The Greatest Inspiration Ever – THE SECRET – Motivation Archive | Episode 2

I was trained as a scientist my
backgrounds in the hard sciences
physical sciences the Earth Sciences in
the 60s and 70s when I received that
training there was no no room for the
possibility of the kind of things that
we’re talking about now the kinds of
things that suggest that our inner world
and our inner thoughts feelings emotions
beliefs in any way affect the world
around us and it was through direct
experience what I began to understand
was that this is the great secret that
everyone knows except us in the West
almost any other culture that we go to
from the monasteries in Egypt and in
Tibet and India in the Bolivia and Peru
the indigenous traditions little
villages in the Andes Mountains they all
know that there is this experience that
we can have inside of our bodies that
affects our world in some way and our
science simply has not allowed for that
historically well I was trained as a
scientist and I was trained to look in
the world around me for my answer so I
began to go to these places I began to
go into the monasteries all the places
that I mentioned and it was through the
direct experience of sitting in the
presence of people who have lived and
practiced
the kinds of traditions Louise Hay and
the the other authors I’m so blessed to
be sharing this the stage in this
information with but they they teach
about and what we begin to understand is
that this is the place where science got
it wrong two places two assumptions but
science is made modern science and
they’re they’re coming full circle and
correcting that now but the first one is
that the space that we believe is empty
is not really so empty it’s full of a
living essence of a living material that
we’re only beginning to understand
number one and number two the fact and
there’s a fact now that we may have
experiences inside of our bodies that
influence the world beyond our bodies
through the conduit of what’s in this
space so it was in going into the
monasteries and the nunneries and
speaking with the indigenous people
looking at them I the I heart to heart
God the God
then I could say to these people when
you just perform that miracle when you
just perform that miraculous healing
what is it that we did inside of your
body to make that happen
and if I didn’t understand what they
told me I’ve asked them again and again
and again through the translators until
I understood that they were creating an
experience producing an effect inside of
their bodies that my science never told
me it was possible or existed and that
was the path that led me and I just want
to emphasize science is good and I
believe our science is good and served
us well it simply is incomplete and so
it was that path that allowed me to
flesh out the missing pieces that we’re
only beginning to understand the day
marrying the best science of our time
with the wisdom 5,000 years of wisdom of
our past into a greater understanding
and that understanding brings us right
back to the question that’s a long
answer to a short question but it’s it’s
it brings us back to where we were only
now beginning understand that there is
something that we can do in our lives
the influence not only the physical body
ours and those other people around us
but but literally influence the physical
reality of our world and that changes
everything it changes everything that we
in the West believe about ourselves so
as a scientist I’ve also come to
understand this is a very different way
for many people to think about
themselves in their world
and and I found that there is a there’s
a learning curve that our audiences and
our friends and families and co-workers
in my career at the water found this is
not something that people typically talk
about in a technical organization they
don’t wake up in the morning and say
what kinds of feelings what kinds of
dreams what kinds of healings did you
have over the weekend and they’re
talking about who won the football game
and who won the lotteries but this is
this is where it brings us the relevance
in our lives because we all are having
experiences every day whether we are
consciously aware of it or not those
experiences are physically affecting our
bodies
but Western science now is beginning to
understand only in the last years of the
20th and now the first years of the 21st
century it is now a scientific fact that
the the space between things is anything
but empty it is full of a living
pulsating essence that is so new
scientists have yet to agree on a single
term some are calling it a quantum
hologram very technical sounding name
dr. Edgar Mitchell the form of Apollo
astronaut I’ve had the honor of sharing
the stage with him a number of times he
calls it nature’s mind Stephen Hawking
calls it the mind of God others simply
call it the field in 1944 the father of
quantum physics Max Planck identified
the existence of this field and he
called it the matrix
he said underlying everything that we
see our bodies included everything we
see in the world around us in our bodies
he said there is the existence of what
must be a conscious and intelligent mind
this is his language in 1944 he said
that this mind is the matrix of all
matter and it’s from his work that the
movie series began and and many of the
ideas that we have today so what we know
is this is that we have the opportunity
to influence that field in ways now that
we’re only beginning understand it’s
done through the human heart it’s not a
thinking process thoughts are important
the ancients made a distinction between
thoughts and feelings and emotions and
it’s the feelings that are centered in
our heart what are called coherent heart
based emotions we know that when we feel
a feeling of love compassion
understanding forgiveness we change the
self esteem that there is an effect from
that that change is the electrical in
the magnetic fields in our heart and
that those fields literally change the
stuff that our world is made of around
our bodies our hearts are the strongest
magnetic field in our bodies and our
hearts are the strongest electrical
field in our bodies much more so than
the brain while the brain does create
those kinds of fields the heart is many
times stronger and what the science now
is showing is that when you can change
the
filled that the atom is in you change
the atom and we’re made of those atoms
so we have feelings in our hearts we’re
changing the field that connects the
stuff everything is made of and we
literally are altering our physical
reality in ways that sound miraculous in
Western science but again this is the
great secret everyone knows except us
because Western science has only arrived
at this understanding you go to these
ancient and indigenous traditions of
cultures it’s where they begin they
begin with the understanding sure
everything’s connected and sure we’re
part of it and then they take a swing
step further and they say here I’ll show
you I’ll show you how to create the
effects in your body so that you can
that you can heal your body and you can
heal the bodies of others you can change
your self-esteem and your body will
mirror that change it doesn’t have to be
a long slow drawn-out process it can
happen very very quickly it can happen
in a matter of minutes we have we have
video documentation from medicine less
hospitals in Beijing China for example
where they understand these practices
and they’ve employed them for for
several thousand years and we can look
into the body of a living woman with a
cancerous tumor that Western science
says is inoperable and then we can watch
is three practitioners that understand
the language of human emotion they
create the feeling in their bodies
they’re not looking at that tumor is an
illness they see that woman is whole
healthy vital completely enabled fully
capacitated and as they feel that
feeling strongly among themselves her
physical body mirrors that and we can
see it through sonograms we can see that
tumor disappear in less than three
minutes and that’s how quickly reality
can change and this is where the
disconnect comes in with Western science
as I’ve shared this information with
scientists and medical doctors all over
the world and they say wow that’s a
miracle we’re gonna have to come back
and study this and we will as soon as we
find a cure for cancer or as soon as we
we find the cure to cure on the
mechanical level what they see as a
mechanical process and what we now know
is is our physical body is the out
picturing
is is the mirror of something that is
not so physical and this is this is
where science now is is only arriving
