so we all breathe and most often loved
one who passed away but we also agreed
for objects
bodily injuries or losses the nail broke
the Bible took too much off the top I’ve
experienced perhaps more than my fair
share of the loss of loved ones
including one of my sisters so I’m kind
of intimate with this grieving process
but somehow it always takes me by
surprise it takes time for us to fully
realize the absence of the deceased and
the shock of loss and delay the grieving
period and we feel pressure to move on
partly due to the externally visible
signs of sadness crying being the most
obvious one and feeling for the most
part socially unacceptable but we need
to commit ourselves to grieve as much as
we need to find ways to channel this
grief itself and I find music is the
best outlet agree so I have the
privilege of being able to make music
and by that I mean I’ve been to our to
read music
I’ve been practicing as a learning the
merits as well as performing regularly
my whole life and I’ve got the
confidence and support to continue to do
so so I’ve been nurtured by my parents
my dad as a classical musician he’s
primarily a violinist from Barbados and
I’m Richard myself for 12 assault
theremin this instrument here which I’ll
be performing on in a bit and I also
which allows me to collective music
making in contrast to my solo voices and
all this might sound like I’m just
showing up about all the ways I make
music music it’s performance is
inherently communal performance without
an audience it cannot exist without this
audience your presence the audience’s
presence is essential to creating the
unique moment the unique moments are the
only moment in which performance truly
exists so despite the unprecedented
advancement in smartphones so we’ve all
got video cameras in our pockets this
might even be live-streamed despite that
there’s nothing quite like being present
both physically and mentally
at the performance and the intensity of
light performance can be overwhelming
I’m thinking of the way fans screen you
know historically Michael Jackson
beetles
we’re passing out and also how people
weep at the Opera but recorded music
also has the ability to produce this
kind of effect on us and I know when I
want to cry or I’m already crying and
I’m in for a bit of a session there’s
Hugh go to tracks
yeah soundtrack for this emotional
release
Jacqueline Duprey performing Ella Garth
chairman contention conducted by her
partner Daniel Barenboim it was a
specific video on YouTube it’s black and
white performers from 1967 and this
performance is documented informant or
should say is retrospectively infused
with the tragedy of Jacqueline Dupre’s
premature death age of 20 she battles
with multiple sclerosis fair environment
D crazy look to one another is so
present in the way that they interact
this performance though this unknown
tragic future of Jackie’s death is
present in the bitter sweet melody of
Elgar epic work and this undeniably
intensifies that entire thing it’s what
we know
my favorite for the sorrowful
soundtracks includes Billie Holiday’s
gloomy sunday’ Chris he’s explicative
game and also boys to men the end of the
road but the point is music flows
through us through memory through
presence to the presence the memory of
the memory of the present and perhaps
most permanently through the human voice
in song so historically particularly in
ancient Greece the human voice if song
was believed to connect the man with
gods and that singing could transcend
time and space and mortality and this
would ultimately established hungry in
the universe being moved to being being
moved means being touched by something
but music itself is intangible one good
thing about music when it hits you you
feel no pain for Molly said that
listening to music provides mental space
in time for us to contemplate and to
reflect and music transfigured suffering
into joy and we couldn’t have submarine
without Joey we couldn’t have
without suffering but I’ll end my
speaking part by contemplating
collective grief in fact we felt more of
this this year but awful year for many
reasons but we’ve lost an abnormally
high number of high profile artists
Prince Bao e5 dog amongst many others
the world has been united through
grieving for these gifted musicians we’d
be with being United through their music
whilst they were alive and we continued
to connect through their music now that
they’re dead and this was particularly
potent in the initial reading process
when we were finding out so in this
current bleak global socio-political
climate race relations are far from
harmonious to the point that we’re
regularly breathing for innocent
individuals at times I find for now
unfortunately expected fatalities of
black subjects through police brutality
overwhelmingly traumatic and we need to
grieve these losses both individually
and collectively or at least to realize
that we are grieving together both for
individuals and for collective traumas
I’m going to perform other men for a
much lesser known figure booster booster
instigated the largest slave ball in
Barbados in 1816 this was followed by
two
more large-scale a billions in Demerara
in 1823 in Jamaica and in 1832 in the
buzzer in months at the Emancipation
statue is a landmark in Barbados though
few people outside that’s outside of
Barbados know anything about it so I
realized its urgency to give more
attention to Buster as I continued to
decolonize my own mind and as I
constantly struggle to express myself
through words
so my sonic lamentable sir saves so much
more than I couldn’t attempt to explain
through words alone so yeah this
estimate here theremin is totally unique
amongst all instruments in that you do
not touch it to make a sound
and I think this performed intangibility
relates to the way in which we feel so
emotion is cannot be grasped easily
defined verbally and mental pain does
not uncommon off so the mystical
theremin for me is my outlet I devised a for channel my grief into the airwaves