first day of kindergarten I marched
confidently along in my brown Twitter
accounts and yellow boxy t-shirt my
lightening can feed lunchbox swing from
right hand I took my place by the
doorway ready for us in future
undetermined aqua pin with lunchbox I
stepped into single-file solidarity
floating hair power pink lipgloss I
heard a voice speak up behind me you’re
in the wrong I turned around to turned
up nose right deep t-shirt her sequins
malaterre worried to walk with her the
voice line is over there
I followed her finger into the navy
green blue boys line and it didn’t seem
right to me I planted my feet as if for
defying sissy I stood my ground I stood
my ground because that was all I knew
how to do at that moment caught in
between maybe green blue pink sequin car
I didn’t know it at the time but in that
moment I existed in an invisible space I
was somewhere in the girls line that
wasn’t meant for girls
I was parallel to the boys line my arm
is perpendicular
I made that space mine I’d like to
imagine here people first shouted
realizing that there were others like
them it began to a brick stack and that
each person to join their ranks brought
a brick with them and send it on beside
the next and it was in this way brick by
brick by brick that the first date space
was built as the peer community
agreement of all so did lose a species
they grew and shrunk and merged and
factions began to form for example the
first pride unit was created by black
trans women at Stonewall in 1969 yet as
the finally got big
bigger became about cisgender white gay
madam a space originally created for the
most marginalized groups of people
became hold off and inaccessible this
exclusion has only been worse every time
in 2015 for example the still-moving
depicted a white game and run the first
cricket list of all diets every clear
person faces a different struggle some
groups more than others it was these
differences and experiences that first
to get to build these same species and
made the most necessary but the bricks
didn’t stop there and eventually the
walls were so tall as to cut some
marginalized groups out entirely
these additional walls tend to exclude
members of the safe space because of
different aspects in their identity in
my case I experienced this in both trans
and Jewish these two things sometimes
conflict one such instance took place
only a few months ago and I was invited
to my good friends Bar Mitzvah a sort of
Jewish coming-of-age ceremony his Bar
Mitzvah took place in a 12 foot pod
house which is a synagogue that calls an
Orthodox branch of Judaism when I walked
in his face in my bind up shirt and
slacks the first thing I noticed was the
screen divider placed next to the
doorway so the first thing you have to
do when you walk in is to decide to the
right was the men’s side a graciously
provided space in at least six pairs of
folding chairs and a table with kifo
which some unique benefits yarmulke and
tell me a shallow garment
Orthodoxy conservative Jews writing
services to the left was the one inside
maybe three and a half days of folding
chairs
crammed into the apartment I had to make
a choice in that incident so I went to
go and make me stick out less and
followed my mom and two sisters to the
small corner by the window once more
there was no place for me I was in a
space for Jewish people and I was
surrounded by other Jewish people thus
not part of my identity was
but I was still stuck between two sides
I was once more of course to make space
for myself hoping the exclusion of a
different part of my identity
build up bricks around myself this was
an experience where I was supposed to be
rejoicing in my friend celebration yet
all I could think about was my
discomfort and vulnerability this past
summer I decided that I wanted to start
wearing a kippah I wanted to try making
my religion outspoken and visible and
standing on things who are persecuted
because of their disability when I began
the experiment I wore it every day as
many more Orthodox or conservative Jews
do but I quickly realized that it would
be more emotionally challenging than I
thought it would be as I went about my
daily summer life I caught more than a
few stares on the train
and now I call people’s eyes to the top
of my head I attend attracted a lot more
attention than I thought I would
during the roughly 3 week period at
workiva I attended the music as I go to
every year which is a rock music camp in
Torrance Girls trans and gender
non-conforming people at this camp I
also received strange looks at her arms
towards Makeba people asked me why I was
wearing it what it was for and why I
started writing but what I hadn’t been
before most hadn’t seen someone like me
wearing people after those three weeks
25 I stopped wearing I wasn’t sick of
the looks as much as I was of the fear I
found myself constantly vigilant
constantly running for an anti-semitic
comment reading violence I found that a
few states that had previously felt
extraordinarily
could also feel exclusionary sometimes
in both instances of departments fun the
music camp I attended I felt excluded
whether because of my queerness or my
genius on there were walls built within
these state spaces walls with involves