the three practitioners in the medicine
list hospital in Beijing did not judge
that cancerous tumour they didn’t judge
it right wrong good or bad they said
it’s a quantum possibility and there are
many possibilities of course this is
just one they said now we’re going to
choose another one it’s subtle and very
very different way of looking at things
because they acknowledge what is and
invite a new possibility
rather than having a charge on what is
there and feeling that somehow we have
to manipulate or cut out in the case of
a tumour or change the hammer the
physical reality in the submission what
they’re doing is acknowledging that that
moment that example and they’re changing
it on the level of what we call the
quantum blueprint they’re feeling the
feeling as if another possibility has
has occurred and in doing so allowing
that possibility to replace the one that
exists without judging the one that
exists I worked I was an aerospace
engineer in Denver Colorado during the
last years of the Cold War the 1980s and
it was when the famous brown cloud was
inundated Denver and we couldn’t all
drive on the same days we had to carpool
on different days and one day I went to
an engineer friend’s house to do my
carpool for that week and I got there a
little early and I never been to his
house before and I said can I use your
bathroom and I went in there and he had
a little post-it notes of affirmations
all over the bathroom they said my
perfect mate is manifesting for me now
my perfect mate is manifesting for me
now we got in his car and he had little
post-it notes all over the dashboard the
rearview mirror my perfect mate is
manifesting for me now and of course I
knew what his office looked like and it
was the same way had them all over the
walls in the CRT I said this affirmation
work for you he said nah he said he said
never does and I said why do you think
that is he said well well look at me
who’d want to be with somebody like me
I’m just an engineer you know he had a
very low self esteem about himself and I
began to think about the way that he was
applying he was after me
and other people have applied them very
successfully and what I found the
difference was for him it was it was a
thought process that never went beyond
what was happening in his mind in his
own picturing his own self-esteem in the
thought is important the ancients are
very clear about this in the Sanskrit
text they tell us that the thought is
the image of the quantum possibility so
in other words in in the realm of all
possibilities everything already exists
my friends perfect relationship and the
worst one he’ll ever have the lightest
of the light the darkest of the dark are
our greatest healing and our greatest
suffering they’re already there and what
they invite us to do in these ancient
traditions is to reach into those
possibilities with our mind this is the
power of the mind in isolate we lock in
one of those possibilities so now we
have taken it and identified it however
to bring it into this world to breathe
life into that possibility is the power
of human emotion our love for that
possibility or our fear of that
possibility either one will work to
bring about quantum possibility into the
particle reality of our everyday lives
we don’t have to know that sounds very
technical we just have a feeling but
this is the science of appears to be the
science of how these things are working
so this is why our self-esteem is so
important when we feel my engineer
friend felt that why would anybody want
to be with me as was what he said to me
the affirmation for him was an empty
affirmation it was a thought that had no
energy took two invited into this world
and and an example of just the opposite
of that is I know of other people who
have simply made a list of all of the
attributes of a perfect partner in life
because this is what many people I’m
using as an example it works in healing
it works in peace but we’re talking
about relationships and making a list of
all those attributes and then then they
come from the place that that
relationship is already
but what what is their life like how is
their life different now that that
perfect partner is there how is their
evening different how do they spend
their time differently how they feel
when they wake up in the morning and
share their lives with someone and it’s
those feelings that they live throughout
the day it’s not something you sit down
and do for a minute then you get up and
walk away
rather it’s something that we become we
live our lives as if these experiences
have already happened in that way we
invite them into our lives and they
happen frightening ly quickly for some
people it’s amazing I know people that
haven’t finished their list and they go
out for lunch or a cup of coffee while
they’re making the list and the person
that just brought in their lunch is the
person that’s on that list and they fall
in love and they’re married and they’re
married 20 years later I know people
that’s happened to so it’s about clarity
it’s about specificity it’s about being
personal being very clear that these are
personal desires scientifically it
appears that this field the divine
matrix it is a mirror and a bridge
between our inner and our outer worlds
and it can only give us what we give it
to work with and the interesting thing
is that we have been conditioned to feel
the feelings of the things that we don’t
want in life and that we’re afraid of we
wake up in the morning and we see the
six o’clock news and all the things to
be afraid of and then we go through our
day saying oh I hope I’m not going to
see that today or I hope it’s not around
the corner and in my question so fast me
where do we learn to feel the things
that we don’t want rather than things
that we choose to have and how would our
lives be different if we if we can cut
through all of all of the of the static
and simply choose in our lives what we
would like each moment of each day or
our relationships or our abundance or
our careers or the peace in our families
to look like what would our what would
our lives look like if we can do that
and there’s very good very good
scientific evidence showing precisely
what our lives would look like because
because we would very quickly experience
everything we’ve created
as a scientist one of the first things I
had to understand and again my training
I was trained in the hard sciences and
there was no allowance for any inner
experience to have have an effect on or
out of the world to begin with number
two I was raised in a relatively
conservative community in the Midwest I
was born in Missouri Kansas City
Missouri excuse me in that part of the
world when you talk about emotions they
kind of get lumped into this nebulous
experience all your thoughts feelings
emotions are all the same thing we
really don’t talk about them much and by
the way as a male we don’t want to see
much of yours so that was that was my
upbringing so I began to understand when
we go into the other cultures and I am
referring again and again to this wisdom
we had this wisdom in Western cultures
it was lost in the fourth century about
1700 years ago was edited right out of
our most cherished spiritual religious
traditions the biblical edits of the
fourth century it was not edited from
the other cultures that we have visited
and that’s the value of going into these
cultures and they identify three
separate yet related experiences that we
all have in our bodies and they
literally call them thought feeling and
emotion and here’s the difference the
thinking they identify with the three
upper energy centers of the body the
Sanskrit traditions have a seven energy
center seven chakra system that they
work with and they say the upper three
are related what we call thought or
logic processes so when we think about
something we picture it in our mind that
perfect relationship or peace between
nations but we can only invite it into
our lives when we breathe the power of
emotion into that thought the emotion
comes from the lower three or those
creative centers in our bodies so when
we breathe the power of emotion nor I
thought we imbue that five with life and
those two energies meet in the one
center that is not accounted for you and
our model it’s in our heart or what’s
signed is called the seven layered
liquid crystal oscillator in the center
of our chest but we’ll just call it our
heart because that’s what it does our
heart is creating electrical and
magnetic
waves that are influencing the world
around us based on what we think and the
emotion that we breathe into those
thoughts to create the feeling so now
