childhood I’ve had a very very common
title but if you not sure what what to
do I tell my friends who want to be
docked or what the engineer but I was
the one who want to be an astronaut and
I don’t want what it takes to be an
astronaut if what educational
qualifications I just want to be
fascinated by you know going to the
space and invading where the stars are
and everything but later on I realized
when I think about it right now that the
dream of being an astronaut was like a
big dream and I did not fear to dream
big and I always wanted to be something
which would just push my boundaries and
I think that was the stepping stone to
what I am right now probably I couldn’t
be an astronaut but I could be something
which is not so of out of the world but
something that was not even normal so
that was the stepping stone of my career
of just dreaming big dreaming of
something but probably people would
think I you mad or rather would make fun
of but I wanted to dream very big and
that’s how I started my journey from my
childhood to when I went to the college
was again a very normal college girl who
just attended lectures and stuff but I
want again I was fascinated with these
air hostesses I was really fascinated
with them with the way they looked with
the boys with you know the amount of
grace that they had it actually
attracted me to the aviation industry I
did a course in aviation and hospitality
and that is how I got into the aviation
industry which was again on a plan it
was not at all a plan it was just I
wanted to be that and I started giving
interviews
I got rejected in two interviews and
then I got through a very very big
airline that’s Kingfisher Airlines and I
remember I it was the fourth round which
is always the last song that was always
taken by mr. Vijay Mallya and I was not
knowing much about with mr. Vijay Mallya
at that time it’s because um you know
Google and being smart being tech-savvy
is what it is right now but at that time
it was not that big so I had basic
information about him I was not knowing
if he was such a magnificent personality
but I knew he he was a remarkable
personality in that industry though so I
went for this interview wherein there
were about 150 people who were selected
from all the four rounds and came into
the last round and we went to his house
of Nippon syrota we entered at morning
ten o’clock and by two o’clock in the
night he was just busy with his meetings
and stuff so we had to wait and at two
o’clock was when my interview was taken
and I enter this room and there was this
huge conference room and there was mr.
Vijay Mallya sitting across the table
and III know we all do not have we all
have our own opinions about Kingfisher
but trust me that man has I have immense
about a respect of a respect for that
man because he was the one who built up
my base of confidence of you know
thinking beyond what I could do I
I remember one question that he asked me
he asked me a bit now why should I hire
you I was 17 at that time under age I
was this is like very new for me I was
not prepared for the interview when the
other girls were like rehearsing and you
know I speak this if this is a stile
speak that if that is a I was just like
let’s go and give an interview and I
answered
that so I do not know if I would make
any remarkable financial improvements in
your company but I am very sure that
each guest you get on my flight
I would give my hundred percent and
because of that he would want to come
back to Kingfisher again and he was like
okay you may go and I went and I got a
call after 15 days that you you have
been selected out of 150 girls over ten
girls who got selected and it was very
exciting it is it is an achievement but
I was not realizing it because I did not
think about it that seriously later
first month of my Kingfisher I was I
used to cry on flight that’s because I
thought food is being in here horses
it’s like walking through the aisle but
anyone who makeup looking go within all
of that but it is a lot of hard work it
was a lot of responsibility and I was it
was hard for me to go up to all of that
but that is the fun that that’s when I
realized that you know when you do not
know about any profession and such or
you do not have the full information
it’s about taking a blind leap into it
and what happens with a blind him you
have no inhibitions she were all ready
to learn new things
you were not judgmental if those things
are good or bad you’re just accepting
everything that is coming your way and
that is what taught me that you know you
don’t have to be prepared every time you
don’t have to be perfect every time you
don’t have to know about everything and
just portray that you know I know
everything or there’s no there is fun in
not knowing things and just finding them
out it’s like you know I went to this I
went to a particular play
to just hang out and eat and I find that
there was one dish that was interesting
because I was totally blank while I was
going and then I tell about it to
different people that you know what that
dish was very nice it’s about
experiencing it’s about you know you
going out there without any inhibitions
and just discovering the whole thing all
together and what that leads to that
leads to immense amount of happiness
because when we expect what do we expect
a success when we don’t expect either we
prepared for the success or were you
also prepared for the failure if he is
successful then we’re like wow are we
successful you’ve made it but when he
fat all you fail you’re like okay what’s
next
that’s because you don’t expect anything
out of it and you know while their
journey of Kingfisher while I was not
expecting I was already even expecting
to be an actor which I wanted to be and
coincidentally I my mother enrolled me
into a very big pageant of Maharashtra
teens that’s shaman queen and I was not
knowing about it again I just spent I
did the beauty contest I go through the
four last round but in the last round I
did not win because my Marathi was not
good I since I was from corn when my
Moratti was not that good okay
I accepted that too I moved ahead and I