making those spaces inaccessible to me
back in kindergarten I forged my bricks
and my confidence
I fired then in my head strong nature
cemented them and stubborn persistence I
stacked them into my three-foot four
eyes regarding the safety of my children
creation
it was here last summer that I realized
it wouldn’t always be possible for me to
build my own state space no matter which
line I used to stand in which seed I
chose to sit or if I did or didn’t
choose to wear a kippah
it was or so I thought the nature of
human beings in the spaces we create
however this exclusion is Nev equities
about six years ago I attended a summer
camp called camp Ave off for the first
time this place became a Jewish state
space a place where I could talk about
Judaism worship make friends and remain
true to all aspects of my identity
the Hebrew word how violence being and
camp chose this name to represent that
over the summer campers can’t really be
whoever they want we also have a mascot
of being Italian which is a play on
words how we be if a camper is doing
something out of line say being greeted
air touching someone’s stuff without
asking a counselor will ask is that how
we be is cheesy the camp had not only
these mommy values of kindness and
respect but also how to connect one of
the
the summer about Jewish values to the
outside world as I can they realized
that I don’t necessarily have to be
extraordinarily observant or even
observant at all to connect with
religion in meaningful way it was there
that I was taught that Judaism can
simply be a community to be a part of a
way to connect and it was there that I
decided that I truly wanted to be a Jew
because I’m hearing that Judaism didn’t
have to be exclusive towards trans
people there are also other
organizations that are specifically
geared towards LGBT Jews when I have
come across is called catch up which
means rainbow people they welcome Jews
from all walks of life and all branches
of Judaism both these organizations are
a huge step in creating a more inclusive
world but they are only the beginning in
Cuba is expensive and I along with
mostly people who go to Canton get
scholarships which helps some but I’m
already upper middle class and I’m
fortunate enough to be able to afford to
just a space the cost itself of spaces
such as these can serve as another wall
in another closed-off safe space and
LGBT teens are already at a huge
disadvantage according to the Williams
Institute 40% of homeless youth identify
as LGBTQ and according to the Center for
Disease Control and Prevention LGBT
youth are almost five times as likely to
have attempted suicide that
heterosexually this just proves how
necessary affordable non exclusionary
safe spaces are if there are far too few
species like these don’t have to be
limited to specific summer camps or
organizations they can be created in
work placements places of worship or
schools much larger spaces that impact
even more people the reality of having
such marginalized identities is not one
that most of us face and to this I ask
you to think about the spaces you exist
in the first thing to keep in mind is
that the way we interact with other
people matters by actively thinking
about your word you’re actually helping
creating safe spaces this is especially
important in places that are already to
you the state many times when these
established bases exist people within
them think they can do or say whatever
they want like my music camp for example
a space specifically treated for a trans
and gender non-conforming people there
were still instances of exclusion when
others didn’t watch the language
next is key to acknowledge the
differences within our communities when
we ignore these subtle differences at
least in the homogeneous Asian large
groups of people and the aforementioned
exclusion now this is not to say that
all spaces must remain completely open
there’s no spaces that need to stay
closed off to stay safe for example if
there are spaces specifically created
for you people of color that aren’t open
to white people because those identities
face such different challenges this type
of use of thinking is important now more
than ever
there are rampant ideas of homophobia
transphobia Islamophobia every kind of
phobia imaginable people are scared
everyone is scared some are scared of
the differences in each other while
others are experiencing consequences of
those differences this fear is being
spread and everything in our society it
written espera president’s words it’s
rules across our news feeds it pops up
their Instagram Explorer page this fear
exists because of closed off safe spaces
it’s built around each other around our
lines closed doors closed walls these
bricks and walls don’t always have to be
a bad day the idea of that speaks the
safe spaces need to exist protective
they’re not exclusive there needs to be
a doorway an entrance for those with
marginalized identities not off for a
water break cubicle if we can crumble up
the water and cement break doorways into
the walls that keep ourselves in and
keep others out there’s hope for change
there’s hope for life without fear life
without constant
unlike without the nitty gritty feeling of dust between our fingertips
