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Finding Your Light | Zebulon Austin | TEDxSFU


who here has wanted something so badly

that they’re willing to put everything

on the line to get it I bet just about

everybody in here has think back to when

your baby and you’re about to take that

first step you’re moving towards

something that you really want that step

turns into 2 into 3 next thing you know

you’re running around accomplishing all

sorts of things and over time you get

comfortable with your accomplishments

and then somewhere down the line most of

our accomplishments starts with them

driven by the idea of comfort now I’ve

realized that the only way to keep

evolving as a person is to identify that

I’m in a comfort zone and break out of

it for me this is the only way I’ve ever

really grown so let me give you some

examples of how this has helped me in my

life I grew up in the Yukon just outside

of Dawson City I lived in a small log

cabin on the bank of the Klondike River

I grew up in this isolated part of the

world with a kind of a freedom that

allowed my imagination to really explore

its limits so thanks mom and dad and

when you grow up in these isolated parts

of the world your your future can kind

of seem laid out for you it’s beautiful

right so life can get comfortable so

I’ve always had a bit of an adventurous

side so I guess the first true leaped

that I took was when I decided to move

away and become an artist so I left the

Yukon taken with me some wonderful

memories but a really truly deep

fascination for light because it’s so

far north when it’s light up there you

know all summer it’s light in the winter

you get about six hours of daylight but

when it’s bright out it’s like nothing

you’ve ever seen before sunlight

glistens off the snow it dances off the

hoarfrost and it kind of makes the ice

come alive and what I’d call like a

silent symphony

it’s unexplainable it’s like being in

the presence of everything and nothing

all the same like all at once time

stands still it was in the Yukon where I

fell in love with light I put my ice

skates on and I’d skate up the river

minus 40 below zero temperatures just to

experience this I get back home cozy

little cabin my mom would have to

massage the blood back into my feet it

sometimes it was like 50 below and I’d

learning for me as a child was difficult

because when i try to read something the

words would jump all over the page and

move around so as a result like school I

was home-schooled Andrew schools never

really something that interests me so I

focused on developing my talents and

skills in another way so I’m a

self-taught artist and I started drawing

using charcoals I do mainly animals and

other nature scenes so I fell into the

realm of realism I was teaching myself

as I went so I thought the more

realistic I could get the image to look

the more I was progressing so I got

pretty good at charcoals but it didn’t

take long for me to start to want

something that was a little more of a

challenge something that was more unique

to me as an artist so this challenge

came to me when I was I was actually

prospecting with my dad we’re digging I

think digging in some rocks and I

noticed that the the ground would change

color the further and I dig and so I was

like all of a sudden was like what if I

layer up paint and then carve into it to

release the image so I couldn’t get this

idea out of my head you know i was like

thinking about this i told a couple

people and they’re like stick with what

you know you know stick with what you’re

kind of good at this is a

here but I you know I this wouldn’t

leave me so I eventually went out and

got some good paint then I started to

layer it up now keep in mind there’s no

there’s no manual for carving paint so

this was a learn as you go process I had

to throw this piece and a deep freeze in

order to keep it cold enough for me to

like cut into the pain when it was done

I noticed something that I hadn’t

anticipated the image would change

depending on the light of the day so

this to me was a bit of a breakthrough

and it’s kind of become the fundamental

catalyst for the continuation of all my

work to make pieces that move and change

depending on how they interact with

light so it was kind of like you could

say that this technique was kind of

being guided by the light now everybody

knows that where there’s light there’s

shadows so now I could use shadows to

make the audience as I travel up and

down the piece instead of color so

figuring this out took me about a year

of my life but it rewired my brain with

kind of understanding that i wouldn’t

received if i hadn’t taken the steps to

initially challenge myself now everybody

knows that time is money so i figured it

was time for me to figure out a faster

technique so i wanted to incorporate

what i had learned from this experience

like i wanted light to remain the key

factor and figured that I’d probably

start incorporating gel into this so I

came up with the idea if I if I put

paint in between layers of gel I can

achieve a similar effect to that of the

carving and it worked like this piece

here is the same same picture it’s just

from different angles so when you walk

by it you can see like stuff spray off

I’ve always believed that doing things

the hard way leads to a greater

understanding and this wasn’t any

different with this technique I make my

own tools I’d to the ends of sticks to

make brushes and i would use like little

bottles with needles on the end of them

to apply paint in between the layers of

gel and without the use of conventional

tools it made it really hard for me to

control the outcome so this forced me to

approach the whole thing with stronger

and ten more focused and even still I’d

get a little bit of you know Smee Ridge

colors would run a little bit they’d

evaporating leave little sporadic

anomalies and like imperfections and

this became something that actually

really liked after a while you know so

breaking away from the comfort zone of

using conventional tools actually helped

my process evolved so I built a large

body of work with this technique and I

tackled all sorts of different subject

matter just to prove to myself that this

technique was valid yeah this stage I

knew that getting my work out to the

public was the next step like I wanted

to see how these pictures inspired by