was to get these calls for you know
character artists like if if he was
standing in the frame I’m just like
behind as a friend or as whatever or
just passing you know we call junior
artists to fill a room about the concept
I was a junior artist but I enjoyed that
you know why because I did not look at
it as you know just passing and not
doing anything I had got to see these
big people so closely and to you know I
understand how acting is how you know
they face
the camera or have they look good on
camera it is a big learning experience
so there’s nothing that’s small or
there’s nothing that’s big
work is work that’ll be of any kind and
I think that again taught me to be
humble enough to accept whatever was
gonna come in my journey ahead
I moved ahead I for two years I was
doing that and I was not getting
anything constructive in the industry so
I thought of giving of I thought of
leaving it and I I gave a few interviews
and then later on I got a call from a
very big production house in Marathi
which is wrapped a star ins he’s a very
big producer and he called me for a
meeting
well then okay I have given a lot of
meetings makuu meeting the leather cover
and though I have been you know I’ve met
so many people nothing has happened so
it’s okay let me just go and you know
give a meeting and come I rented the
meeting everything went well I came back
home he said okay you are gonna be on
the shoot from tomorrow I was like okay
I’ll be shooting from tomorrow I did not
take that seriously do I got a call tell
you on my phone I was like okay I’m
shooting I went on set okay I’m on set
the camera rolled I was like okay the
camera is rolling and my episode got
telecasted and I was like this is
serious this is serious business now
because what I was you know I was in
this loop of not expecting but this big
thing is this big opportunity has come
up and you know facing these veteran
actors in the Marathi industry like
Sunil but way Kotori am be a sunni laude
it was a very big thing but I could have
live up to the expectation because I was
not a born actor and I had one choice at
that time when I faced usual rejection
by my director
by my fraternity I had one choice either
to quit or to move on quitting is easy
right quitting is very easy but to move
on to push your boundary is what I chose
I moved ahead I was learning in all of
this process
I moved ahead I did Liguori I did
devyani all of these Cedars and then out
of nowhere I get this call from a
producer and he says just send in your
audition to this script I said okay
again same thing okay
i spended I was not I was not well at
that time I couldn’t even stand I was
down with fever and probably the worst
audition of my life was cool Cocorico
Lina trust me on that the worst audition
because I was not well I was not
prepared and the second day I was on
floor the second day I started shooting
as this immensely unbelievable character
called Monica which was a bad girl she
was negative she was pregnant oh my god
too much for me to handle at that time
but now IANA why did you’re like now
whoever don’t know it you could google
it but whoever knows why did they were
like Monica she was a negative character
why did her like her she was bad that’s
because you all saw this very small
thing that was genuine about her where
did that come from that came from me
because why when I thought of that
character of Monica I was like she’s
unbelievable this person cannot be
existing but if at all I was pregnant if
at all I had to give birth to a baby who
was without my own wish I would be
frustrated and thatis water related to
and that is what I put in each and every
seal that I did and that is the reason
you liked her
she was bad but still you liked her and
that’s where
I were to know that you know whatever
profession y’all are in every profession
has rules every profession has a way of
working but there’s one thing that you
could put in from yourself that could
give you happiness when you are working
in that space do we do that we don’t
what do we do we could have this is my
job this is what I have to do this is
very hectic no there is a purpose for
everybody to be in the position that you
all are like I am I am her to entertain
y’all just to you know get that half an
hour out of everybody’s life so that you
all could see me and y’all could like
get entertained with my bad nature my
good nature or whatever that’s my
purpose find yours you need to find your
purpose every profession you follow
regulations you follow rules but you put
in yourself one part of yourself and you
watch your life flourishing beautifully
like my life did that’s because
everything that I do or whatever journey
also there was a part of me in it and I
made that effort it’s not easy but you
have to make that effort you know there
is recently added this award function
which very big about function which I
hosted it is bad I did not do it well
people were laughing people made fun out
of me people were you know bad but again
it takes a huge heart to show your
imperfections to the world
it actually takes huge heart and I have
it if I go wrong somewhere I’m not at
all I don’t feel bad to show to the
world nobody is perfect your knee
together
not everybody is perfect whether it be
in a relationship whether it be
professionally whether it be anywhere
embrace
imperfections and he all would see your
life doing wonders if you’ll embrace
your imperfections ladies and gentlemen
these 18 minutes might just be 18
minutes for all of y’all but for me it
is the dream that I saw from the
childhood the journey that I oh I took
y’all through because from these 18
minutes out of all the wonderful people
present here there would be at least one
person who would take one thought from
me
who would implement it once when they
need the most and that is when my speech
is successful and probably that is the
reason I’m here for do you know get that
little thought in your mind not as
Monica or any other character but as a
witness and thank you very much for
listening to my journey and thank you
this was abhinaya for y’all signing off
and hope you all don’t hate me anymore
thank you [Applause]