[Applause]
you know when you’re on the bus on your
way to work or school Monday morning and
it feels so good sitting right there by
the window looking out and I usually
listen to a playlist on Spotify with
songs that I used to like but I’m tired
of listening to all the time but I still
do because it’s the only play list I
have that’s available offline and I
always forget downloading something new
when I get to a place with Wi-Fi and I’m
thinking yes new week new day while I’m
also worrying about all the work I
should have finished by Friday but
that’s why I love sitting there in the
vacuum of things I should have done but
can’t do anything about right now
because I can’t go anywhere the bus is a
place of solitude it’s a moving bench in
the park where I have nothing and
everything no future no past and I’m
thinking I wish this moment could last I
wish I had a little more cash so I could
take some time off I wish I had a little
more time for traveling hanging with my
friends working out I wish my facebook
didn’t consist of people that I don’t
really know but I know everything about
I wish I would stop making the same
choices while expecting things to go
differently I wish I would think before
I spoke at least then I would have the
ability to lead a normal conversation
when that doesn’t go like this you asked
me for information about you know
whatever it’s something my answer to you
has nothing to do with what you asked
you look at me like this I realize I’ve
said something wrong but instead of
asking what he really wants to know I
keep talking even though I have no idea
what this conversation is about you’re
not saying anything but you’re still
being polite and kind the silence is
extremely awkward but I don’t mind so I
keep talking
your eyes leap towards the exit sign
signalizing that you want to keep
walking I don’t take the hint you try to
get through but you’re disrupting me
trying to run off my monologue so I
interrupt you I just want a chance to
explain to you that there is a point to
what I’m saying so you can’t intervene
but I realized there is no point to what
I’m saying at all so I closed the whole
thing off with do you know what I mean
even though I know that you don’t know
what I mean because I have no idea what
I mean I wish I were you know a type of
person who works out regularly
I wish the gym weren’t as lit up as well
me during the holidays and speaking of
being drunk during the holidays all the
people is the only group of people who
doesn’t have to stand in line for the
equipment because they can work out when
no one else has the time I wish I were
an old person I wish I weren’t afraid of
getting older I’m not ready you know to
become a grown-up with responsibilities
but I don’t want to go back either I
don’t want to be 18 again not for real
and that should be a perfect base for
being present in this moment right but I
still want to see if the future is
better and I want to go back in time to
understand why life didn’t go as planned
to see how I would handle the struggle
how I would fight with the knowledge I
have now and tell the little Evelyn from
the past bed everything is going to be
alright
trust me I know what you’re going
through and it’s hard but it has taught
me to be strong you are the reason I am
Who I am so just hold on I wish I could
say that to myself now and actually
believe it believe there is a meaning I
wish my head were done screaming I wish
I could stop the grind I wish I was able
to meditate and still my mind I wish I
didn’t have to rewind conversations in
my head like I think I can change what
I’ve said I wish I were more like
Instagram me
I wish I were that person I want
everyone to see in there
we’re all happy perfect fit and
successful famous rich and everyone’s
hating thinking I’m not it and is this
it and life becomes a hurricane
consisting of roles I can’t fulfill that
pulls me in and pushes me down but so
slowly I don’t realize what’s going on
until I’m on the ground looking up and I
want to rise but what’s the point when
every thought you have someone else has
popped through and everything you do
someone else is already done only they
did it better than you so I conclude
with I will never be enough but I can
have enough I can consume and get better
costumes prettier masks bigger castles
where I don’t need to deal with the
world I wish the world were a beautiful
place where we acknowledged our mistakes
and could learn from the past I wish the
world were a beautiful place where
rivers of oil didn’t run so fast that
clean drinking water lost the battle I
wish the world were a beautiful place
where we did not need the Paris
agreement to achieve the goals of the
Paris agreement and I wish the world
were a beautiful place where we could
comprehend the power of what we are
reading where I chose al-jazeera instead
of what a certain precedent is tweeting
instead I’m eating fake news like it was
a Big Mac meal I know it’s full of
but it’s cheap and available and it
tastes good but only while I’m eating it
I’m sorry I just wish that what I’m
saying to you guys right now wouldn’t
matter you know I just wish it was
enough to talk about what I need to do I
wish I would stop buying lies on sale
instead of trying to deal with the truth
I wish I weren’t see-through I wish one
person on this bus would see me Here I
am looking out of the window with plugs
in my ears listening to songs I’ve heard
a million times before that I don’t even
want to hear I’m wishing for a change
while I’m doing exactly the same and our
bus is still moving until one day
it stops thank you
[Applause]
you know when you’re on the bus on your