we’ve just defined feeling feeling by
definition from the Sanskrit tradition
is the union of thought and emotion it
creates the feeling and what makes us
really interesting is that those
traditions say we are capable of only
two primary emotions love and whatever
we feel the opposite of love is and when
you get really deep into the teachings
there are two aspects of the same thing
but what they say is we have our thought
we are either breathing the love of that
thought or our fear of that thought to
create the feeling in the feeling then
becomes sadness or joy or compassion or
anger those are not emotions those are
feelings now for some people they say
well you know it’s it’s an you’re
nitpicking what difference could it make
and these are the subtle differences
between these these ancient ways of
viewing this inner technology it’s
literally a technology because we could
have the same thought or the same
affirmation and imbue it with a
different emotion and have completely
different feelings include the different
a different outcome and this is the
great secret that was edited out of our
Christian and pre-christian
judeo-christian traditions when 45 books
removed in the 4th century 20 were taken
out completely another 25 were condensed
and rearranged and we know this because
we found the information now in the Dead
Sea Scrolls the naga hamadi library the
Coptic the Gnostic texts so we know what
those texts would have said if if we had
had them but the interesting thing is
without those texts we we tend to rely
upon the written word the validation to
feel that power in our bodies I think
everyone senses or suspects there’s an
untapped potential in the human body
I’ve been on every continent of the
earth and I’ve asked every every
audience I’ve ever been in do you feel
that that’s there and they say yes we
feel there’s something there but but we
just can’t quite get it
is that so we have a feeling that
there’s more to us but we rely on a
written validation in a 5,000 year old
text or a scientific study to tell us
that it’s true and this is I think that
the value of going into those texts as
we get to see the words that literally
say in the Gospel of Thomas the Lost
Gospel of Thomas it literally says when
these two become one when thought any
motion become one then you’ll say to the
mountain move in the mountain will move
and I used to think that that was a
metaphor and I now have seen enough to
know that moving a cancerous tumor
inside the body of a living woman that’s
moving a mountain to me and and it’s all
done from marrying thought and emotion
together 1998 I had my my first journey
into the highlands of central China and
Tibet and it was during that time we
were given a personal audience with an
abbot who was an elderly leader of a
particular sect in the monastery in this
Abbot passed just a couple of years ago
so I’m glad that we spoke with him when
we did and it was this man I asked the
question that I asked every monk every
nun I asked the shaman in Peru and
Bolivia but I had the clearest response
from this man and I asked me a question
I said when we see her prayers on the
outside and we see you in the in the
chanting hall for 12 16 18 hours a day
and we see the bells and the bowls and
the moochers and the mantras and the
gongs and the chimes in the incense when
we see her prayers on the outside I said
what are you doing on the inside and
this was the man who looked at me he
said you’ve never seen our prayers
because a prayer cannot be seen he said
what you see are the things we do to
create the feeling in our body and the
feeling is the prayer and then he turned
the question on me and he said how do
you do this in your culture through a
translator and I began to think about
this and realize that when we lost the
words in our most cherished spiritual
traditions that tell us that feeling is
a language it speaks to our bodies in
this world and we lost the words
that validated that we began to think
that the words themselves were the
prayers and if we say or the
affirmations and if we say those words
the right number of times the right time
of day or the right time of year that
we’ve set our prayer or our affirmation
and then if it doesn’t work we get
frustrated and we say well my prayer
didn’t work or my affirmations not
working for me
because we lost the link with feeling
and emotion when I was in the
monasteries in Tibet and the abbot had
passed a new Abbot took his place who
was already in his mid-80s he’s the new
young Abbot he’s already has mid-80s and
I asked him the question this was in
2005 we just went back and I asked him a
question and I said I said what is the
force in your tradition in your belief
system what is the force that connects
the universe what’s the force that holds
everything together and through the
translator he answered me was one word
and I thought I heard it incorrectly I
said would you do that again and he came
back and he answered me with one word
and he said compassion and I said well
wait a minute I says compassion a force
that holds everything together or is it
the feeling that we experience in our
bodies and he said yes and that was very
powerful for me to understand that
because it says that we have the ability
to feel in our bodies the stuff that
holds this universe together and we’re
really not so different from those
quantum particles in the Stars beyond us
or in the tumor that’s in front of us in
the suffering of our loved ones or in
the peace between the nations it’s all
part of the same thing the challenge is
to make it more than an intellectual
exercise how do we know were part of all
that is one of the ways that helped me
come to that realization there was an
experiment that was done in 1997 in
Geneva Switzerland made world headlines
3,500 reporters from the science
journals were there they they documented
this experiment and it didn’t didn’t
make the cover of Time magazine or USA
Today although I think it should have
and what the experiment showed the
bottom line was that when you take the
stuff our world is made of a particle of
matter
one particle and even if you split that
particle and send each portion to
different locations which is what this
experiment did they have a split one
particle of matter and sent one particle
seven miles this direction the other
seven miles that direction there were
fourteen miles apart and even though
they were separated physically they were
still connected energetically so that
one one particle had an experience they
would disturb one particle the other one
acted like it was having the experience
sometimes the other one would act like
it was having the experience before the
scientists even disturbed the first
particle and it’s mind-boggling said
well well how can this be but what this
tells us is that once matter is
physically joined even when it becomes
separated the energy is still there
that’s connecting it and this is why
it’s important to me because we go back
far enough in time all the particles of
matter of this entire universe that are
expanding were all meshed together in a
single particle about the size of a
green pea that’s what scientists tell us
today is what the computer model
suggests if you could go into the
universe today and take all the
particles of matter and take out all the
space in between and bring it together
and compress it into the size of a
single green pea it means that you and
me and every one of our listeners we
were all once part of that same particle
that creates this whole universe today
and even though those particles are now
separate and expanding and studies show
that they are energetically we’re all
still linked when we lost the
information telling us we’re a part of
all that we see we found ourselves in a
very technological path without the
wisdom of us being in the equation so we
thought that’s the world out there and
that we’re separate from that world now
what’s happened is our technology has
come so far that our very existence is
threatened by the technology that we’ve
developed whether it’s the wars or the
viruses or the climate change so so I
believe we’ve come full circle now to
survive our time in history we’ve got to
write ourselves back into the equation
our prayers our affirmations
beliefs are a language and when they’re
spoken through the language of the heart
they have a direct powerful and
immediate impact on our bodies in the
world around us and it invites us to be
very very aware of what it is that we
truly hold in our hearts as is the truth
of our world because we live that in our
lives from the lightest of the light to
the darkest of the dark the greatest
