I don’t know if anybody out there can
relate but like I have a hard time with
life sometimes or sometimes it’s great
but a lot of times for me it’s really
hard and and no matter how I’m feeling
like I always find myself like
struggling with certain patterns be hate
find myself like stuck in like this in
like the same thing that keeps repeating
over and over again and I’m just like
how do I end up how am I in this and
it’s that moment where you’re in it and
then you can separate yourself from that
situation and you look at it and you see
it for what it is and you you’re able to
then do something about it like you
you’ve now broken out of that that
circle of cycle and this is it a are you
kind of first the first couple of lines
on the track make me think that you are
like overthinking things in your life is
it like a your it could really mean
something honestly like there’s so many
there’s so many circumstances that for
me that relate to this situation but
like I know that for me when I’m inside
myself when I’m in my own head it gets
this place right here this is the skull
between my ears that is a bad
neighborhood and I am I should not be in
there alone I nee I can’t be in there by
myself you’re talking about it just you
just just pitch in save it it’s crazy in
here is a bad place for me to be by
myself and so when I’m in that like I
get I my whole life gets thrown off like
if I’m in there like I don’t say nice
things for myself like there’s another
Chester in there that’s like wants to
take me down and so and I find that it
could be whether it’s substances or
whether it’s behavior or whether it’s
like depressive stuff or whatever it is
like if I’m not like actively like doing
getting out of myself and and being with
other people like being a dad being a
husband being a bandmate like being a
friend
being someone out like if I’m not if I’m
out of myself I’m great if I’m inside
all the time I’m horrible – and so for
me it’s like that was kind of where I
don’t like my mind right now
stacking up problems that are so
unnecessary you know that’s where that
kind of that was where that came from
for me and and that’s but it’s the
moment where it’s like really is like I
Drive myself nuts like actually thinking
that like all these are real problems
like all the stuff that’s going on in
here is actually just I’m doing this to
myself and regardless of whatever that
thing is and so this is that like
conscious awareness of that thing and
like when you when you can step back and
look at something like you’re actually
elevating yourself consciously like
you’re you’re you’re enlightened at that
point right to a certain degree and so
this is that moment of the might meant
where you go you know I could do
something about this and by doing it I
can move forward and get unstuck from
this and I could actually it was for me
it’s like I can live with life on life’s
terms like I can experience the whole
spectrum of humanity and not want to get
out of it whether it’s happiness sadness
or whatever like I just want to like I’m
in it I just want to get out of however
[Music]
and when you wrote this song to her
clearly in that bad neighborhood in your
brain this time last year I was a mess
like a total wreck you know and like I
think for a lot of people I think like
if you’re successful like all the sudden
like you get like a cream like to get
like some card in the mail that says
like you’re going to be totally
satisfied and happy for the rest of your
life it doesn’t happen like life for me
happens the way it always might the only
difference is I’m in Lincoln Park like
what goes on inside my head it’s always
been always been said so what I’m not
working on that like my life is messy
and
that’s kind of how the the inspiration
for all these songs came from
conversations about life and what was
going on as friends as husbands fathers
as you know whatever business partners
like we were all talking about what was
going on in all aspects of our lives at
certain time start the process of this
record and we realize like man we’ve all
gone through like some really crazy
stuff and we don’t need to find the
source of inspiration like what’s this
record about like this is our life we
always have written about our lives and
like that should just be enough we don’t
need to find some new thing like life is
always throwing these like curveballs at
you whether they’re good or bad like it
it just happens and eventually what I
found is especially with the bad stuff
because that’s the stuff that I kind of
lean that’s stuff that remised that
sticks to me a little bit more coming
out at the other side and being like man
I’m a better person because of that or I
can’t I’m more compassionate because of
that or you know I can understand I feel
like I understand people or humanity a
little bit differently I’ve been through
some pretty crazy stuff and that’s a
positive so finding the positive in all
these things that’s what we always try
to do but we still talk about the
feelings we had going through all these
different circumstance like but the
world like not like I need a break like
honestly like fuck all of you like
everybody in everything and I don’t like
doing anything anymore like nothing
makes me happy
I don’t like anyone I even told one of
my therapist at one point I said I just
want to feel anything none of us are
immune from you know just shit happening
to you to you you know and not to you
but just kind of making poor choices or
being human there’s there’s always that
element and for me life got really weird
and really hard all at one time there
was a few times over the last couple
years where I was just like kind of like
ready to throw in the towel and just
going to give up on everything but I
found it for me
most of my suffering is self-inflicted
it’s not like it’s coming from some
external source that’s making me feel
that no one can make you feel anything
it’s
think about and your internally that
makes you feel things like you are the
only person to feel anything and so I
know that I have this pattern of getting
into these kinds of thoughts and these
kinds of yacking actions and choices
I’ve always had these kind of depresses
this depressive side and I think that’s
something some people may not have gone
down the road of like injecting and like
living on the streets and like you know
that kind of stuff and so they think
like oh my story’s not that bad it’s
like dude no man like if you if you’re
here about if you’re here it’s that bad
there’s nothing special about that guy
who’s been living the streets and the
person who’s just like binge drinker
three times a month your life’s puffed
up and you realize what they’re
something to do about it and it’s just
as hard on either end but each one is
just as relevant as the next and you
don’t have to know somebody to have an
intimate experience with them and it
also you don’t have to like know someone
to feel safe enough to talk to them any
group of people can get together and
just be like hey we’re going to get real
in here like let’s get real and just be
vulnerable to say whatever is going on
and like be accepted walk out of room
[Music] you
