[Music]
[Applause]
let’s jump right in emotional pollution
global crisis today and yet while beside
environmental pollution petitions even
public-interest litigations scant
attention is paid to the muck we hold
within ourselves do any of you remember
the first contaminant that entered your
mind space mine was anger it seeks a mom
was being unfair and unkind and that kid
didn’t like it one bit do you remember
your first banging headache
I do age 8 a new contaminant guilty me
good children were supposed to love
their parents and not meeting this norm
let that kid with adverse effects now as
babies we are all born with an unsold
unconditioned palette a clean slate no
preconceived notions a baby takes a
plunge into this world completely
oblivious to whatever is in store ahead
and we are said to be spiritual beings
here for the human experience the leap
of faith drives a baby spirit our
emotions of course we feel even as
babies but we don’t carry these memories
as feelings at least not yet
it is this uncomplicated simplicity this
innocent purity that is difficult to
retain as we grow on in yours
the spirit is absolutely corrupted by
the personality of the ego says Swami
Vivekananda and refers to us ego driven
human beings
as moustached babies did you know that
when a baby begins to understand that it
is an entity all by itself separate from
its parents from its environment it
begins to attach to the I mean my mind
ego the ego of doing of being now by the
end of the stock you guys will figure
that my life is only a standard textbook
case I grew up in a volatile
dysfunctional madcap of a violent home
at each night I was pulverized for
failing that by two months and I don’t
know what happened but I was suddenly
standing somewhere else and watching
that kid getting beaten the funny part I
was perfectly aware that both fractions
are me that nine year old even
understood that not all adults are right
and that not all children are stupid by
eleven unfortunately or fortunately I
faced as much threat from the outside
world of people as I did from the inside
road mishaps sexual harassment war
sirens blackouts and a whole lot of
unfamiliar adult emotions began to cloud
my intelligence so I had to learn street
smartness in a hurry
I had to outwit the enemy does it mean
that I became an over smart Sharna I
then understood that everyone has
somewhat something to teach me and words
to comfort me
if only I was interested in paying
attention use your brains before they
rust you are given true and more of them
said coke
our maths teacher and the reason my
dears
is to think and reason she said study
time has got worry time said Bell
teacher so I taught myself plea time is
not cry time and then came you are not
just a twelve-year-old so drop your
frivolous immaturity Moratti teacher by
our age girls were making babies and
raising families like it was my fault
it certainly explains how much you’re
responsible society ma’am I said
tongue-in-cheek and she said exactly so
grow up point taken these unknowingly
became my solutions to ease my confusion
and pain and I taught myself to become
my own parent teacher best friend and
guide while facing a final exam the next
morning and after the entire evening of
housework mind and body bashing I
mastered the craft of silencing my
agitated mind how by setting a time
limit on misery mantra control Ghana
month they’re not easy to rope in a
livid appalled mind but I could cajole
the aching me gently it’s called talking
reason with the inner child I could not
afford to fail another exam not without
repercussions so what’s got to be done
got to be done great mantra to use in
life I’ll just stare out of the window
and allow my mind to wander making peace
with all that I was feeling and
experiencing waiting just waiting for my
mind to let go of all the wretchedness
and fury my shadow agitated
would soon settle into even deep
breathing the pit in the gut would
release itself and I would snap back
into focus and study anytime you’re
stressed try it it works like magic
I learned to close every moment within
the moment and lived moment to moment
no residue carried forth whatsoever I
began to hold emotions much later by 20
I had a solid legal case of child abuse
and domestic violence which I chose not
to fight the welfare of other dependent
siblings was at stake here and that
apart my parents were not my enemies
they believed in authoritarian parenting
spare the rod and spoil the child
victims I guess know what can I see
before reaching 30 I gave birth to a
dead baby after a full-term post mature
overdue pregnancy and five days of
intensive exhaustive labor I still feel
the pangs of that loss at 40 I was in
therapy only to realize that my magnet
had attracted emotionally unavailable
relationships merely a byproduct of a
dysfunctional upbringing and only
because I was emotionally unavailable to
myself and that really hurt now
professionally I rather gaming firm
called boffins above in my definition is
the ultimate authority on any given
subject and modesty those days just
happened to be my middle name the idea
was to introduce fun into adult lives to
tap into that child element to pump up
that inner kid and help be stress while
I was busy enjoying professional success
I grew to be almost 100 kilos
play went missing from my adult life I
no excuse can justify that dichotomy
putting the petition down for my divorce
from momentito moment cease firing
24 years raped of age old painful
memories and the unfairness of all of it
had me riding in pain self-pity
righteous rot and hopelessness exploding
out of every orifice the effort took me
three and a half months and more by
working consecutive ships night and day
it went lousy food habits erratic sleep
cycles smoking like a chimney binge
drinking whenever possible
Oh God health nutritional deficiencies
galore and all-consuming grief and
resentment overpowering my core
intelligence emotional pollution had
been its clutches by now and how my Ebor
took a severe battery 46 years on this
planet I had absolutely nothing to show
for it but he did or otherwise wasting
an entire lifetime pursuing a dream a
one passport one love filled dream $1
and idealism had its mocking best I