fears and the greatest joys
what we’re beginning understand is that
human emotion and feeling and belief is
literally a language it’s a nonverbal
language that this field recognizes and
understands and the field works in what
we call real time it doesn’t know about
a few minutes from now so if you say if
you say in your affirmation 20 minutes
from now I’d like for my perfect mate to
manifest for me now it doesn’t know
about 20 minutes from now it is a
real-time application and this is why
the big key this is what the ancients
say and this is what the monks and the
nuns tell us real time today they say to
be very specific about what it is that
we’re choosing to have in our lives
because what we’re doing it helps if we
understand this what we’re doing is in
the world of quantum possibility the
soup the nebulous soup of all
possibilities what we’re doing is we’re
isolating we’re locking one in the place
that we’re not specific about what that
possibility is then how can the field be
specific about what it is that it gives
to us whatever it takes to get us to the
point where we can transcend the limits
the laws of physics and biology as we’ve
known them in the past we have a power
within us that transcends those laws
that were more than our mistakes that
were more than the suffering were more
than the limits of
in the past and that is where I said wow
that really inspires me seems like the
intentions that we have even when we’re
one year two years three and four years
old all get played out in the end as our
life evolves and they get played out in
ways that we often don’t understand it
lets you have a good memory of what you
wanted when you were three or four you
often don’t remember that those what you
were asking for then you now have and
I’ve watched my life evolved to
everything I’ve ever wanted has it’s
happening you know it has happened along
the way in it and it is happening and I
I guess the reason I think it’s
important for people to know that I like
people that I really want people to know
that there’s nothing that they can’t be
a do or have and and that there’s
nothing that can’t change to or from if
they want to know once no one’s locked
in anywhere and also those so-called
dreams or daydreams you had when you
were really little of the beautiful
wonderful things you wanted to be or do
or or do for the world and so on and so
forth they all come true and but they
don’t know it necessarily come true in
the way you may have envisioned them but
if you look back you’ll say well that’s
the essence of everything I ever wanted
it’s here or everything I was ever
afraid of it’s also here Esther how
about you bringing Abraham in and let
Abraham visit for a few minutes here it
just takes her a moment Esther just kind
of relaxes her mind and actually you’re
gonna see it she just kind of relaxes
and nothing major happens it’s just she
she just allows this other energy more
or less to move through her
it is nice to have an opportunity to
visit well it is the single most
important thing that you consciously do
because the thought that you are
thinking a belief is just a thought you
keep thinking isn’t it
so the thought that you are thinking is
vibrational in nature and therefore
attractive in nature so if you have a
habit of thought a belief which is
therefore a dominant thought which is
therefore a big part of your vibrational
offering therefore it is a big part of
your point of Attraction so when you
care enough to take the time to change
it from what you are terming negative to
positive
you have shifted your point of
Attraction nothing is more important
than understanding that we would like to
help you to remember that you are more
than you see here in this physical body
and that that larger part of you is
always eternally offering a powerful
vantage point and vibration when you
come forth into your physical body a
part of that consciousness flows into
this personality that you know as you so
at all times when you are in your
physical form you have the potential of
offering a thought that causes alignment
with that broader part of you or not and
we would say the thoughts that you offer
that are in vibrational harmony or
alignment with that larger part of you
would be that state of integrity that
you are looking for coming together with
that broader part of me it’s also
important to remember that that larger
part of you that eternal part of you
exists even while you are in your
physical form in other words often
people think well you are dead or alive
you are physical or non-physical but you
are eternally that non-physical source
energy and then you are sometimes this
physical human energy
and those two points of vibrations that
eternal part that is pure positive
energy and that physical part that could
be as you say negative or could be as
you say positive in any moment
those vibrational vantage points are
always playing off of one another the
better you feel the more you are
vibrationally in integrity to that which
you are vibrational integrity is
alignment with that which I am so
reaching for good feeling false is
really the key to coming into alignment
with that which you are and we think
that’s the best description of integrity
that could be your feelings are the way
you quantify your journey from sickness
to wellness the way you feel is the way
you quantify your journey from not
enough money to enough money you must
have a way of understanding where you
are in relationship to what you want and
because more than 99% of every creation
is completed vibrationally before you
see any physical evidence you can’t use
the physical evidence to know if you
have an illness and you want to be well
you may have found many thoughts that
have improved your point of Attraction
and you may be vibrationally well along
the way to your recovery but because the
physical manifestation has not yet shown
itself if you stop and take score of
where you are physically you may very
well become upset because the tests do
not give you the affirming confirmation
that you are on your way to wellness
where if you understand that your
emotions are giving you that feedback
then even though the manifestation has
not shown you your recovery the fact
that you feel so much better is your
indication that you are moving in the
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affection and if you continue to move in
the right direction your recovery must
be as Jerry and Esther travel from
Phoenix to San Diego they never get out
there in the desert halfway and become
so frustrated that they are not yet in
San Diego that they become disoriented
and turn around and go back to Phoenix
it would be very long journey wouldn’t
it Phoenix Yuma Phoenix you’ll in
Phoenix Yuma and the reason that doesn’t
happen is because they understand where
they are in relationship to where they
want to be your emotions are the only
way you can accurately understand where
you are in relationship to where you
want to be once you get that down and
you do as Joseph Campbell said you learn
to follow your bliss now you always have
guidance you are eternal beings and your
journey never ends and you’ve
deliberately come forth into this
physical time-space reality because you
understood that the contrast would
inspire you to new ideas and you knew
that the new ideas would cause an
eternal journey to unfold you didn’t say
I will find an idea and I will go to it
and complete it and be done you said I
will put myself in a position where my
life inspires continuing new ideas so
that my journey eternally continues so
your journey really is of your creation
but of course you had clear intentions
when you came forth into this physical
body you intended for this journey to be
satisfying and exhilarating and fun you
intended for it to be uplifting for you
and for others but you never planned to
get it done we like to say to our
physical friends when you plan a
vacation you know that you are at home
you begin and you will go to this city
and this city and the city and the city
and eventually you come back round to
home again and you never say Oh
my final destination is home and I’m
already there so why call I’ve already
completed this vacation I will check it
off my list and the reason you don’t say
that is because you don’t take your
vacation to get it done you take it for
the fun along the way for the uplifting
things that occur for the people that
you interact with for the stimulation of
thought you take your vacation for the
joy of the journey and that really is
what you intended as you came forth into
this experience to be stimulated by