confidently along in my brown Twitter
accounts and yellow boxy t-shirt my
lightening can feed lunchbox swing from
right hand I took my place by the
doorway ready for us in future
undetermined aqua pin with lunchbox I
stepped into single-file solidarity
floating hair power pink lipgloss I
heard a voice speak up behind me you’re
in the wrong I turned around to turned
up nose right deep t-shirt her sequins
malaterre worried to walk with her the
voice line is over there
I followed her finger into the navy
green blue boys line and it didn’t seem
right to me I planted my feet as if for
defying sissy I stood my ground I stood
my ground because that was all I knew
how to do at that moment caught in
between maybe green blue pink sequin car
I didn’t know it at the time but in that
moment I existed in an invisible space I
was somewhere in the girls line that
wasn’t meant for girls
I was parallel to the boys line my arm
is perpendicular
I made that space mine I’d like to
imagine here people first shouted
realizing that there were others like
them it began to a brick stack and that
each person to join their ranks brought
a brick with them and send it on beside
the next and it was in this way brick by
brick by brick that the first date space
was built as the peer community
agreement of all so did lose a species
they grew and shrunk and merged and
factions began to form for example the
first pride unit was created by black
trans women at Stonewall in 1969 yet as
the finally got big
bigger became about cisgender white gay
madam a space originally created for the
most marginalized groups of people
became hold off and inaccessible this
exclusion has only been worse every time
in 2015 for example the still-moving
depicted a white game and run the first
cricket list of all diets every clear
person faces a different struggle some
groups more than others it was these
differences and experiences that first
to get to build these same species and
made the most necessary but the bricks
didn’t stop there and eventually the
walls were so tall as to cut some
marginalized groups out entirely
these additional walls tend to exclude
members of the safe space because of
different aspects in their identity in
my case I experienced this in both trans
and Jewish these two things sometimes
conflict one such instance took place
only a few months ago and I was invited
to my good friends Bar Mitzvah a sort of
Jewish coming-of-age ceremony his Bar
Mitzvah took place in a 12 foot pod
house which is a synagogue that calls an
Orthodox branch of Judaism when I walked
in his face in my bind up shirt and
slacks the first thing I noticed was the
screen divider placed next to the
doorway so the first thing you have to
do when you walk in is to decide to the
right was the men’s side a graciously
provided space in at least six pairs of
folding chairs and a table with kifo
which some unique benefits yarmulke and
tell me a shallow garment
Orthodoxy conservative Jews writing
services to the left was the one inside
maybe three and a half days of folding
chairs
crammed into the apartment I had to make
a choice in that incident so I went to
go and make me stick out less and
followed my mom and two sisters to the
small corner by the window once more
there was no place for me I was in a
space for Jewish people and I was
surrounded by other Jewish people thus
not part of my identity was
but I was still stuck between two sides
I was once more of course to make space
for myself hoping the exclusion of a
different part of my identity
build up bricks around myself this was
an experience where I was supposed to be
rejoicing in my friend celebration yet
all I could think about was my
discomfort and vulnerability this past
summer I decided that I wanted to start
wearing a kippah I wanted to try making
my religion outspoken and visible and
standing on things who are persecuted
because of their disability when I began
the experiment I wore it every day as
many more Orthodox or conservative Jews
do but I quickly realized that it would
be more emotionally challenging than I
thought it would be as I went about my
daily summer life I caught more than a
few stares on the train
and now I call people’s eyes to the top
of my head I attend attracted a lot more
attention than I thought I would
during the roughly 3 week period at
workiva I attended the music as I go to
every year which is a rock music camp in
Torrance Girls trans and gender
non-conforming people at this camp I
also received strange looks at her arms
towards Makeba people asked me why I was
wearing it what it was for and why I
started writing but what I hadn’t been
before most hadn’t seen someone like me
wearing people after those three weeks
25 I stopped wearing I wasn’t sick of
the looks as much as I was of the fear I
found myself constantly vigilant
constantly running for an anti-semitic
comment reading violence I found that a
few states that had previously felt
extraordinarily
could also feel exclusionary sometimes
in both instances of departments fun the
music camp I attended I felt excluded
whether because of my queerness or my
genius on there were walls built within
these state spaces walls with involves
making those spaces inaccessible to me