couldn’t even hold a family together and
my breaking point came with my cancer
August 2006 which was at best
so what emotional pollution does it
causes you constant frustration
dissatisfaction a sense of grief a sense
of loss a sense of being bereft why
because you’re trying to alleviate this
wholeness this emptiness the sense of
defeat that you feel from what you think
you deserve and what you think you’re
getting reality mismatch I carried on
with my chemotherapy and radiation along
sunlight divorce court proceedings and I
could go on and on like any of us can
but I needed to take responsibility for
emotional wellness welfare and
well-being understanding the part that
my emotions and propensities had played
on my ill health change the game for I
began to respond and take action for
what needed to be done one I needed to
undo all the pollution that had already
accumulated – I needed to make sure that
I didn’t add anything new to the mix now
common sense says if I free myself of
all the hatred killed why die and all
those unproductive destructive
counterproductive emotions I will only
be doing myself the biggest favor where
did you agree the amount of love all of
us hold within us should actually be
manifesting a very different reality for
us even within the family structure we
experienced so much disorder and
disunity hostility on most minds then we
talk world peace
I’ll play everything why is the world
not one love filled peaceful harmonious
unit because how many within equals how
many without that’s right so I took
charge of what needed to be done made
sure that I worked at it systematically
putting in almost ploughed 12 years of
effort there are only two horses that
drive our mind love and fear so you need
to operate from fear and doubt for
looting and hijacking yourself or you
can operate from love and faith helping
and nourishing yourself so as my dad
says use your bootp unbiased
intelligence
it holds the ability to drop reaction
and introduce response in its place and
all that is called for is ego maturity
as balls of energy twelve kilometers in
radius the center of which is our solar
plexus at this point in time our
energies are intermingling way beyond
our cognitive abilities imagine in this
very room how our energies are
intermingling and overlapping we are
that intimately connected the solar
plexus is the feet of our primal
emotions it’s the place where we carry
all our feelings watch out for yours at
any given point of time and make sure
that you don’t feel the collective and
feed off the palate if a handful of us
picked up this individual responsibility
this mantle of individual responsibility
to become greif and grown free complete
that conflict free domination and
control free we have a changed world
think about it so on that note our
genuinely end with a plea saying let’s
drop all our personal issues let’s take
a cosmic collective responsibility
seriously let’s commit to that business
and contribute towards what needs to be
done as we lay a false pride an ego
aside we our hearts minds wills and spirit we turn purpose
[Applause]
let’s jump right in emotional pollution
global crisis today and yet while beside
environmental pollution petitions even
public-interest litigations scant
attention is paid to the muck we hold
within ourselves do any of you remember
the first contaminant that entered your
mind space mine was anger it seeks a mom
was being unfair and unkind and that kid
didn’t like it one bit do you remember
your first banging headache
I do age 8 a new contaminant guilty me
good children were supposed to love
their parents and not meeting this norm
let that kid with adverse effects now as
babies we are all born with an unsold
unconditioned palette a clean slate no
preconceived notions a baby takes a
plunge into this world completely
oblivious to whatever is in store ahead
and we are said to be spiritual beings
here for the human experience the leap
of faith drives a baby spirit our
emotions of course we feel even as
babies but we don’t carry these memories
as feelings at least not yet
it is this uncomplicated simplicity this
innocent purity that is difficult to
retain as we grow on in yours
the spirit is absolutely corrupted by
the personality of the ego says Swami
Vivekananda and refers to us ego driven
human beings
as moustached babies did you know that
when a baby begins to understand that it
is an entity all by itself separate from
its parents from its environment it
begins to attach to the I mean my mind
ego the ego of doing of being now by the
end of the stock you guys will figure
that my life is only a standard textbook
case I grew up in a volatile
dysfunctional madcap of a violent home
at each night I was pulverized for
failing that by two months and I don’t
know what happened but I was suddenly
standing somewhere else and watching
that kid getting beaten the funny part I
was perfectly aware that both fractions
are me that nine year old even
understood that not all adults are right
and that not all children are stupid by
eleven unfortunately or fortunately I
faced as much threat from the outside
world of people as I did from the inside
road mishaps sexual harassment war
sirens blackouts and a whole lot of
unfamiliar adult emotions began to cloud
my intelligence so I had to learn street
smartness in a hurry
I had to outwit the enemy does it mean
that I became an over smart Sharna I
then understood that everyone has
somewhat something to teach me and words
to comfort me
if only I was interested in paying
attention use your brains before they
rust you are given true and more of them
said coke
our maths teacher and the reason my
dears
is to think and reason she said study
time has got worry time said Bell
teacher so I taught myself plea time is
not cry time and then came you are not
just a twelve-year-old so drop your
frivolous immaturity Moratti teacher by
our age girls were making babies and
raising families like it was my fault
it certainly explains how much you’re
responsible society ma’am I said
tongue-in-cheek and she said exactly so
grow up point taken these unknowingly
became my solutions to ease my confusion
and pain and I taught myself to become
my own parent teacher best friend and
