good evening I feel honored to be here
among renamed and educate speakers and
feel a bit like Athens insignificant you
but anyway
I’m Harriet I’m 25 and I grew up in
Belfast and Northern Ireland and I study
medicine at my castor University I have
anorexia nervosa and I want to use my
experiences to give people about
understanding of the eating disorders
and to give hope to those still
suffering so far I’ve spoken to
newspapers posted on social media and
created a video called indeed fixers a
charity that helps people young people
create ideas I had anorexia before
anyone knew anything was wrong I had on
orexi long before and I Eve 9-year
anything is wrong for I too had this
belief that the anorexia was just a big
thing I am in recovery and recovery mean
to challenge myself on a daily basis and
making me believe that actually I do
deserve to be like everyone else
I wrote this talk not to educate you on
the etiology or management of anorexia
nervosa but to give you an insight into
what it’s like to live with and what the
journey through recovery is like my
journey started when I was 13 I went
through puberty and naturally slimmed
down
I was praised for losing weight and
people were in awe how much dedication I
had and how much willpower I had the
pathological changes forever were
invisible and they were occurring in my
brain long before my body would display
such ill health in order to prevent a
chronic cause of anorexia it has to be
caught before these changes on the body
occur and so here lies a problem hi in a
society where health and fitness are to
be praised and accepted as social norms
can we distinguish between normal
dieting and to sort or not dieting for
disorder reasons but social norms
quickly fall by the wayside anorexia
nervosa
whilst dieting is by getting the body
and a health
stet anorexia is a way of blocking out
all the noise in the world and burying
our emotions in an aura of starvation
there are no treat days and are
practically every day is blind by rules
we become isolated and we lose the life
in our eyes we are tricked into
believing that we are still in control
and so it consumes us and so back to the
title of this talk the word consumption
it’s derived from Latin meaning using up
anorexia uses up every last morsel and
energy and space in your brain the
dictionary gives it the following
definitions definition 1 the act of
consuming anorexia can make people
concerning my new portions of food but
such restriction makes us more and more
obsessed with what foods we can cannot
allow ourselves to consume number 2 it
is the use of something anorexia uses
the body to display the anguish going on
in our minds our body pays the price for
each fear we feel they make and use food
as reward or punishment 3 it is a
progressive wasting maybe the most
widely known feature of anorexia nervosa
loved particularly by the media but
actually this is a very lips eyed in
anorexia
once it is Abdallah inner self belief it
attacks our physical body at this point
the person you want to knew is no longer
in control just as an infection reaches
it starts as a microscopic organism and
manifest when it reaches its peak
so anorexia is not at its peak strength
and the trusting is become physically
wasted the pathological thinking of
eating disorder though still drives you
for the only thing that will satisfy it
more weight loss not for vanity but for
a feeling of power and mastery this is
inevitably a false dichotomy as the
stronger the eating disorder gets the
weaker and more apathetic you become so
you may sit there and think well start
eating a bit more top tip if you forget
everything else I said
this don’t tell someone with an eating
disorder to just go eat some cake don’t
comment on how well they look due to the
weight gain and recovery and don’t go on
about how you wish you had our
motivation I’m trying to be a doctor I
know about energy usage and BMI but the
eating disorder is a psychiatric illness
with structural structural and chemical
changes in the brain that puts almost
delusional beliefs in my mind I like to
explain the disorder with a mat for both
for those with new experience of being
disorders but also for those in the
midst of the illness the eating disorder
creates a candy on one sunny side of the
canyon are your friends and family you
stand on the other side alone and
against a storm the rules are different
on your side of the canyon you don’t
need food to survive you survive using a
cloak of starvation your friends and
family watch passively from the other
side trying to show it across to as they
watch your feet away but the evening
disorder has given you earmuffs and you
can no longer hear what they say
eventually the cloak isn’t comfortable
anymore and it gets heavy and so you
give up a nice stop lie down and wait
for the eating disorder to consume you
and to make you a statistic not a person
as you lie down with the cloak of
starvation you look up and see sullen
blue skies despite no hearing your
friends and family striding across to
you to get out of the storm your family
nice stop possibly waiting and watching
and give up much of their own life in
attempt to reach you they pick you up
they leave the cloak behind and drag you
back to their side and in doing so
leaving your eating disorder behind
without it on their side you’re called
and scared vulnerable but you’re given
no choice like it or not you Willy and
you will face the feelings of failure
and disgust and despair it feels
overwhelming you don’t look back and see
the store and they serve us on your side
you see happiness and warmth and comfort
they’ve cured your body but they’ve left
behind your mind
and so you retreat back to the storm and
so it consumes you again eventually
someone new arrives and walks with you
across the canyon and helps you hard to
learn to live without eating disorder
you grow not only physically but
mentally with resilience and strength
you begin to take charge of your own
recovery where you see that no one else
can save you you realize life over here
with everyone else is actually ok one
day you sit on the side of the canyon
and look back over to your old side and
you accept that it was once a place
comfort and security but actually life
over here is better you feel sadness but
at least you can feel the happiness too
you walk away from the edge turn your
back towards your old side and turn
towards the life you know have gradually
the glances back get fewer the memories
of the journey remain they are part of
you but now you have new goals in life
you’ve learned not to let the low points
consume you and to be the end but
instead just as an epic symphony is made
of highs and lows so we need to
experience these gradients to live not
just survive
you
