I mean The Truman Show was a was a
another moment where you know I had to
kind of deal with well you’re not
allowed to do that
you know you’ve presented yourself one
way and you know it’s it’s a tough thing
to convince people that there’s
something more or that they might want
to see something different but I’ve
always believed all the way along I
believed that that it was about a spark
right it was about who you are as a
person it’s about your soul it’s about
not necessarily mean you do what you do
so well but there is something about you
that that is attractive to people in a
way that they want to sit and watch you
for an hour and and and listen to you
and list your insights but it’s about
you and who you are what is it worth
what is it worth in that’s that’s what
I’ve come to so many times in my career
in my life is that I’ve I’ve said the
safe road is is is gonna pay off there
are there are many payoffs to it but I
can’t be there and and and have my soul
be on a completely different track I
just it’s always worth losing missing me
it’s always worth risking and if if if
this other side of me is not a popular
one in
in the scheme of things as far as movie
tickets go then you know what I’ll find
a way to sneak it in there out though
I’ll make a plan I will I will show
myself you know I will find a way and
even if even if I’m not as popular I
will live in that area I will expand
myself you know I have I started out
with many many desires as far as as far
as this business goes and I’ve so
surpassed all of them that I bet it’s uh
it’s not as meaningful to me anymore I
really love the work itself I’ve
examined myself on several occasions why
am I really doing this am i doing this
because I want to be famous I think
there was an element to that when I
started after I wanted to be a Rainmaker
we should talk about battling it further
because what does that mean that means I
think I wasn’t necessarily seen as much
or as intently as I wanted to be when I
was a kid I had I had a job at least in
my own mind and that was to make my
mother feel better she was kind of a
very ill in many ways and so it was to
make her feel better and I think
ultimately I imitated my father he was a
very funny guy but also I felt some need
and maybe I don’t know whether they
created it or I created it but I felt a
need to make them feel that their life
was worthwhile that they did something
special just by the very fact that they
brought me into the world so from a very
young age I wanted to convince them that
I was a miracle and then I wanted to
convince the world that I was America
and and now I want to convince the world
that I’m just like them so you went from
Commission first-year miracle and then
you are just like them yes and how does
that play out today in terms of
convincing the world you are just like
them that you are well what I’m finding
is is an interesting thing because I
have a lot of people asking me why are
you are you afraid that people won’t
accept you
and I know that in my life and at least
in my you know the circle people I know
and know my friends that know my work it
seems like any of the people I talk to
like you it seems like people are almost
waiting for it that they suspected that
there’s another
level to me in there and they’re kind of
intrigued and interested in what that
might be it’s it’s it’s that and it’s an
addiction obviously I mean I’d love
addiction to just knowing yourself yeah
an addiction to trying to figure out and
maybe this is an impossible task but you
know everybody’s looking for bliss you
know in some way or another and I think
I’ve you know I’ve come to the
realization lately that that that bliss
comes in waves and there and everybody
but he gets a certain amount of it but
but in between it’s just hard work being
in this body and that it is the unwise
person to expect this will be they’re
all absolutely absolutely but you look
for it you look for and you wonder why
you’re off the beam all the time
whatever so I’m constantly examining
myself I probably do it too much I’ve
always over thought everything I mean
you’re reading them or soon and you read
yeah yeah all right which is the big the
big the big thing for me you know in
life right now is the the excerpt from
compensation yes a he did on
compensation where it talks about that
man would I recognize would see the
mermaids head but not the Dragons tail
and these are this is something that
happens over and over and over in my
life and relationships and in in choices
that I make professionally you know a
lot of times you just don’t want to
believe in the bad but the bad is there
you know the negativity is there or the
the the obvious drawback to the
situation is there but you just go I
want
and and that’s that comes down to thy
will be done and everything biblical
it’s you know it’s so I’m always
struggling with these concepts it’s to
my desire is my only problem in this
world your desire yes it to do your
appetite my appetite yeah absolutely
yeah to prove everything and to be
everything but you it’s our intention
our intention is everything nothing
happens on this planet without it not
one single thing has ever been
accomplished without intention so I
started thinking about my life and I
started thinking about this conference
and what we’re about and and I looked
back and I thought well I was two people
my whole life I was in the living room
entertaining people being a monkey you
know doing my thing for the company and
and trying to relieve my mother who was
suffered she had arthritis and Vitus and
everything everything under the Sun that