variety to ideas of the kind of things
you would like but it isn’t the
destination that is what it is all about
the destination is just the reason for
the journey the journey is what like the
answers affirmations and visualizations
are a wonderful part of the creative
process we like to describe the creative
process as a three-step process and most
people don’t initially see it quite this
way but once you get a sense of this
your creations come into place often
much more quickly step 1 is where you
ask for what you want
it’s where the contrast helps you to
define what it is you want and of course
you always know more clearly what you do
want when you are aware of what you
don’t want so the variety is very
helpful in that contrasting experience
these Rockets of desires literally shoot
forth from you step 2 is source answers
your request so step one happens without
you needing to worry about it or work on
it because life just provides enough
variety that desires are naturally born
from you and source follows that rocket
of desire and literally becomes its in
other words we’ve written a book called
askin it is given and we think it is the
best title that ever could be given to a
book because it speaks of the whole
process within the title when life
causes you to ask
it is given but what happens is you’re
asking often from your place of knowing
more clearly what you don’t want so even
though source knows what you want and
becomes a vibrational match to it and
calls you incessantly toward it if you
are not a vibrational match to what you
are asking for you can’t let it in you
don’t allow it you see so step three of
the process is you must be a vibrational
match to your desire in simpler terms
you can’t feel the need for money and
the discomfort of lack of money and let
the money in it’s a different vibration
if you feel poor you can’t become
prosperous even though you’re asking for
prosperity and even though source has
lined it up for you you have to be a
vibrational match to what you’re asking
for and that’s why it is so important
that you pay attention to the way you
feel and you keep reaching for improved
feelings of relief so that you can by
reaching for better feelings coach
yourself into vibrational alignment with
the very things that you are asking for
so affirmations or visualizations are
really the way that you apply step 3
most people think that they are step one
they think that the affirmation or the
visualization is how I ask the universe
for what I what I want but you have
already asked the universe for what you
want through the living of life through
the feeling of contrast through the
launching of the Rockets and desires and
source is already answered but you want
the solutions to your problems have
already been given the answers to your
questions
have already been given but you must
find a way to make yourself to them and
so when you speak an affirmation when
you say it is my desire to achieve this
and I see myself already having achieved
it even though at first when you speak
the affirmation you may not believe it
in time as you speak it you come into
the allowing
and of course there are many people
speaking affirmations who are not
receiving what they are speaking because
they’re using words and wanting the
words to make itself but the universe
does not respond to your words the
universe responds to your vibration and
your emotions indicate what your
vibration is so if we were standing in
your physical shoes we would use
affirmations to talk ourselves in to
better and better and better feeling
places so you are using your
affirmations just to call you a little
bit further from where you are to where
you want to be building your own bridges
so to speak creation is such a wonderful
thing and being a deliberate creator is
just as good as it gets
of course everyone is thinking and
therefore offering vibration and
therefore attracting but many people are
offering most of their vibration in
response to what they’re observing so as
they observe what is they get more of it
as you decide that you want to be a
deliberate creator you begin to more
deliberately think about what you want
and why you want it and it’s interesting
that you can only think about what you
want from where you currently stand
that’s why you are an eternal creator so
from where you stand
the contrast provides clarity about what
you think you want from where you now
stand so you set forth your intentions
from where you stand it’s all you can do
but then you stand in a new place the
most wonderful thing about this journey
of creation is that as you want
something that you don’t have and then
you think about it and you speak about
it and you visualize around it and you
find the feeling place of it until you
become a vibrational match to it then
you receive it and along with that
manifestation comes a whole nother set
of ryut
that of course causes you to now know
more clearly from where you stand what
you now want and so no one can ever
stand in one place and figure out what
they’re going to want forevermore it is
a constant amending process so what you
do is you appreciate what is right now
while from your now perspective you
continue to amend your decisions about
what you now want and this prolific
universe this abundant universe you have
at your fingertips the energy that
creates worlds there is nothing that you
cannot be or do or have but you can
never figure out what you will always be
or always have or always do from any one
place it will constantly evolve that’s
why this journey is so delicious as you
are living life which inspires within
you a desire and then you take the time
to feel your way into vibrational
alignment with your desires only then
will that desire be allowed by you into
your experience
so once you’ve allowed it then if you’ll
see others who have not yet figured out
how to allow it you may realize that you
can help them by teaching through the
clarity of your example that
appreciation and feeling good is what
puts you in the place of allowing good
things to come to you but if you should
see them and then feel bad that they
have not yet allowed it now you have
changed your energy and now you are no
longer a vibrational match to what you
had allowed either so feeling bad for
others who have not figured it out only
causes you to release it from your
experience also it also is a shortage
orientation to say that person does not
have something because I have in other
words there is not a finite amount of
abundance and if you receive it you are
depriving someone else of it in fact the
opposite is true when you let the
contrast
everyone has surrounding them provide
you with an idea of what you want and
then you line up with the idea so that
you are in vibrational integrity with
this idea or desire now it must be
realized by you and that is such a
wonderful example to offer for others
but if you believe that there is only so
much to go around and you are getting it
first of all you could not let yourself
receive it under those conditions you
say you must know that there is enough
for everyone and those who are not
allowing it into their experience are
not being deprived of it because someone
else did allow it into their experience
you would never say I have been well for
the last 20 or 30 or 40 or 50 or 60 or
70 years and I am so well and those
people over there are sick I think I
will be sick for a few years to allow
some of those sick people to be well you
don’t look at it that way because you
know you’re not using up the wellness
and depriving them of it and you are not
using up the abundance and depriving
them of that either a car that’s going a
hundred miles an hour and hits a tree
it’s a bigger problem than a car that’s
going five miles an hour and hits a tree
so what happens in this analogy what we
are saying to you is your desires are
what equal the speed or the momentum of
this journey and the tree in this
analogy is like the resistance that
shows up many people believe that when
they start bumping up against those
obstacles that they should pull back on
their desire but we want you to
understand that you cannot pull back on
your desire you can’t slow that down you
can’t become less than life has caused
you to become so the work must be
releasing the resistance so it’s a
wonderful thing when you bump up against
something that feels uncomfortable
because it’s this opportunity to now
feel the discomfort of it and work it
into a place of greater comfort that’s
how you get rid of those obstacles
that’s how you let yourself flow in the
way that you want you suggest pushing
through obstacles
