give this up on that you
mastered over here and that it’s all we
keep in mind years of easy changes
three years later I celebrated what they
say when I attack science quiet birthday
wish instead of connective irritation
and things so much better but I this
far-out face but I have found that Paris
is so drastically play I’m checking for
your should understand I wish I could
kiss your cheeks and then everything
it’s people service so yes
whatever gift documents under the
communiques are easy whirring time
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anyways not about my wishes but how
typically is
hope that one man can see that God
enjoys the best apt remember
yes lightly his foreskin remembers the
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