way to work or school Monday morning and
it feels so good sitting right there by
the window looking out and I usually
listen to a playlist on Spotify with
songs that I used to like but I’m tired
of listening to all the time but I still
do because it’s the only play list I
have that’s available offline and I
always forget downloading something new
when I get to a place with Wi-Fi and I’m
thinking yes new week new day while I’m
also worrying about all the work I
should have finished by Friday but
that’s why I love sitting there in the
vacuum of things I should have done but
can’t do anything about right now
because I can’t go anywhere the bus is a
place of solitude it’s a moving bench in
the park where I have nothing and
everything no future no past and I’m
thinking I wish this moment could last I
wish I had a little more cash so I could
take some time off I wish I had a little
more time for traveling hanging with my
friends working out I wish my facebook
didn’t consist of people that I don’t
really know but I know everything about
I wish I would stop making the same
choices while expecting things to go
differently I wish I would think before
I spoke at least then I would have the
ability to lead a normal conversation
when that doesn’t go like this you asked
me for information about you know
whatever it’s something my answer to you
has nothing to do with what you asked
you look at me like this I realize I’ve
said something wrong but instead of
asking what he really wants to know I
keep talking even though I have no idea
what this conversation is about you’re
not saying anything but you’re still
being polite and kind the silence is
extremely awkward but I don’t mind so I
keep talking
your eyes leap towards the exit sign
signalizing that you want to keep
walking I don’t take the hint you try to
get through but you’re disrupting me
trying to run off my monologue so I
interrupt you I just want a chance to
explain to you that there is a point to
what I’m saying so you can’t intervene
but I realized there is no point to what
I’m saying at all so I closed the whole
thing off with do you know what I mean
even though I know that you don’t know
what I mean because I have no idea what
I mean I wish I were you know a type of
person who works out regularly
I wish the gym weren’t as lit up as well
me during the holidays and speaking of
being drunk during the holidays all the
people is the only group of people who
doesn’t have to stand in line for the
equipment because they can work out when
no one else has the time I wish I were
an old person I wish I weren’t afraid of
getting older I’m not ready you know to
become a grown-up with responsibilities
but I don’t want to go back either I
don’t want to be 18 again not for real
and that should be a perfect base for
being present in this moment right but I
still want to see if the future is
better and I want to go back in time to
understand why life didn’t go as planned
to see how I would handle the struggle
how I would fight with the knowledge I
have now and tell the little Evelyn from
the past bed everything is going to be
alright
trust me I know what you’re going
through and it’s hard but it has taught
me to be strong you are the reason I am
Who I am so just hold on I wish I could
say that to myself now and actually
believe it believe there is a meaning I
wish my head were done screaming I wish
I could stop the grind I wish I was able
to meditate and still my mind I wish I
didn’t have to rewind conversations in
my head like I think I can change what
I’ve said I wish I were more like
Instagram me
I wish I were that person I want
everyone to see in there
we’re all happy perfect fit and
successful famous rich and everyone’s
hating thinking I’m not it and is this
it and life becomes a hurricane
consisting of roles I can’t fulfill that
pulls me in and pushes me down but so
slowly I don’t realize what’s going on
until I’m on the ground looking up and I
want to rise but what’s the point when
every thought you have someone else has
popped through and everything you do
someone else is already done only they
did it better than you so I conclude
with I will never be enough but I can
have enough I can consume and get better
costumes prettier masks bigger castles
where I don’t need to deal with the
world I wish the world were a beautiful
place where we acknowledged our mistakes
and could learn from the past I wish the
world were a beautiful place where
rivers of oil didn’t run so fast that
clean drinking water lost the battle I
wish the world were a beautiful place
where we did not need the Paris
agreement to achieve the goals of the
Paris agreement and I wish the world
were a beautiful place where we could
comprehend the power of what we are
reading where I chose al-jazeera instead
of what a certain precedent is tweeting
instead I’m eating fake news like it was
a Big Mac meal I know it’s full of
but it’s cheap and available and it
tastes good but only while I’m eating it
I’m sorry I just wish that what I’m
saying to you guys right now wouldn’t
matter you know I just wish it was
enough to talk about what I need to do I
wish I would stop buying lies on sale
instead of trying to deal with the truth
I wish I weren’t see-through I wish one
person on this bus would see me Here I
am looking out of the window with plugs
in my ears listening to songs I’ve heard
a million times before that I don’t even
want to hear I’m wishing for a change
while I’m doing exactly the same and our
bus is still moving until one day
it stops thank you
[Applause]
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