we suggest relaxing when you bump up
against an obstacle and reaching for a
feeling of relief and reaching for a
feeling of relief is not exactly pushing
through the obstacle it’s causing the
obstacle to morph it it causes the
obstacle to reduce the source energy
within you the being that you truly are
this expanding evolving being adores you
and when you find fault with yourself
you create resistance the source within
you who you really are loves others when
you find something within them that
causes you to hate them or to not love
them you create resistance so when you
are looking for reasons to appreciate or
looking for reasons to love you’re
actually coming into alignment with who
you really are and you will never be
joyful in any moment you will never feel
good in any moment you will never
fulfill your reason for being in any
moment you will never be who you really
are unless you are in that state of love
loving is who you are you say anything
less is resistance to who you are
sometimes especially when you are little
someone who appreciates you holds you as
their object of attention and when they
do it feels so good because they’re
tapped into Source Energy they’re
holding you as their object of attention
and they’re flooding that wonderful
feeling all over you so then you say oh
this feels so good and then you say I
would like you to hold me as your object
of attention a lot and I will do
whatever it takes so that you will feel
this way about me but of course as that
little person you didn’t realize that
first of all they cannot hold you as
their constant object of attention
it’s asking a lot to ask them to always
be connected to source when they do it
they might be having a bad moment and
when they hold you as their object of
attention when they’re having a bad
moment you don’t feel their love
flooding all over you because they’re
not connected to it and they’re not
flooding it all over you so over this
process of looking to other people to
find out how you feel about yourself
many times you come around and not
feeling very good about yourself because
you’ve been looking for love in all the
wrong places you’ve been looking to them
to love you when sometimes they don’t
have it to give they want to love you
but they’re having a hard day you can’t
jump from the vibration of not liking
yourself to the vibration of loving
yourself all at once any more than you
can set your radio dial on 6:30 a.m. and
hear what’s being broadcast from 98.7 fm
the frequencies don’t map jump so we
would say that the best way to come from
loving oneself we’re going to take an
extreme to loving oneself is to find
relief from the lolly because loving is
too big of a jump so we would begin
looking for things that aren’t so bad
about ourselves I don’t love this about
myself I don’t love that I don’t
actually hate that about me I do pretty
good about that in other words we would
reach for the best feeling that we could
find until we found the feeling of I’m
hoping one day to really like myself I’m
hoping one day to know myself as others
seem to say that I am I’m hoping one day
to come into vibrational alignment with
who I really am
once you reach the place and hoping to
like yourself it’s pretty easy to get
over there by looking for things to
appreciate so we’ve noticed that most
people who have practiced not liking
themselves very much for a long time can
find an easier way of loving themselves
as they just begin practicing loving and
appreciating things that are easy for
them to love and appreciate and once
they get in the habit of
doing that then it’s easier to turn that
lens on themselves and sometimes it’s a
little shocking when you’ve practiced
not loving yourself for a while but when
you’ve practiced loving a whole lot of
other things and then you try to love
yourself a little bit you can the
contrast that you so often think you
would like to do without is so necessary
for the expansion of the idea and for
the further becoming of that which is
you and what makes human experience
uncomfortable is that the contrast
causes you to expand the larger part of
you takes the expansion but you don’t
keep up with it because you keep beating
the drum of the contrast in other words
let’s say life causes you to know that
you don’t want to be sick in other words
something happens and you are sick in
your sickness you radiate Rockets of
desires for more wellness and the
non-physical part of you now becomes
more well than you have ever been but if
you keep feeding the drama I don’t feel
good or I am declining then even though
your potential for wellness is now
greater than it has ever been as you
keep focusing upon the illness and using
it as your justification for why you
want to be well you hold yourself apart
from the very thing that life has caused
you to expand toward you say let’s say
that you don’t have enough money and in
the discomfort of not having enough
money you ask for more money even if you
do not offer words about it you are
vibrationally asking you cannot know
what you do not want without knowing
what you do want the source energy part
of you embraces that knowing of what you
do want and becomes it completely but if
you keep beating the drum of not having
enough money complaining about not
having enough money irritated with those
who seem to have plenty of money then
you hold yourself in vibrational discord
not only with the money you hold
yourself in vibrational discord to the
expanded part of you who is living that
greater prosperity you see
it’s the separation between you and you
that causes your discord not what anyone
else is doing words really don’t teach
life experience is the true teacher and
so you teach through the clarity of your
own example offer your evidence of joy
look for reasons to feel good and then
feel good don’t pretend that you feel
good when you don’t look for reasons to
feel good and feel good and when you
don’t feel good don’t pretend that you
do instead make it clear to anyone who’s
asking I’m not feeling very good and I
know what to do about it I’m going to
reach for better feeling thoughts and to
our until I do feel good in other words
be real being real is the best way to
teach being real and being in earnest
about feeling good being determined to
come into alignment with who you are
make a decision that you want to express
as often as you can
the wholeness of who you are to whoever
you’re interacting with which means get
tuned in tapped in turned on bring
yourself into alignment and then play
with people don’t move into a meeting if
you’re not in alignment get into
alignment and then move into a meeting
don’t have an argument and then try to
make it better within the argument get
off to yourself and get feeling better
tune into who you are and then in your
state of alignment co-create with others
if you are looking for a way to tune in
to the vibration of who you really are
meditation is a wonderful way of going
about it because when you quiet your
mind you release thoughts and when you
release thoughts you release resistance
appreciation is a wonderful way to come
into alignment because when you are
looking for something to appreciate you
are deliberately trying to see it
through the eyes of that which you truly
are when you get out into nature
it serves you in a similar way because
in nature there is no resistance in
other words that plant that you are
beholding is in alignment with the
vibrational nature of its being it’s not
thinking thoughts that have it out of
alignment the beasts of the wild are for
the most part in alignment with who they
are your domesticated beasts in time to
begin to act a little bit like you do
but when you get out into nature in your
observation of it you’re observing
alignment that’s why it feels good I was
in a motel in Montana I was doing
concerts out there and there on a coffee
table in the motel the motel was a a
book is that they can grow rich it
wouldn’t apollyon Hill it was Napoleon
Hills book Think and Grow Rich and I
looked at that I picked it up and I was
just I was like hair stood up all over
my body I just I’ve never read anything
like a few pages in and I asked the
motel owner I said can I take this back
to my room and read he said you can have
it he says I’m not interested in it and
so and then after I read that book I
thought these wonderful principles of
success and I asked a for him later I’ve
just you know a flake of I said what was
it about that book that that turned my
life around I thought I thought was the
principles of what he was teaching of
how to become successful and Abraham
says what it was is his principles made