relate but like I have a hard time with
life sometimes or sometimes it’s great
but a lot of times for me it’s really
hard and and no matter how I’m feeling
like I always find myself like
struggling with certain patterns be hate
find myself like stuck in like this in
like the same thing that keeps repeating
over and over again and I’m just like
how do I end up how am I in this and
it’s that moment where you’re in it and
then you can separate yourself from that
situation and you look at it and you see
it for what it is and you you’re able to
then do something about it like you
you’ve now broken out of that that
circle of cycle and this is it a are you
kind of first the first couple of lines
on the track make me think that you are
like overthinking things in your life is
it like a your it could really mean
something honestly like there’s so many
there’s so many circumstances that for
me that relate to this situation but
like I know that for me when I’m inside
myself when I’m in my own head it gets
this place right here this is the skull
between my ears that is a bad
neighborhood and I am I should not be in
there alone I nee I can’t be in there by
myself you’re talking about it just you
just just pitch in save it it’s crazy in
here is a bad place for me to be by
myself and so when I’m in that like I
get I my whole life gets thrown off like
if I’m in there like I don’t say nice
things for myself like there’s another
Chester in there that’s like wants to
take me down and so and I find that it
could be whether it’s substances or
whether it’s behavior or whether it’s
like depressive stuff or whatever it is
like if I’m not like actively like doing
getting out of myself and and being with
other people like being a dad being a
husband being a bandmate like being a
friend
being someone out like if I’m not if I’m
out of myself I’m great if I’m inside
all the time I’m horrible – and so for
me it’s like that was kind of where I
don’t like my mind right now
stacking up problems that are so
unnecessary you know that’s where that
kind of that was where that came from
for me and and that’s but it’s the
moment where it’s like really is like I
Drive myself nuts like actually thinking
that like all these are real problems
like all the stuff that’s going on in
here is actually just I’m doing this to
myself and regardless of whatever that
thing is and so this is that like
conscious awareness of that thing and
like when you when you can step back and
look at something like you’re actually
elevating yourself consciously like
you’re you’re you’re enlightened at that
point right to a certain degree and so
this is that moment of the might meant
where you go you know I could do
something about this and by doing it I
can move forward and get unstuck from
this and I could actually it was for me
it’s like I can live with life on life’s
terms like I can experience the whole
spectrum of humanity and not want to get
out of it whether it’s happiness sadness
or whatever like I just want to like I’m
in it I just want to get out of however
[Music]
and when you wrote this song to her
clearly in that bad neighborhood in your
brain this time last year I was a mess
like a total wreck you know and like I
think for a lot of people I think like
if you’re successful like all the sudden
like you get like a cream like to get
like some card in the mail that says
like you’re going to be totally
satisfied and happy for the rest of your
life it doesn’t happen like life for me
happens the way it always might the only
difference is I’m in Lincoln Park like
what goes on inside my head it’s always
been always been said so what I’m not
working on that like my life is messy
and
that’s kind of how the the inspiration
for all these songs came from
conversations about life and what was
going on as friends as husbands fathers
as you know whatever business partners
like we were all talking about what was
going on in all aspects of our lives at
certain time start the process of this
record and we realize like man we’ve all
gone through like some really crazy
stuff and we don’t need to find the
source of inspiration like what’s this
record about like this is our life we
always have written about our lives and
like that should just be enough we don’t
need to find some new thing like life is
always throwing these like curveballs at
you whether they’re good or bad like it
it just happens and eventually what I
found is especially with the bad stuff
because that’s the stuff that I kind of
lean that’s stuff that remised that
sticks to me a little bit more coming
out at the other side and being like man
I’m a better person because of that or I
can’t I’m more compassionate because of
that or you know I can understand I feel
like I understand people or humanity a
little bit differently I’ve been through
some pretty crazy stuff and that’s a
positive so finding the positive in all
these things that’s what we always try
to do but we still talk about the
feelings we had going through all these
different circumstance like but the
world like not like I need a break like
honestly like fuck all of you like
everybody in everything and I don’t like
doing anything anymore like nothing
makes me happy
I don’t like anyone I even told one of
my therapist at one point I said I just
want to feel anything none of us are
immune from you know just shit happening
to you to you you know and not to you
but just kind of making poor choices or
being human there’s there’s always that
element and for me life got really weird
and really hard all at one time there
was a few times over the last couple
years where I was just like kind of like
ready to throw in the towel and just
going to give up on everything but I
found it for me
most of my suffering is self-inflicted
it’s not like it’s coming from some
external source that’s making me feel
that no one can make you feel anything
it’s
think about and your internally that
makes you feel things like you are the
only person to feel anything and so I
know that I have this pattern of getting
into these kinds of thoughts and these
kinds of yacking actions and choices
I’ve always had these kind of depresses
this depressive side and I think that’s
something some people may not have gone
down the road of like injecting and like
living on the streets and like you know
that kind of stuff and so they think
like oh my story’s not that bad it’s
like dude no man like if you if you’re
here about if you’re here it’s that bad
there’s nothing special about that guy
who’s been living the streets and the
person who’s just like binge drinker
three times a month your life’s puffed
up and you realize what they’re
something to do about it and it’s just
as hard on either end but each one is
just as relevant as the next and you
don’t have to know somebody to have an
intimate experience with them and it
also you don’t have to like know someone
to feel safe enough to talk to them any
group of people can get together and
just be like hey we’re going to get real
in here like let’s get real and just be
vulnerable to say whatever is going on
and like be accepted walk out of room
[Music] you
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