light would affect people or how people

would respond to them and I wanted to

document this whole process so I was

talking to a really good friend of mine

about this and he happens to also be an

excellent photographer so we decided

that we were going to take our work and

put it up in parks and alleys and

streets all over the city when we

initially tell people about this they’re

like I don’t know why would you hang

something that you know you can sell for

money in the street I was like well

that’s where an honest energy of the

and besides if I hang my artwork up in

these weird spots it’s more likely to

get a response so with the help of a few

friends we went out and we started

placing artwork up in alleys

photographing it and then we blast it up

on social media and pretty soon

everybody’s response turned around

people started to really want to get

involved I took one of my large pieces

down to a nearby construction site and

we convinced the workers there the the

crew to hoist it up on their crane cable

so we could get an image of it hanging

in the air and they were like really

they’re happy to do this you know so

this was really cool because now we are

getting the community involved with our

project you know not only were they

accepting it they were happily assisting

us and encouraging us with what we were

trying to do so breaking out of the

conventional way of displaying artwork

really was paying off it encouraged me

to keep moving forward with this

confidence I figured I’d go down and

approach the port of Metro Vancouver and

see if we could get in there to take

pictures of cranes hanging off of there

you know the cranes basically

and they agreed they let us in and it

was pretty cool the whole the whole

thing was amazing this is this is nuts

because no one’s really allowed in there

right let alone taking pictures so I’m

happy to say that we did this without

getting arrested because we were pretty

determined to do this if they didn’t let

us in we probably would have tried to

break in and I would have been pretty

funny but at this point we had you know

the community’s response was had gone

way way past my expectations and because

of that I thought it was time for me to

give something back so I’d realized that

people would give my artwork a moment of

their time when they were in front of it

but if they happen to cross the same

piece at night when no one else was

around like was my artwork we’re

stealing you know so I was like I

started to think about this and the more

I really liked it

I started to think of people running

down the road with my artwork under

their arm and I’m I was like now that’s

we picked the wall on a building in

gastown and we decided to leave a piece

there and this piece was this was an

experiment and the piece was intended

that to be a gift for the person who I

thought would be giving me the best

compliment ever and so I wrote on the

back I wrote if you’re reading this

you’ve been involved in a social

experiment please take this home put it

up on your wall all I’m asking you to do

is photograph it in its new environment

and then send me a picture along with a

brief description of how it’s affected

you and we left it there photographed it

went home the next day sure enough we go

down the piece is totally gone so I’m

like that was quick you know I thought

it would at least take a couple days

right and so it was gone and I didn’t

get an immediate response and I started

to get kind of discouraged you know I’d

put a lot of time and energy into this

project and for it to be just to be left

unanswered was a little bit

disheartening so I thought you know was

it too much to ask for that brief

description I don’t know I kind of but

anyway about two weeks later we were

contacted by The Huffington Post and

they wanted to do a story on the whole

project they had seen a post on social

media by the person who found the art so

when the story came out it was a great

story but it was a bit of a

misrepresentation about what it was that

I was trying to do the headline read

I was like come on like the person that

wrote the article must have never heard

sometimes when you take the leap you

don’t always land where you think you’re

going to but I learned something that I

hadn’t learned you know like I’m with

all this stuff I was like okay this is

one of the most important things that

I’ve learned in all of this is it’s what

the it’s what the the viewer takes away

from the art piece that gives it true

value given that piece up made me feel

really good you know it brought balance

back to this whole thing like the

community gave me something by like you

know all this amazing like feedback and

so giving that what it was like keeping

a balance that’s important can’t always

be take right so whenever I’m I gave it

away it made me feel a little bit better

even that even though if I would have

sold it you know so with this newfound

knowledge you kind of have this new

responsibilities now from that point

forward every piece that I was to create

not only needed to be aesthetically

appealing to its audience it needed to

have some sort of a connection on an

emotional level or be like purposeful on

a deeper level because that’s what

important art is it’s purposeful are so

learning that led me to my latest series

I’m making paintings of old fishing

lures and I’m using them as bait to draw

now sinking these things in the water

has also added a layer of community

involvement and it’s been you know I’ve

been working hard at getting this out

there to the world for the last little

while I’ve been working with all a lot

of really good photographers from around

the Vancouver area and it’s it’s it’s

been amazing so now as a child was

terrified of reading and writing because

the words would move around when I look

at them but I’ve dedicated years of my

life into creating paintings that move

around when other people look at them

you know so looking back I realized that

the very thing that I thought was a

weakness may have been the thing that

helped push me to take this leap what I

once thought was an inadequacy has kind

of become my gift of the world so you

got to remember it’s not always going to

be warm in the sunshine but you got to

take that step first step out into the light if you want to grow thank you

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