among renamed and educate speakers and
feel a bit like Athens insignificant you
but anyway
I’m Harriet I’m 25 and I grew up in
Belfast and Northern Ireland and I study
medicine at my castor University I have
anorexia nervosa and I want to use my
experiences to give people about
understanding of the eating disorders
and to give hope to those still
suffering so far I’ve spoken to
newspapers posted on social media and
created a video called indeed fixers a
charity that helps people young people
create ideas I had anorexia before
anyone knew anything was wrong I had on
orexi long before and I Eve 9-year
anything is wrong for I too had this
belief that the anorexia was just a big
thing I am in recovery and recovery mean
to challenge myself on a daily basis and
making me believe that actually I do
deserve to be like everyone else
I wrote this talk not to educate you on
the etiology or management of anorexia
nervosa but to give you an insight into
what it’s like to live with and what the
journey through recovery is like my
journey started when I was 13 I went
through puberty and naturally slimmed
down
I was praised for losing weight and
people were in awe how much dedication I
had and how much willpower I had the
pathological changes forever were
invisible and they were occurring in my
brain long before my body would display
such ill health in order to prevent a
chronic cause of anorexia it has to be
caught before these changes on the body
occur and so here lies a problem hi in a
society where health and fitness are to
be praised and accepted as social norms
can we distinguish between normal
dieting and to sort or not dieting for
disorder reasons but social norms
quickly fall by the wayside anorexia
nervosa
whilst dieting is by getting the body
and a health
stet anorexia is a way of blocking out
all the noise in the world and burying
our emotions in an aura of starvation
there are no treat days and are
practically every day is blind by rules
we become isolated and we lose the life
in our eyes we are tricked into
believing that we are still in control
and so it consumes us and so back to the
title of this talk the word consumption
it’s derived from Latin meaning using up
anorexia uses up every last morsel and
energy and space in your brain the
dictionary gives it the following
definitions definition 1 the act of
consuming anorexia can make people
concerning my new portions of food but
such restriction makes us more and more
obsessed with what foods we can cannot
allow ourselves to consume number 2 it
is the use of something anorexia uses
the body to display the anguish going on
in our minds our body pays the price for
each fear we feel they make and use food
as reward or punishment 3 it is a
progressive wasting maybe the most
widely known feature of anorexia nervosa
loved particularly by the media but
actually this is a very lips eyed in
anorexia
once it is Abdallah inner self belief it
attacks our physical body at this point
the person you want to knew is no longer
in control just as an infection reaches
it starts as a microscopic organism and
manifest when it reaches its peak
so anorexia is not at its peak strength
and the trusting is become physically
wasted the pathological thinking of
eating disorder though still drives you
for the only thing that will satisfy it
more weight loss not for vanity but for
a feeling of power and mastery this is
inevitably a false dichotomy as the
stronger the eating disorder gets the
weaker and more apathetic you become so
you may sit there and think well start
eating a bit more top tip if you forget
everything else I said
this don’t tell someone with an eating
disorder to just go eat some cake don’t
comment on how well they look due to the
weight gain and recovery and don’t go on
about how you wish you had our
motivation I’m trying to be a doctor I
know about energy usage and BMI but the
eating disorder is a psychiatric illness
with structural structural and chemical
changes in the brain that puts almost
delusional beliefs in my mind I like to
explain the disorder with a mat for both
for those with new experience of being
disorders but also for those in the
midst of the illness the eating disorder
creates a candy on one sunny side of the
canyon are your friends and family you
stand on the other side alone and
against a storm the rules are different
on your side of the canyon you don’t
need food to survive you survive using a
cloak of starvation your friends and
family watch passively from the other
side trying to show it across to as they
watch your feet away but the evening
disorder has given you earmuffs and you
can no longer hear what they say
eventually the cloak isn’t comfortable
anymore and it gets heavy and so you
give up a nice stop lie down and wait
for the eating disorder to consume you
and to make you a statistic not a person
as you lie down with the cloak of
starvation you look up and see sullen
blue skies despite no hearing your
friends and family striding across to
you to get out of the storm your family
nice stop possibly waiting and watching
and give up much of their own life in
attempt to reach you they pick you up
they leave the cloak behind and drag you
back to their side and in doing so
leaving your eating disorder behind
without it on their side you’re called
and scared vulnerable but you’re given
no choice like it or not you Willy and
you will face the feelings of failure
and disgust and despair it feels
overwhelming you don’t look back and see
the store and they serve us on your side
you see happiness and warmth and comfort
they’ve cured your body but they’ve left
behind your mind
and so you retreat back to the storm and
so it consumes you again eventually
someone new arrives and walks with you
across the canyon and helps you hard to
learn to live without eating disorder
you grow not only physically but
mentally with resilience and strength
you begin to take charge of your own
recovery where you see that no one else
can save you you realize life over here
with everyone else is actually ok one
day you sit on the side of the canyon
and look back over to your old side and
you accept that it was once a place
comfort and security but actually life
over here is better you feel sadness but
at least you can feel the happiness too
you walk away from the edge turn your
back towards your old side and turn
towards the life you know have gradually
the glances back get fewer the memories
of the journey remain they are part of
you but now you have new goals in life
you’ve learned not to let the low points
consume you and to be the end but
instead just as an epic symphony is made
of highs and lows so we need to
experience these gradients to live not
just survive
you
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