you believe you could do it and all it
changed in you wasn’t the processes that
you learned from the book but the fact
that you believe now that you could
succeed at making money I was 24 years
old and I would say that everything that
could possibly be wrong with my life was
wrong I was
I weighed 120 pounds
now and I smoked two or three packs of
cigarettes a day and I was in a terrible
relationship and I had a job I hated and
so there I couldn’t think of much oh I
didn’t like my car either so I think
just about everything was wrong I always
struggled with obesity I was born I mean
like even by the end of my first year of
life I was very fat as a child and I was
taken around a different specialists and
thing because I was my mother and my
brother were skinny and so there was
something going on there and I so by the
time I was 24 years old I weighed over a
hundred pounds more than I weigh now so
I weighed 300 some pounds and so and in
addition all this other stuff was going
on too and so I went out for a walk one
afternoon it was a winter in New England
and I was walking just kind of thinking
about how am I gonna get out of all of
this you know how am I gonna get out of
my life and I stepped on a patch of ice
that had some snow over it and I didn’t
see the patch of ice and I stepped on
the patch of ice and my feet shot out
from under me and I went boom down on
the back of my head on the frozen road
and it was I hit myself just hard enough
that didn’t knock me out what it did was
it kind of knocked me into a state of
consciousness that was like nothing else
I’ve ever experienced before I was I was
present but I was also something else
was going on I was kind of like could
see more than I could normally see
inside myself and I think I was laying
on the ground for maybe two minutes or
so in this two minute I could see down
through all the levels of myself and I’d
never been able to see this before it
was like I saw why my muscles were tense
I saw that I had all of this fat around
my body
my muscles were tense and that all of
the fat and the muscles tenseness was
there because I had all of these
feelings inside me that I had never
opened up to like all these things I was
angry about that I’d never told anybody
about and all these things I was sad
about that I’d never told anybody about
and things I was scared about and it was
like I could see the level of the meat
and then I could see down in the level
of the emotion and then I could see down
underneath everything that there was
this clear space that was that there was
nothing kind of written on it there was
nothing there it was kind of like a
spiritual space or an open space with
pure potential and I saw that all of
those feelings and all of that tension
and all of that fat was there because I
I was living somebody else’s life
basically and that I wouldn’t have that
stuff if I had a different life and what
I mean by that is my father had died
before I was born he died while my
mother was pregnant with me and he was
very obese just like I was he smoked
heavily had probably not a very good
relationship with my mother and I know
they had a lot of struggles and so he
died in the midst of while I was just
dating and so I never actually knew him
in in the world but I sort of taken on
his life that’s what I could see down
inside myself that it wasn’t even my
life and so it was a it was an
incredible moment I think I never had
anything like that because I always
thought this was the reality this was
all there was you know and I’d never had
a moment of awakening to spirit and I
think that you know I always said is
that if you’re open the universe will
teach you by tickling you with a feather
but if you’re not open it has to hit you
with a sledgehammer well I was so closed
that this was like getting hit by a
sledgehammer that was
only way I could learn what I needed to
learn I guess and so I was in that
altered state of consciousness for about
two minutes I think and I began to come
back to regular consciousness I could
feel my muscles kind of assembling their
tension and I can feel my awareness of
all of this obesity around me and I
could still feel though that very sweet
open space down in there that’s sweet
open spiritual space that didn’t have
anything on it and as I was coming back
to regular consciousness I had these
several thoughts that were very
different from anything I’d ever thought
one thought was I’m going to find out
what I can do to feel that clear space
all the time and I thought I’m gonna do
what I can to find out how to live that
way how to feel that all the time in my
life and the other thought I had was I’m
gonna live my own life I don’t have to
live my father’s life or anybody’s life
I can invent my own life and if if
that’s possible
how do I want it to be and so as I was
coming back to regular consciousness I
made a commitment to feeling that
spiritual space all the time and then to
invent a healthy body basically and in
invent a great life so I make this new
commitment to I really want to learn how
to feel spirit all the time just in
ordinary life and a friend of mine came
over to my house one afternoon and said
that one of his old Harvard professors
had just come back from India and was
giving a talk down at down the road
about 30 miles at his father’s house and
did I did I want to come and hear him
and I said well what’s he talking about
and he said well he’s been day he’d gone
to India and he’d kind of got
enlightened and he was talking about
yoga and meditate
and I thought well it sounds kind of
interesting you know maybe I go and so
we go down there and there is this guy
in a robe a white robe and there’s all
these devotees around I remember a girl
came up and offered us fruit from a
fruit oh you know and I was thinking
what is this you know this is is this
some cult or something well it turned
him up to be ROM das who was Neils
Harvard professor under those days he
was named Richard Alpert and when Neil
had taken his course at Harvard and now
he’s named ramadasa and so ramadasa just
come back from India and he was just
totally you know he’s so blissed-out and
everything and then part of me related
to it but another part of me thought
what are these people selling you know I
very cynical about that kind of thing at
the time and so I went up after the talk
and asked ROM das I said look I got to
tell you I’m very skeptical about this
kind of stuff this looks sort of insane
to me but since I’m here I just had this
experience where I fell on the ice and I
told him the experience and I said so
I’m gonna learn how to feel that clear
feeling in me all the time just an
ordinary life I felt it for a minute
while I was sort of knocked out but I’d
like to feel it all the time without
bashing my head on the ice and he I
remember he looked up at me for a long
time just sort of looked at me up and
down and he said you should do some
breathing exercises and I said breathing
exercises and he said yeah and I said
well what do you mean by that I never
heard of anything like that and he said
well in India if you have a problem you
might do some yoga around it or
breathing around it and it says valid
away is talking to a therapist about it
and so I said well where do you get
something like this and he said well
just be open to it it’ll come to you and
I said all right and so the next day I
was down at the grocery store and in the
checkout line so I you know pushing my
cart up through the checkout line and
they had a little kiosk of paperback
books a little round kiosk of paperback
books and I glanced down and there is a
book called yoga youth and reincarnation
I’ll never forget this by Jess Stern and
I can see the cover just like it’s
sitting right here now and I remember
look at this okay yoga youth and
reincarnation
all right that’s interesting and so I
picked it up and I open it up and
there’s an entire chapter on breathing
exercises pranayama so here I go in one
day from never having heard of something
to rhom das telling me be open to it –
there it is in my hand and and so I
bought it and so I took it home and I
just started doing the exercises all the
way through I remember it was a Saturday
afternoon and my wife and baby were gone
to visit her mother who lived about
maybe 40 miles away and so I had to
place to myself and I just started doing
these exercises right out of the book I
would do one and then flip the page and
do another one so I started about three
o’clock in the afternoon by about
midnight you know and after doing all of
these breathing and yoga exercises and
chanting and everything like that I was
in touch with that same space that I