was nagging at her and she was depressed
and I wanted her to be free and I wanted
her to realize that
her life was worth something because she
gave birth to someone who was worth
and then I would go into my room and I
with a legal pad I was a little kid I
would sit there and I would try to
figure out what it meant what it was all
about why are we here what is this and
one day I read something from Buddha
that said that all spirituality is about
relieving suffering and I suddenly
realized that’s what I’m doing in the
other room
and and I’m aligned
you know this my purpose is aligned with
this so I felt incredibly lucky I lose
sight of that all the time I get caught
up in different concerns ego concerns
but I’m so lucky to be a part of this
community and to to do something that
has a value
I have really cherished that and we are
all one thing it really is true can I
speak to that the person in the last row
in the very last seat against the wall
is there is there someone back there
that can say hello what’s your name
Andrea are you aware that do you have
the distinct palpable feeling that your
intention created this evening as well
as Melissa’s do you understand that that
all of this this entire event is
we’ll just try to feel it for a second
some people go to the Super Bowl I am
the Super Bowl man I swear my friends
are all going to see that play that was
great I’m like yeah but the energy
coming out of me right now man is
unbelievable I’m just sitting there
I’m the stadium on the vendors outside
I’m the crack dealer on the corner I’m
everything man there’s no end to it and
it’s so much fun it’s so much fun so I
hope you can feel that and I hope you
understand that you are one of the
creators of this evening that your
intentions and your desires created this
evening as well and then I hope you are
able to ask yourself why did I get such
I mean you’re in the last row in the
that’s gotta be it’s a really selfless
thing to do so understand based on some
things that I read about you you know
that in the end it’s really a lot about
self-respect yes it is because you know
yourself yeah and it is well yeah and
self-respect is certainly one of the
major problems in the world self-esteem
is is the reason for most ills and you
know desiring what we don’t have I mean
some Holderness me or I am Peter Ashe
Hilton yes how did you mean that well in
in the respect that he has this yearning
this yearning that that is more
important to him
again false gods right when you put
something so in the forefront of your
life some desire in the forefront of
your life that everything else starts to
suffer
I understand that I understand that
because I’ve gone that way and then had
to pull myself back or whatever but it’s
the yearning that that that is can be
something very positive it can create
wonderful things but when it when it
makes you negate your life and the
people in your life it becomes or you
know again like when it makes you bear
false witness you know and sell somebody
out it’s it’s just not worth having you
know that that yearning is the tough
part
the yearning to kind of have that but
not make it completely consume you and
that would be the selling out of his
friendly out of his friends we’re not
guilty of anything and he’s waiting even
know he’s living in a place of fear of
loss right you know and that’s always a
dangerous character the guy who’s afraid
of loss is a dangerous guy because he’s
the guy in Hollywood the stabs you in
the back or you know turns on somebody
or whatever they you know trying to
protect its you know story if you know a
man’s fear then you can conquer him some
say truly I mean that’s what the
blacklist era was about some somebody
you know McCarthy sat back and said my
gosh what a what a wonderful fear to
take advantage of and and to bring
you know what I believe in the universe
I believe in the horn of plenty I
believe in the cornucopia you know so
I’m not afraid of Tom Cruise and what
his movies do and I can enjoy it and I
can enjoy Russell Crowe and because
there is so much in the universe we all
you know can feed from it and we all we
all you know there’s enough for
everybody
is that where you are in your head yes
absolutely season they’ve got a Russell
Crowe as a movie I don’t pose as a movie
yet you’re saying there’s enough I’m
perfectly happy with what absolutely Jim
has been given so much I mean I would be
a green boar at the trough of life you
know if I if I question if you wanted at
all oh my gosh I mean you know I I sit
down with the friends of mine who are in
the perfect in the acting profession and
and they say you know these are really
good actors and they say man no one’s
really getting the chance to do what
you’re getting to do you know I mean
this is a it’s quite an arc what’s going
on that time and time again I feel so
lucky to have it but you had to bring
something otherwise they would not
continue to give you the chance and you
obviously recognize that you have to
allow yourself to be seen that’s at risk
the risk is especially for somebody
who’s comedic yeah who has that that
weapon at its disposal just to go off
into the rift yeah yeah to risk being
seen is the toughest thing in the world
we’re all very shy people you know
people who do comedy were shy and the
emotion is right there on the surface if
you pricked me with a pin I would fly
around the room you know so that’s the
risk is that you are showing them
yourself you’re your true authentic self
and the chances of being rejected are
much more important you know much more terrifying
