From Ashes to Ink | Explorer

I do tend to get tattoos pretty much
when I’m either stressed out or making a
big change in my life they help relieve
a lot of stress for me there’s so many
different reasons for people to get
tattoos they’ve gotten tattoos too to
fit in or they’ve gotten tattoos because
they love the art it’s very popular to
get memorial tattoos
March 6 I got a phone call my mom she
called me Mariah and that’s my
government name you know there was a
really long pause she very just kind of
flat-out she said your father died last
night he got hit by a car I really just
didn’t know what to do is just the worst
thing that I could have ever heard in my
life he was the coolest guy that you
could ever
I mean seriously like I was his number
one fan he’s super rock and roll
me and my father definitely shared the
love of tattoos I remember when I first
got my artwork he went insane
he was just like baby that’s so awesome
like that’s such a killer tattoo and he
was just blown away by the artwork when
my mom made me the necklace with the
ashes inside of the vial I remember not
putting it around my neck for I want to
say months like I just had it up on my
dresser and I would stare at it the fact
that my dad was minced inside of this
little tiny bottle I just kind of was in
denial about just the whole thing
finally when I put that around my neck I
remember just a very overwhelming
sensation feeling that my father was
very much with me
that’s his ashes in a vial
this is now going to be in my skin how
much deeper can you really get
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I remember when he came to visit me for
about a week I want to say this was four
months before the accident he was
telling me that he wanted to design some
tattoos for me and I was like okay you
know like what’s it gonna be like you
know I’m singing a skull Scholl would
look really awesome on you and I’m like
dad like come on like no I’m not getting
a skull tattooed on me like that’s
stupid you know
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everybody asks you know does it hurt as
a painful it is painful as excruciating
but it’s tolerable
and I think that that actually kind of
resembles what life is you know it’s
excruciating it’s very painful but it’s
tolerable
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I don’t know what to expect as far as
how I’ll feel but I’m actually going to
see my dad like in my arm and I think
that he would do that for me too
I think you made it I think I’m loved
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it definitely feels different than any
of the other tattoos that I have if my
dad was here he would definitely say
this is bad something that was like his
favorite word
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