felt when I bashed myself on the ice
falling down and so there it was you
know there was a whole different way to
get there
I had lost about 75 pounds so I was sort
of you know I could feel what could
happen you know if this actually came
true if the dream really came true and
this friend of mine that I had known
years before showed up for a visit and
he was still he and I were both sort of
eating buddies you know in those days we
would go out for an ice-cream sundae or
something we worked at the same place
and we were both obese and he was still
you know a 300 pounder and I’d gotten
down to a real slim 225 or something
like that you know and so he looked at
me I remember eating I opened the door
and he looked at me and he said God what
are you doing you know and and what
happened to you and I tried to explain
this thing that I was going through and
I remember the way he looked at me it’s
probably a lot you know it’s probably
like a lot of people when they start
some kind of a change process the people
that are in their lives sort of don’t
know how to relate to it and so what he
did this is so bizarre he went into town
and he brought back a five-pound box of
chocolate caramels which was like the
ultimate bad food for me you know during
that time you know and but it was like
he walked in the door and he was a
practical joker I mean this was partly a
practical joke but I could see the sort
of mean
edge to it you know of kind of wanting
to sabotage and wanting to kind of get
me to be the way I was and and I
realized if I was gonna have to and then
I I didn’t have any way to relate to him
and so I basically had to throw him out
of my house you know leave please leave
and and he did and what an amazing six
months later I got a call from a friend
of mine and said are you sitting down I
said yeah he said can die he had a heart
attack and died he was 26 years old I
mean and I saw in that moment how that
would mean so that was a wake-up moment
for me and the way of saying life has
very serious consequences you know
choices have very serious consequences
after that year I have moved to
California for a few years and went to
graduate school and so over the next few
years I got so I pretty much felt good
all the time and I could see well and
you know my weight stabilized and all of
that and I hadn’t ever worked out the
whole relationship aspect of life and I
continued to have kind of one
relationship after the other of you know
they get to a certain point and then
they would fall apart I would usually
start finding fault with the person or
the other person would find fault with
me and we’d never be able to work beyond
a certain point with with our
relationship and so one magic day I
remember setting the intention of oh I
learned how to see I learned how to be
an okay wait I learned how to live
healthy free of addictions I learned how
to eat well how come it didn’t occur to
me that I could do that with
loving you know it had never occurred to
me that I could actually design my own
life around love and relationships and
so that was a big revelation to me the
idea that the same process could work
and so I began to work with this idea of
enjoying a flow of love in my life and
that that love comes to me I don’t have
to pursue it and as I began to work with
that I had this other amazing insight in
fact I was walking down the street in
San Francisco
I remember in downtown San Francisco
with a woman that I’d been with for a
year or so and we always had the same
complaint with each other her complaint
about me was that I was not in touch
with my feelings and that I never
communicated about anything important
that I never would talk about the real
stuff you know and I of course had my
defenses against that you know that I
forget what they were but I had my good
justification for why I didn’t talk
about my feelings and didn’t talk about
things that were important my complaint
about her was that she was super
critical and so whenever she would get
going with me about we never talked
about anything important or you never in
touch with your feelings I would say
well I would be if he weren’t so darn
critical and now and it would get us
into this loop then and I was walking
down the street with her in San
Francisco and I realized I don’t know
where this insight came from but I
suddenly realized that oh I create that
I’m the one that creates and and has
created my life so that I’m in
relationship with a very critical person
and up until that moment I thought it
was their problem that
I just happened to have the bad luck of
always ending up with a critical woman
and so I remember her stopping on the
street kind of to think about this and
she said what’s going on and I was kind
of trying to share this insight with her
and she wasn’t having it’s not buying my
little insight and the other awareness
that I had in that moment was that the
very thing that I complained about all
the time and then and this is true for
everybody I think that the very thing we
complain about over and over is the very
thing that we’re creating happening in
other words we have this loop going of
not realizing that we draw certain
experiences into our life and then going
around complaining about that all the
time so anything you complain about
repetitively is something that you have
an unconscious intention to produce and
so that was that hit me like a ton of
bricks I suddenly realized oh I require
a critical woman in my life
that’s me dreaming up that dream and my
next thought was well I think I’ll dream
up a better dream you know how dream up
a dream of fun of being surrounded by
loving and supporting supportive people
and that was really a big moment for me
because nobody in the history of my
family that I know of has ever had a
successful relationship besides me and
Katie
in other words up until that moment my
parents had a disastrous relationship my
grandparents just about everybody
everywhere I looked in the family was
full of people who either they had a
very kind of like a routine relationship
they went through the role certain roles
or they managed
stay in a long-term relationship through
the regular application of vodka and
other kinds of things that allowed them
to stay put you know so I realized that
it would be breaking absolutely radical
new ground if I was able to create a
relationship that worked that that would
be an unthinkable thing to do and what
better thing to to make happen you know
than something completely unthinkable
and so I sat down on the floor of my
apartment at the time and designed what
I wanted in a close relationship in my
mind and honesty a relationship where
both of us were free to pursue our
creativity our creative callings and
that each of us took full responsibility
for our lives so that we didn’t get into
blaming each other so if something came
up we would just say hmmm why did I
create that you know and so I remember
saying to the universe at the time
that’s what I want and if it’s not in
the cards for me to have that I’ll be
alone I’m fine with being alone but I
promise I will never settle for less and
I think that little thing I said at the
end kind of kind of crack the whip you
know I said that’s what I’m about here
and so from that moment it only took a
month until Katy came into my life and
one of the great moments of my life was
my first meeting with her because she
came up to me to ask me a question I was
actually giving a seminar at the
Graduate School where she was getting
her PhD and she was also one of the
instructors there at the school she was
the movement therapy instructor and
taught some of the classes there and she
was also getting her PhD and so she came
up to ask me a question during this
seminar I was you mean I don’t remember
what the question is to this day but I
said to her I’m very attracted to you
I just want to let you know that and I
said but I also want to let you know
that I’m only interested in
relationships where both people speak
honestly to each other and both people
take responsibility for their lives and
both people are committed to their
creativity and on those terms would you
like to have a cup of coffee with me and
it was kind of odd I mean I’ve never
seen anything like that in my life you
know it was a totally outrageous thing
to say especially given the context of
what was going on and so I remember the
look on her face she got a wit like this
how’d you take cogitate compute compute
does not compute and suddenly she said
okay and I can do that and so you know
that was our first meeting and basically
set the tone for our whole last 27 years
together