another moment where you know I had to
kind of deal with well you’re not
allowed to do that
you know you’ve presented yourself one
way and you know it’s it’s a tough thing
to convince people that there’s
something more or that they might want
to see something different but I’ve
always believed all the way along I
believed that that it was about a spark
right it was about who you are as a
person it’s about your soul it’s about
not necessarily mean you do what you do
so well but there is something about you
that that is attractive to people in a
way that they want to sit and watch you
for an hour and and and listen to you
and list your insights but it’s about
you and who you are what is it worth
what is it worth in that’s that’s what
I’ve come to so many times in my career
in my life is that I’ve I’ve said the
safe road is is is gonna pay off there
are there are many payoffs to it but I
can’t be there and and and have my soul
be on a completely different track I
just it’s always worth losing missing me
it’s always worth risking and if if if
this other side of me is not a popular
one in
in the scheme of things as far as movie
tickets go then you know what I’ll find
a way to sneak it in there out though
I’ll make a plan I will I will show
myself you know I will find a way and
even if even if I’m not as popular I
will live in that area I will expand
myself you know I have I started out
with many many desires as far as as far
as this business goes and I’ve so
surpassed all of them that I bet it’s uh
it’s not as meaningful to me anymore I
really love the work itself I’ve
examined myself on several occasions why
am I really doing this am i doing this
because I want to be famous I think
there was an element to that when I
started after I wanted to be a Rainmaker
we should talk about battling it further
because what does that mean that means I
think I wasn’t necessarily seen as much
or as intently as I wanted to be when I
was a kid I had I had a job at least in
my own mind and that was to make my
mother feel better she was kind of a
very ill in many ways and so it was to
make her feel better and I think
ultimately I imitated my father he was a
very funny guy but also I felt some need
and maybe I don’t know whether they
created it or I created it but I felt a
need to make them feel that their life
was worthwhile that they did something
special just by the very fact that they
brought me into the world so from a very
young age I wanted to convince them that
I was a miracle and then I wanted to
convince the world that I was America
and and now I want to convince the world
that I’m just like them so you went from
Commission first-year miracle and then
you are just like them yes and how does
that play out today in terms of
convincing the world you are just like
them that you are well what I’m finding
is is an interesting thing because I
have a lot of people asking me why are
you are you afraid that people won’t
accept you
and I know that in my life and at least
in my you know the circle people I know
and know my friends that know my work it
seems like any of the people I talk to
like you it seems like people are almost
waiting for it that they suspected that
there’s another
level to me in there and they’re kind of
intrigued and interested in what that
might be it’s it’s it’s that and it’s an
addiction obviously I mean I’d love
addiction to just knowing yourself yeah
an addiction to trying to figure out and
maybe this is an impossible task but you
know everybody’s looking for bliss you
know in some way or another and I think
I’ve you know I’ve come to the
realization lately that that that bliss
comes in waves and there and everybody
but he gets a certain amount of it but
but in between it’s just hard work being
in this body and that it is the unwise
person to expect this will be they’re
all absolutely absolutely but you look
for it you look for and you wonder why
you’re off the beam all the time
whatever so I’m constantly examining
myself I probably do it too much I’ve
always over thought everything I mean
you’re reading them or soon and you read
yeah yeah all right which is the big the
big the big thing for me you know in
life right now is the the excerpt from
compensation yes a he did on
compensation where it talks about that
man would I recognize would see the
mermaids head but not the Dragons tail
and these are this is something that
happens over and over and over in my
life and relationships and in in choices
that I make professionally you know a
lot of times you just don’t want to
believe in the bad but the bad is there
you know the negativity is there or the
the the obvious drawback to the
situation is there but you just go I
want
and and that’s that comes down to thy
will be done and everything biblical
it’s you know it’s so I’m always
struggling with these concepts it’s to
my desire is my only problem in this
world your desire yes it to do your
appetite my appetite yeah absolutely
yeah to prove everything and to be
everything but you it’s our intention
our intention is everything nothing
happens on this planet without it not
one single thing has ever been
accomplished without intention so I
started thinking about my life and I
started thinking about this conference
and what we’re about and and I looked
back and I thought well I was two people
my whole life I was in the living room
entertaining people being a monkey you
know doing my thing for the company and
and trying to relieve my mother who was
suffered she had arthritis and Vitus and
everything everything under the Sun that
was nagging at her and she was depressed