back in kindergarten I forged my bricks
and my confidence
I fired then in my head strong nature
cemented them and stubborn persistence I
stacked them into my three-foot four
eyes regarding the safety of my children
creation
it was here last summer that I realized
it wouldn’t always be possible for me to
build my own state space no matter which
line I used to stand in which seed I
chose to sit or if I did or didn’t
choose to wear a kippah
it was or so I thought the nature of
human beings in the spaces we create
however this exclusion is Nev equities
about six years ago I attended a summer
camp called camp Ave off for the first
time this place became a Jewish state
space a place where I could talk about
Judaism worship make friends and remain
true to all aspects of my identity
the Hebrew word how violence being and
camp chose this name to represent that
over the summer campers can’t really be
whoever they want we also have a mascot
of being Italian which is a play on
words how we be if a camper is doing
something out of line say being greeted
air touching someone’s stuff without
asking a counselor will ask is that how
we be is cheesy the camp had not only
these mommy values of kindness and
respect but also how to connect one of
the
the summer about Jewish values to the
outside world as I can they realized
that I don’t necessarily have to be
extraordinarily observant or even
observant at all to connect with
religion in meaningful way it was there
that I was taught that Judaism can
simply be a community to be a part of a
way to connect and it was there that I
decided that I truly wanted to be a Jew
because I’m hearing that Judaism didn’t
have to be exclusive towards trans
people there are also other
organizations that are specifically
geared towards LGBT Jews when I have
come across is called catch up which
means rainbow people they welcome Jews
from all walks of life and all branches
of Judaism both these organizations are
a huge step in creating a more inclusive
world but they are only the beginning in
Cuba is expensive and I along with
mostly people who go to Canton get
scholarships which helps some but I’m
already upper middle class and I’m
fortunate enough to be able to afford to
just a space the cost itself of spaces
such as these can serve as another wall
in another closed-off safe space and
LGBT teens are already at a huge
disadvantage according to the Williams
Institute 40% of homeless youth identify
as LGBTQ and according to the Center for
Disease Control and Prevention LGBT
youth are almost five times as likely to
have attempted suicide that
heterosexually this just proves how
necessary affordable non exclusionary
safe spaces are if there are far too few
species like these don’t have to be
limited to specific summer camps or
organizations they can be created in
work placements places of worship or
schools much larger spaces that impact
even more people the reality of having
such marginalized identities is not one
that most of us face and to this I ask
you to think about the spaces you exist
in the first thing to keep in mind is
that the way we interact with other
people matters by actively thinking
about your word you’re actually helping
creating safe spaces this is especially
important in places that are already to
you the state many times when these
established bases exist people within
them think they can do or say whatever
they want like my music camp for example
a space specifically treated for a trans
and gender non-conforming people there
were still instances of exclusion when
others didn’t watch the language
next is key to acknowledge the
differences within our communities when
we ignore these subtle differences at
least in the homogeneous Asian large
groups of people and the aforementioned
exclusion now this is not to say that
all spaces must remain completely open
there’s no spaces that need to stay
closed off to stay safe for example if
there are spaces specifically created
for you people of color that aren’t open
to white people because those identities
face such different challenges this type
of use of thinking is important now more
than ever
there are rampant ideas of homophobia
transphobia Islamophobia every kind of
phobia imaginable people are scared
everyone is scared some are scared of
the differences in each other while
others are experiencing consequences of
those differences this fear is being
spread and everything in our society it
written espera president’s words it’s
rules across our news feeds it pops up
their Instagram Explorer page this fear
exists because of closed off safe spaces
it’s built around each other around our
lines closed doors closed walls these
bricks and walls don’t always have to be
a bad day the idea of that speaks the
safe spaces need to exist protective
they’re not exclusive there needs to be
a doorway an entrance for those with
marginalized identities not off for a
water break cubicle if we can crumble up
the water and cement break doorways into
the walls that keep ourselves in and
keep others out there’s hope for change
there’s hope for life without fear life
without constant
unlike without the nitty gritty feeling of dust between our fingertips
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