guide while facing a final exam the next
morning and after the entire evening of
housework mind and body bashing I
mastered the craft of silencing my
agitated mind how by setting a time
limit on misery mantra control Ghana
month they’re not easy to rope in a
livid appalled mind but I could cajole
the aching me gently it’s called talking
reason with the inner child I could not
afford to fail another exam not without
repercussions so what’s got to be done
got to be done great mantra to use in
life I’ll just stare out of the window
and allow my mind to wander making peace
with all that I was feeling and
experiencing waiting just waiting for my
mind to let go of all the wretchedness
and fury my shadow agitated
would soon settle into even deep
breathing the pit in the gut would
release itself and I would snap back
into focus and study anytime you’re
stressed try it it works like magic
I learned to close every moment within
the moment and lived moment to moment
no residue carried forth whatsoever I
began to hold emotions much later by 20
I had a solid legal case of child abuse
and domestic violence which I chose not
to fight the welfare of other dependent
siblings was at stake here and that
apart my parents were not my enemies
they believed in authoritarian parenting
spare the rod and spoil the child
victims I guess know what can I see
before reaching 30 I gave birth to a
dead baby after a full-term post mature
overdue pregnancy and five days of
intensive exhaustive labor I still feel
the pangs of that loss at 40 I was in
therapy only to realize that my magnet
had attracted emotionally unavailable
relationships merely a byproduct of a
dysfunctional upbringing and only
because I was emotionally unavailable to
myself and that really hurt now
professionally I rather gaming firm
called boffins above in my definition is
the ultimate authority on any given
subject and modesty those days just
happened to be my middle name the idea
was to introduce fun into adult lives to
tap into that child element to pump up
that inner kid and help be stress while
I was busy enjoying professional success
I grew to be almost 100 kilos
play went missing from my adult life I
no excuse can justify that dichotomy
putting the petition down for my divorce
from momentito moment cease firing
24 years raped of age old painful
memories and the unfairness of all of it
had me riding in pain self-pity
righteous rot and hopelessness exploding
out of every orifice the effort took me
three and a half months and more by
working consecutive ships night and day
it went lousy food habits erratic sleep
cycles smoking like a chimney binge
drinking whenever possible
Oh God health nutritional deficiencies
galore and all-consuming grief and
resentment overpowering my core
intelligence emotional pollution had
been its clutches by now and how my Ebor
took a severe battery 46 years on this
planet I had absolutely nothing to show
for it but he did or otherwise wasting
an entire lifetime pursuing a dream a
one passport one love filled dream $1
and idealism had its mocking best I
couldn’t even hold a family together and
my breaking point came with my cancer
August 2006 which was at best
so what emotional pollution does it
causes you constant frustration
dissatisfaction a sense of grief a sense
of loss a sense of being bereft why
because you’re trying to alleviate this
wholeness this emptiness the sense of
defeat that you feel from what you think
you deserve and what you think you’re
getting reality mismatch I carried on
with my chemotherapy and radiation along
sunlight divorce court proceedings and I
could go on and on like any of us can
but I needed to take responsibility for
emotional wellness welfare and
well-being understanding the part that
my emotions and propensities had played
on my ill health change the game for I
began to respond and take action for
what needed to be done one I needed to
undo all the pollution that had already
accumulated – I needed to make sure that
I didn’t add anything new to the mix now
common sense says if I free myself of
all the hatred killed why die and all
those unproductive destructive
counterproductive emotions I will only
be doing myself the biggest favor where
did you agree the amount of love all of
us hold within us should actually be
manifesting a very different reality for
us even within the family structure we
experienced so much disorder and
disunity hostility on most minds then we
talk world peace
I’ll play everything why is the world
not one love filled peaceful harmonious
unit because how many within equals how
many without that’s right so I took
charge of what needed to be done made
sure that I worked at it systematically
putting in almost ploughed 12 years of
effort there are only two horses that
drive our mind love and fear so you need
to operate from fear and doubt for
looting and hijacking yourself or you
can operate from love and faith helping
and nourishing yourself so as my dad
says use your bootp unbiased
intelligence
it holds the ability to drop reaction
and introduce response in its place and
all that is called for is ego maturity
as balls of energy twelve kilometers in
radius the center of which is our solar
plexus at this point in time our
energies are intermingling way beyond
our cognitive abilities imagine in this
very room how our energies are
intermingling and overlapping we are
that intimately connected the solar
plexus is the feet of our primal
emotions it’s the place where we carry
all our feelings watch out for yours at
any given point of time and make sure
that you don’t feel the collective and
feed off the palate if a handful of us
picked up this individual responsibility
this mantle of individual responsibility
to become greif and grown free complete
that conflict free domination and
control free we have a changed world
think about it so on that note our
genuinely end with a plea saying let’s
drop all our personal issues let’s take
a cosmic collective responsibility
seriously let’s commit to that business
and contribute towards what needs to be
done as we lay a false pride an ego
aside we our hearts minds wills and spirit we turn purpose
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