and I wanted her to be free and I wanted
her to realize that
her life was worth something because she
gave birth to someone who was worth
and then I would go into my room and I
with a legal pad I was a little kid I
would sit there and I would try to
figure out what it meant what it was all
about why are we here what is this and
one day I read something from Buddha
that said that all spirituality is about
relieving suffering and I suddenly
realized that’s what I’m doing in the
other room
and and I’m aligned
you know this my purpose is aligned with
this so I felt incredibly lucky I lose
sight of that all the time I get caught
up in different concerns ego concerns
but I’m so lucky to be a part of this
community and to to do something that
has a value
I have really cherished that and we are
all one thing it really is true can I
speak to that the person in the last row
in the very last seat against the wall
is there is there someone back there
that can say hello what’s your name
Andrea are you aware that do you have
the distinct palpable feeling that your
intention created this evening as well
as Melissa’s do you understand that that
all of this this entire event is
we’ll just try to feel it for a second
some people go to the Super Bowl I am
the Super Bowl man I swear my friends
are all going to see that play that was
great I’m like yeah but the energy
coming out of me right now man is
unbelievable I’m just sitting there
I’m the stadium on the vendors outside
I’m the crack dealer on the corner I’m
everything man there’s no end to it and
it’s so much fun it’s so much fun so I
hope you can feel that and I hope you
understand that you are one of the
creators of this evening that your
intentions and your desires created this
evening as well and then I hope you are
able to ask yourself why did I get such
I mean you’re in the last row in the
that’s gotta be it’s a really selfless
thing to do so understand based on some
things that I read about you you know
that in the end it’s really a lot about
self-respect yes it is because you know
yourself yeah and it is well yeah and
self-respect is certainly one of the
major problems in the world self-esteem
is is the reason for most ills and you
know desiring what we don’t have I mean
some Holderness me or I am Peter Ashe
Hilton yes how did you mean that well in
in the respect that he has this yearning
this yearning that that is more
important to him
again false gods right when you put
something so in the forefront of your
life some desire in the forefront of
your life that everything else starts to
suffer
I understand that I understand that
because I’ve gone that way and then had
to pull myself back or whatever but it’s
the yearning that that that is can be
something very positive it can create
wonderful things but when it when it
makes you negate your life and the
people in your life it becomes or you
know again like when it makes you bear
false witness you know and sell somebody
out it’s it’s just not worth having you
know that that yearning is the tough
part
the yearning to kind of have that but
not make it completely consume you and
that would be the selling out of his
friendly out of his friends we’re not
guilty of anything and he’s waiting even
know he’s living in a place of fear of
loss right you know and that’s always a
dangerous character the guy who’s afraid
of loss is a dangerous guy because he’s
the guy in Hollywood the stabs you in
the back or you know turns on somebody
or whatever they you know trying to
protect its you know story if you know a
man’s fear then you can conquer him some
say truly I mean that’s what the
blacklist era was about some somebody
you know McCarthy sat back and said my
gosh what a what a wonderful fear to
take advantage of and and to bring
you know what I believe in the universe
I believe in the horn of plenty I
believe in the cornucopia you know so
I’m not afraid of Tom Cruise and what
his movies do and I can enjoy it and I
can enjoy Russell Crowe and because
there is so much in the universe we all
you know can feed from it and we all we
all you know there’s enough for
everybody
is that where you are in your head yes
absolutely season they’ve got a Russell
Crowe as a movie I don’t pose as a movie
yet you’re saying there’s enough I’m
perfectly happy with what absolutely Jim
has been given so much I mean I would be
a green boar at the trough of life you
know if I if I question if you wanted at
all oh my gosh I mean you know I I sit
down with the friends of mine who are in
the perfect in the acting profession and
and they say you know these are really
good actors and they say man no one’s
really getting the chance to do what
you’re getting to do you know I mean
this is a it’s quite an arc what’s going
on that time and time again I feel so
lucky to have it but you had to bring
something otherwise they would not
continue to give you the chance and you
obviously recognize that you have to
allow yourself to be seen that’s at risk
the risk is especially for somebody
who’s comedic yeah who has that that
weapon at its disposal just to go off
into the rift yeah yeah to risk being
seen is the toughest thing in the world
we’re all very shy people you know
people who do comedy were shy and the
emotion is right there on the surface if
you pricked me with a pin I would fly
around the room you know so that’s the
risk is that you are showing them
yourself you’re your true authentic self
and the chances of being rejected are
much more important you know much more terrifying
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